warning: full blown rant below

luv2trav

Just wish I could catch a break...the last couple of days at work where horrible and I am just so done...I would have thought that now that my chemo and radiation are done and I only have to do herceptin every 3 weeks I would be in a better place but all I want to do is cry...when is enough enough??? I am tired of being strong, tired of working and just tired of being tired. My husband had a brain aneurysm 5 yrs ago and doesn't work anymore...doesn't have the stamina for it....my 16 yr daughter passed 4 years ago, my brother passed in may.  I had back surgery in 2008, neck surgery in2010 and now this stupid breast cancer.  I am so tired of people telling me how strong i am....I am a school nurse that deals with some very tough kids-and the staff seems to think that I am capable of solving everyones problems. Do people not think ? Someone today asked me why i seemed stressed!!!  Are you kidding me?????Uuuuuuggggggghhhhhh.  Why did I think working though this was a good idea?????  Calgon take me away......

ok rant over -thanks for listening

CorinneM1

Rant away.  There will always be an ear to listen to you, a shoulder to lean on and hug to keep you warm here.

mrsnjband

Rant away, I soooo understand how you feel.  God Bless. NJ

dgardner

Sometime a good old fashion rant and cry session is the only thing the helps.

sheila888

Ranting is good for us. I can almost here you. because I live in NR.

Sometimes I think we should show the weaker site of ourselves. I did it for years being strong, everything is OK...........

HUGS♥

LRM216

Luv2travel:

Geez - for a moment I thought I wrote that post.  We have similar lives and circumstances.  Doesn't make things any different or better for you, but just wanted to let you know I too relate to everything you posted. Lost my husband to esophogeal cancer - then I lost my youngest daughter last March - with so much crap in between.  Also work full time, raise my grand-daughter and get so tired of everything at times.  Yet everyone thinks I'm superwoman.  Sometimes - life just sucks big time, as we both well know, but then sometimes life is so very, very good, and I try really, really hard to hold on to those fleeting times and oftentimes have to give thanks for all the truly wonderful people that have entered my life through all these catastrophes.  Hang in there and rant away whenever needed.  Sometimes I find it totally cleansing.

God bless -

Linda

Kaara

I read a post on this site the other day that is so appropriate for what you are going through.  We are all told we are so strong and we can handle just about anything...stay positive....don't feel sorry for ourselves, and so on.  Well....it's ok to do all that...it's healthy, but at the same time, it's also ok to be down and out once in a while!  The topic was posted by wallycat..

"Lagom - Just Right - Dr. Weil Site" and it refers to Emotional Sea Level.  It's too long to put here, and I don't know how to copy and paste on this site, but if you find it and read it, I promise it will speak to you and you will feel better.  I did.

Sending prayers and positive energy! 

pickle

Luv2travel, you have certainly been dealt more than your fair share....you do need to catch a break. Frig, you have been through a lot. It must be exhausting enough and then you have to be in a work place where your job is to solve other people's stuff....Holy cow. Rant away dear lady. I wish I had some graet words of wisdom to help but I am at a loss. Sending you cyber hugs and a big bog box of calgon....have a glass of wine and a hot tub filled with lavendar calgon, read a mindless book and escape for a bit. You certainly deserve to give yourself a break.

Thinking of you

Beth

208sandy

Oh please, please get some chocolate - I am sending huge hugs - I cannot identify with you at all - I did lose my dh while I was undergoing treatment but have never lost a child and just cannot fathom how awful that must be - wonder if you can take a leave from your job even for just a few weeks - I think you need to escape and get a little rest.  Sending hugs, Sandy

CookieMonster

Ugh!!  Hugs to you. I've been told by a lot of people how strong I am, but right now I don't feel so strong, I had 3 lumpectomies and made it through them fine, but now am facing a mastectomy and it's so difficult for me. I've not been through nearly what you have and I know how I feel. I'm so sorry that you're having to deal with all of this. Hang in there and rant away at the boards, we're here to listen and support you.

luv2trav

thanks all for the hugs...and the positive vibes.  Nice to have a place to come into and rant. People in the outside world tend to avoid me when I show any type of anxiety or moodiness..gets so tiring being strong so that others don't get upset...plus I think my life scares people-like my calamity's are contagious or something...

Sandy thanks for the chocolate idea....chocolate makes everything better-must go raid sons Halloween bag.

Lrm: sending hugs your way as well..my daughters birthday is 2/16.

Hugs all