Praising the Lord during Trials and Tribulations

PammyJane

My Grandmother died of breast cancer in 1974. Two of her sisters had breast cancer, and my mother had ovarian cancer in 1977 and breast cancer in 2005. My birthday is 5-26-1962, I always knew in the natural I had a high risk of cancer, but always came against it. November 09, I was 47. I was putting on my nighty, and my hand went down the said eof my breast. I felt a knot that felt like a marble. I have had 15 monograms, so I wasn't concerned about it, and thought it was nothing. But I did want to let the doctor to know I found a knot, He did an ultra sound. After the appointment, as he was leaving the room, I could see a wearied look in his face. I hit him on the shoulder and said, "Look doc, worse case scenario, OUT OF BODY, PRESENT WITH JESUS!" I wasn't worried at all! They did a biopsy a few days later, and a week later they called, saying it was cancer. I wasn't moved and fear didn't come! Infact, I felt like they said, I was going to have a baby! I felt so excited, because after going through David's healing, (he's testimony is below) and what I learned during that time, I knew Jesus was going to get a praise report out of this! I prayed this prayer, "Jesus, take this cup from me. but not my will, but yours be done! What do YOU want to do in this?" I felt the peace of God, and felt Him say, I want you to walk this one out." I could see Jesus in the spirit ream pointing to the cancer mountain, and saying, "Here is your mountain! Then I felt him take my hand, then He took me up on an escalator up to the top of the mountain, to praise His name during trials and tribulations, because you will have trails and tribulations in this world, but be of good cheer, Jesus has over came the world! He said it would be a short easy battle. When we went to tell Pastor Thant, he said the same thing, confirming what Jesus told me.

I had both breast removed in January, even though only one breast had cancer.  I knew I would not have reconstrution, and I didn't want to look like a unicorn! lol  I did test Braca 2 with the gene. My sister, 5 years younger did the test and did not test bracka. YAY!  

I started taking chemo in February, and started losing my hair 2-3 weeks later. Because I didn't want to get hair all over the house and car, I shaved it off. It was hard going bald at first. But after going in public about 3 times, I just forgot I didn't have hair. I got lots of compliments too!

I worked at a preschool, and had to quit, because of being on Chemo. I'm so child like, as you can probably tell by reading this, so I can relate to children. The children would stair at me, and the parents would say, "Don't be starring" I would smile and say, "It's OK, they have never seen a bald lady before. I would tell the child, depending on the situation. If there dad was bald, I would said, "I just wanted to look cool like your dad!" Or if it was an older girl, I would say, I'm doing the Brittney Spires thing"

 Jesus gave me this song.

"This little head of mine, I'm gonna let it shine. This little head of mine, I'm gonna let it shine. This little head of mine. I'm gonna let it shine. Let it shine! Let it shine! Let it shine! Hide it under a wig! No! I'm gonna let it shine. Hide it under a hat! No! I'm gonna let it shine! Hid it under a cap! No! I'm gonna let it shine! Let it shine! Let it shine! Let it shine!"

When I was at chemo, everyone would ask me what kind of cancer did I have. I would jump up Prasing the Lord, saying, "I had breast cancer, now when I praise the Lord they don't bounce!" When I do the limbo, I don't have to hold them down. When I craw under a crawl space, they don't drag. Most of all, I can hold a child closer to my heart! They love it!

Jesus never told me how much fun I would have in all this! For the first time I went into Hooters to applied for a job, just for the fun of it to see what they would say. They were very nice and said they don't discriminate. I told them I was just picking! I think they felt better when I told then that!  lol   About 3 months later, I was thinking about it, and thought.. WAIT! They wasn't looking at my HOOTERS! THEY WERE LOOKING AT MY BALD HEAD! Since I didn't wear a hat or wig! lol

Since I tested braca 2 positive for the cancer gene, in Nov. 2010 I had a total historectomy. Some of you older women may understand the "HORROR" mones, and what we can go through as we enter into womanhood. In my testimonies, you might think what a saint I am. NOT!! Here lately it was like I made an U turn, and headed back to Egypt. I'm sorry to say that I have been selfish, murmuring and complaining, and not acting like a child of of God that I should be. Some will say, "Well, Pam look at what all you have gone through, you have a right to act like this!" That's a lie from the devil!! Jesus gave His life so that we could have life and have it more abundantly in HIM!

