asking for prayers

lionessdoe

3 years out and have a call back on mammo for additional views with an ultrasound immediately following on Friday, May 6th, 2011. Feels way too familiar. Lathering up with lidocaine for those lovely additional side views that really are the closest to a vice. Feeling doomed, yet some how relieved. The idea of being off the roller coaster kind of seems like a relief! Knowing what to expect and being able to plan with out feeling yanked around all the time kind of seems .... well....I'm OK with that! God'w will and lot's of prayers please for God's will! Thanks everyone!

Suzybelle

I will definitely be praying, Doe.  Please let us know what comes of this...hopefully it's a false alarm.

Hang in there...sending you hugs!

hymil

Strength for the journey wherever it leads. The greatest safety in knowing God loves you and always will do, no matter what., and every step you walk is on God's earth and under God's authority. Cyberhugs across the world. 

BoobsinaBox

Thinking of you, Doe, and trusting you will be all right, however it goes.

Dawn 

iammommy

I hope everything turns out well. My prayers are with you. Nan

Leah_S

I'm hoping for everything normal for you, Lionessdoe.

All the best.

Leah

christine47

My prayers are with you.

Binney4

Hugs and prayers, Doe,
Binney

BeckySharp

Just said a prayer for you Doe.  Keep your spirits up! 

Becky

sisterinspirit

Callbacks, ugh!  My thoughts and prayers and with you., Doe. I pray that you will continue to have the strength to cope with whatever may come your your way.

Deb

mom2one

Sending you prayers for health, peace, and strength.

bingbing

sending prayers your way

lionessdoe

Thanks everyone! Had a weird dream last week. I was in the airport with my fiancee (i'm married) and we were trying to get to the terminal on time to get to our wedding destination but his old girlfriend kept showing up and delaying things. She showed up in the rest room, everywhere and kept me from getting to the terminal time after time. I finally got fed up and threw her out a window to her death (I'm not a violent person). Finallly we were almost to the terminal just in the nick of time when the security showed up to arrest me. As they spun me around to handcuff me, there she was standing in front of me with a seepish "I got ya" grin on her face, back from the dead. I woke up totally confused. Never had such a weird dream in my.life. Then this morning I got the news and the dream made sense. My husband and I just got bact to making plans for our future, having solid concrete goals again, feeling safe again and off to live out the rest of our marriage. She???? She's the cancer.

Dreams! Powerful stuff. But such symbolism rarely makes sense until it does.

Keep praying. It was just a dream.

BoobsinaBox

May I add, sweet dreams to you!  Enough of the bad ones!

Dawn 

lionessdoe

Apparently the prayers worked and it was all a big mistake. Although I am elated and thoroughly surprised to find I am just fine, the hospital mispoke when they called to schedule "Additional mammography views, followed immediately by an ultra sound". It was just an ultrasound. Just a doublecheck. I had myself dead and buried for a week because of a poor description of why I needed this call back! Went straight to the records department after and got the radiology report. It did not recommend anything more than an ultrasound, because I am at high risk for recurrence. All I hear is Cha Ching for the hospital! I'll be contacting a hospital CEO or board member and let them know the teror those words instill in a breast cancer patient and how they should choose them more carefully.

But, WOW! I feel like it's a small miracle at the same time! Thanks everyone! 

faithandfifty

I've been away from the internet for a while and coming back to BCO, the first thing I saw was prayer request on the LE thread. So that's where I head.

Now I can add prayers of HALLELUJAH!!

Anonymous

Lionessdoe. Congrats on the good news prayer is a powerful thing now get back to making those great plans with DH

sisterinspirit

Doe,

So glad to hear that the ultrasound was okay.  Whew!  Go out and celebrate!

Deb

identtwins

You got it

BoobsinaBox

Doe,

So happy for you and DH!  After 20 some years of those terrifying call-backs, they finally said, "Cancer."  And my bilat has brought me much peace. 5 years yesterday, no mammos, no call-backs, and no cancer.  A little LE, but I'm lucky compared with many, so I'll celebrate with you!

Dawn 

lionessdoe

Thanks everyone and I hope you all had a wonderful Mother's day! I sure did. Hubby and I figured out it's the only special occasion day left that isn't tainted with cancer memories! So glad I get to keep this one untouched. Especially this one!

Dawn,

So happy to hear of your bilateral success! But most of all I want to thank you for the validation. So many people think we're nuts when we say this is a journey that never ends unless you die of something else. Once you get on this roller coaster, there's always that fear lurking in the distance.

My God! We are so courageous! Aren't we?

BoobsinaBox

Yes, we are Doe!  I'm delighted that your life seems to be getting back on an even keel.  I really admire you!

Dawn