I just want to make my five yr milestone

cecns2

In 2006 I had breast cancer on the right side.  1.4 cm with 1/15 nodes, stage 11a, Grade 2.  I had 8 rounds of chemo, and a bilateral mastectomy.  I was praying to be in the clear this far out.  It is so scary thinking every ache or pain out of the ordinary is cancer.  But you do get paranoid.

Recently I felt pain under my right arm.  I thought it was maybe a pulled muscle or my implant shifting.  But it didn't go away, so I told my oncologist on a routine visit.  He ordered xrays, which nothing showed up on.  So then I had a bilateral MRI with contrast.  That was June 8th. On June 11th, Saturday, I get a letter in the mail from the radiology place that did the MRI.  Well my whole world came crashing down on me.  I was so upset.  I don't want to do this again. I thought I was pretty aggressive the first time.

So I called my doctor that Monday and asked he what was on the report.  He tells me I have a small spot on an axillary lymph node about 1.2 mm and he wants to do a ultrasound guided biopsy.  In the mean time I go and pick up the report from the MRI place and make the appointment for the biopsy.  It turns out the doctor was wrong, the report said 12 mm, NOT 1.2 mm.  So that is really 1.2 cm!!!  Big difference!  I have them check it and the 1.2 cm is correct. 

Yesterday was my biopsy and I am trying not to get ahead of myself.  They told me it doesn't look like a cyst or an infection. 

I just can't believe I am here again.

Christy

chrissyb

Christy, deep breaths.  I know you are terrified right now but don't cross that bridge until you hear the word from your doc.   No-one wants to revisit all the crap that goes with another dx but if it happens, we manage to find the strength to do what we need to do and you would do the same.  All you can do for now is hope for the best but prepare for the worst.  I'm hoping that it's something other than BC.

Love n hugs.  Chrissy

reesie

Christy l've never been in your position nut I do know waiting for results can be nerve wracking. You've done everything you can so try to relax ( I know easier said than done). You'll be able to do this if it's the worst you've done it before. And if it's B9 like we hope it is so much the better.

cecns2

Thank you guys.  I know I have to stay positive.  I am trying very hard to not jump to conclusions.  My results should be in early next week.  As you know it feels like forever.  I haven't told my family yet.  I don't want to worry them if it's nothing.  But it is located on the same side that I had cancer in, and it is a lymph node, of which I am missing 15 now.  So it's so hard not to go there.  I am hoping for B9, but have a plan if it's not.

cecns2

Well results are in.  It was a enlarged lymph node with lympocytes, but B9.  If it still hurts the doctor will remove it and check for lymphoma.  So I should feel relieved but for some reason I don't.  How can you use B9 and Lymphoma in the same sentence?  But I gues I have to take what I can get for now and it's B9.  Yay!