Our dog got ran over, and died instantly. I had to bury him. I cried so bad. The next day I was so depressed. I was driving to my dad's house in Statesville to clean it up for him. I said out loud, "I REFUSE TO BE DEPRESSED! AS FOR ME AND THIS BODY, I CHOOSE TO BE FILLED WITH LOVE, JOY, AND PEACE WHILE SERVING MY MASTER, SAVER and KING! The next day I woke up singing my favorite Christmas song.

"Ho, Ho, Ho, Ho, Sa-a-nna! Ha, Ha, Ha, lle-lu-uiah! He, He, He, He, Sa-aved Me, I've got the joy of the Lord! Ho Ho."

For my Christmas present from Jesus this year, He gave me back my JOY, LOVE and PEACE! So I'm getting on my Spiritual bush hog and mowing over all the negative junk that I have let into my life and making a U turn back into Jesus Loving Arms!

Out of all the miracles I have been giving, my husband Tommy is my most favorite one! He has been so wonderful to me, not only this past year, but for 19 years!

P.S. Jesus gave us a free dog, that is house broke, calm, gentle, smart and loving! PRAISE GOD!

My son David's testimony:

David was born August 9th 1995. He had 4 kinds of seizures starting at the age of 5 months.  We were praying for divine healing and clamming the word of God  for David.  One day when David was about three, I was folding clothes, and I asked Jesus, "When will David be healed?" I heard in my spirit, "HE IS HEALED!" 2000 Years ago Jesus took the stripes on His back for ALL our healings! I asked my pastor at that time, should we take David off his medicine, he responded,  pray about it and make sure you and your husband are in agreement. I  asked Tommy  did he think we should take David off his medicine? He said he wasn't ready at that time. About about a moth later, Tommy came up to me and said he thought it was time. We slowly weaned David off all his medicines. For three months he was doing great! We were praising God for his healing. Our neighbor turned us in to S.S. and we were interviewed for a month. The Holy Spirit helped me to walk in perfect Love. I  told the S.S. lady that we were walking in faith for  healing  through  the  stripes  that Jesus  provided for all on His back. If David were to ever have seizes, we would put him back under a doctor's care. We had total FAVOR! At the end of the month, I told the S.S. lady, would the person that turned us in would get a report? She said yes. I told her could she put in her report to thank them for looking out on David's behalf. Later, because that person turned us in, David received all kinds of wonderful help! Praise God! He started at a free program at Long Head Start and was there for 3 years.  After three months of no seizer activity, David  took a turn to the  worse.  He started having violent seizure and we rushed him the the emergency room The doctors admitted him, and they were unable to get the seizures under control. He was there for 2 weeks, having 4 different kinds of terrible seizure activity. He ended up being develop  mentally delayed, Our hearts just drooped and we thought we made a terrible mistake! I found later WE DID NOT MAKE A MISTAKE! IT WAS OUR CROSS ROAD! "Walk by FAITH and Not By SIGHT!"  I pray to Jesus, and told him that I still believe, and HE WAS STILL OUR HEALER, but I could never take David off His medicine again, and that the  Doctor would have to. After David got out of the hospital, and I would take him to each Doctor appointment, I would pray this prayer. "Jesus you are our healer, over ride the doctors wisdom and  knowledge with yours!" David had one more seizure about 4 month after he got out of the hospital. After only a short year and a half years the doctor decided to take David off all medicines. We had been at EWC about a  year and a half to two years at that time. 

When David was 5 it was time for Him to go to kindergarten. I asked Long Head Start if he could go there next year, that he was not ready for kindergarten. They said they can't take 5 year olds. I smiled and said, "Well if you change your mind give us a call!" I went home, Tommy and I prayed for favor. We got a call saying that they made an exception in David's behalf, and he could come the following school year! WOW! GOD IS GOOD ALL THE TIME!

