state of mind

kanmom3

I am coming up on a year for my diagnosis for stage !!B in my left breast I finished up my chemo in May and had a bilateral masectomy in June I opted for both which I still think was the right thing to do but have had nothing but problems since in the Right Breast I got an infection soon after the surg and they had to remove my expander and I just got it put back in 3 weeks ago I was also a candidate for the nipple sparing and once again I have lost most of the right one due to the small size and the second surg on the right side, I am going this thursday for my first injection gor expansion and I have been a wreck I come home from work crying I even want to cry while at work I am not feeling like my old self and I am making myself sick with thinking the cancer is back etc... Is this normal do I need anti-depressants??? anyone else feel like this ??? I am 53 years old my children and husband are nothing but supportive but I just want to curl up and cry???