Getting nervous again - Encouragement please

GmaFoley

Hi Ladies,

 The grandson's birthday party is over and we are traveling home from daughters house tomorrow.  I am going home to surgery on Monday afternoon.  They have to go in at clean up the margins (including my nipple).  It is nothing compared to the 1st one last week with the lumpectomy and sentinal node disection but I keep on having waves anxiety.  When I am with my family, I try to forget and just enjoy, but I've noticed this time, trying to stay brave around my grandkids and family, it is very draining. 

The let down after all the exitement has been rougher than normal.  Why do I feel the need to be brave for my family? Are any of you trying to do the same?

dlb823

Esther, I think most of us try to not to worry our families anymore than they already are, which means often not letting our deepest fears and anxieties show.  I also think that a lot of the fear and other negative emotions tend to get surpressed initially, because it's way too much for our minds to deal with all at once.  But then those feelings -- the fear and anxiety and even anger -- surface in waves when we're not expecting them.   

Hopefully the time will pass quickly and your re-excision surgery will soon be behind you.  Hang in there!  Everything you're going through is perfectly normal.   Deanna

GmaFoley

Thank you Deanna, woke up this morning crying again.  But got to get it together before I go up stairs to say good morning and see you later (going home today) to the grandsons! Its so hard to go home, these boys (4yr and 1yr) are so fun to be around.