When David was about 5 or so, it was time to do a 24 hour digi-trace test.  I was so excited, because I KNEW THAT THIS TEST WOULD SHOW THAT JESUS HAD HEALED DAVID!

I went to the Doctor's office to check out the machine, they said that  I didn't have an appointment. I told them "I DID! That the doctor's made this appointment 3 months ago!" They said, that they had a computer problem and  lost all there appointments, and that to machine was checked out by another person " I cried out loud in front of everyone, and said, "OH NO! This was the machine that Jesus was going to show all the Doctor's that MY SON DAVID WAS HEALED! They probably thought I was nuts!

They made another appointment, for 3 months later. ... Maybe, Jesus knew something we didn't?.......After 3 months, I went to check out the machine. They put these things on David head with glue. I took him home and plugged it in beside the couch. At 8:00 pm. it was time for bed, so I unplugged the machine from down stairs, and carried David and the machine up to my bed. Since Tommy was working,  I put David in the bed with me so I could keep a eye on him. I plugged in the machine in at the wall socket nearest to the bed, and we went to sleep.

The next morning, when I woke up, the machine (THE GREEN LIGHT)  was not on!  I forgot to turn on the light switch!

NO ONE~ would never know how I felt at that time!  It was worse more than a slap in the face!!!! I felt let I had to GO BACK TO THE END OF THAT LONG LINE for the 2nd TIME!! I just knew that Jesus healed David, and wanted everyone to see. I took him to the doctor's knowing I'd have to wait a while before I could check the machine out again, when all of a sudden, It felt like Jesus took us in His RACED CAR to the FRONT OF THAT LONG LINE! When the doctor came in, he said, "Well, I am going ahead and take David off all his medicines." 

WOW! I could hardly believe my ears! Jesus heard my prayer, when I told Him to over ride all the doctor's wisdom and knowledge with HIS!!! YEE HI!!! WE KNEW THEN, DAVID WAS HEALED!

I share David's testimony all the time. You can tell who has Jesus in their heart, because some will say, "I'm glad he out grew the seizes. They didn't hear a word I said.

WE ARE OVER COMERS BY THE BLOOD OF THE LAMB! ALWAYS! ALWAYS! WALK BY FAITH AND NOT BY SIGHT NO MATTER WHAT!

"You have not chosen me, but I have chosen you, and ordained you, that ye should go and bring forth fruit, and that your fruit should remain: that whatsoever ye shall ask of the Father in my name, he may give it you." John 15:16 

I will always LOVE HIM SO!

I found out later that you have to be seizure free 7-10 years before the doctor will even think about taking you off the medicines. He was about 6 when he was off all medicines. David is now 15, and has been seizure free since! He made the A-B honor roll this past quarter. We are so proud of him!  PRAISE GOD!

My older son Jacob, has always been  His Brother's Keeper! He did so well and was so helpful to me during David's ruff time. It seemed to always be about David. Jacob was never once was jealous or envious over all the attention David got back then! They are best friends!

1. Always think about that possitive.

2. Walk by Faith, and Not by sight.

3. Praise Jesus during trials and tribulations.

momofthree2011

Wow! What an awesome testimony you have. Praise God for his faithfulness. I was diagnosed in May 09 had 3 surgeries ending up with a bi-lateral mastectomy. I thought about having reconstruction but decided against it. I praise GOD for his healing and for being with me through it all. His LOVE never fails.

Blessings,

Debbie 

msphil

hello, this is msphil. I agree about Praise during Trials and Tribulations, I am one that does just that, when I,m going through I know that GOD enters the praises of HIS people, so that is indeed the time to Praise HIM. After each and every praise I can feel HIM and whatever it is becomes less of a problem, as I have learned that God used this cancer to help me inspire others going through what I,ve been through and to share my testimony with YOU ALL.  God Bless