INSOMNIACS place to talk in the wee hours

queenmomcat

May we just have one continuous birthday in November? (willing to negotiate for other months)

Luvmygoats: planning a trip to Chicago, which will (I hope) include a side foray to one of the tea shops in a link you sent me....totting up a list of teas I want to sample.

Cubbie2015

Happy birthday, Spookie!

Smaarty and Susan, I love the owl cakes, that is all of us gathering together to celebrate!

Seachain, good to meet you. Hope you'll look in on us during the day, even if you aren't an insomniac anymore.

Queenie, we only do one play a year (we do a musical variety performance in the spring). I don't know if I will return to the theater. I'm finding it hard to enjoy things I used to, they seem to bring sadness instead now. Anybody else have that problem?

I definitely have a lot of brain gerbils, running on their little wheels!

queenmomcat

Cubbie: I can't speak for everyone, but I do know that I lost interest in a lot of things I'd enjoy normally, even in the course of daily life--gardening, knitting--but started picking up again, if only a dogged feeling that "this is not normal. This is a sign of depression, resulting from a devastating life-changing diagnosis." If you don't start thinking, about the time the spring variety show rehearsals get underway, "Hmm, I could get back into this." check with the appropriate doctor.

Cubbie2015

Thanks, Queenie. It helps to know that someone else felt this way in the course of their treatment. I did tell the gang that I would meet them at the pizza place for their "wrap party" tonight after the final show. Seems like a less emotional environment.

I'm going to head out and hit some secondhand stores tonight to take my mind off of things. I rarely buy anything, but I like to look at what's new, and it's great motivation to lose some weight so I can fit into some of these bargains I'm seeing. Talk to you all later!

sas-schatzi

Cubbie, don't let today's thought seem to influence tomorrow's thought.

Loveroflife

Jazzy, my Dear Sis, what have you been drinking? Who is BB? Haha

Cubbie, bargain hunting is fun, especially when you find a good deal. Found a really nice White House Black Market skirt awhile back for $12. Their garments usually cost at least $80+. Hope you find something good.

Mommy's BD is the 25th.

Ms. Spookie, regarding the Tim Tam, it has to do with my selective memory. The things I really need to remember, I struggle to remember. Also, there were events in my childhood that my younger Sis remember and I have no recollection of them. Weird how the brain works.

Loveroflife

Where is my manner? WELCOME Seachain!! I don't have insomnia either, The naughty child in me doesn't want to go to bed early and has a hard time getting up in the morning.

sas-schatzi

This insomniac is going to bed LOl. Sleep tight everyone

Jazzygirl

Loverly- sorry, that was a post for another sister on another thread who is in a sexual harassment situation. Wrong thread! I delete it.

Cubbie2015

I found a dark purple shirt I couldn't pass up for $1.50. I've been wearing a lot of button shirts since my surgery, so another one is handy. I find I can get into pull on shirts, but getting out of them is sometimes a struggle!

Sas, thanks for the wisdom. People were asking me if I was going to return next year, and I'm just reluctant to commit to anything at this point. I feel kind of weirdly apart from everyone else who is leading a "normal" life. Sort of like when I was laid off from my last job, but was given several months notice. Our paths had diverged, and I was not one of them anymore.

Loveroflife

Ahhhh Jazzy, no need to apologize. Equal opportunity teasing....actually, didn't want BB to miss your post. Terrible what we women have to deal with.

Good job Cubbie for finding something useful and cheap!! I know exactly what you mean about struggling to get out of a pull over shirt. What is "normal life" anyway? Isn't life constantly changing

Cubbie2015

Well, non-cancer life, anyway. I know there is not much "normal" out there. So many people are paddling hard under the surface.

Loveroflife

You got it Sister! Talk about normal, who cleans the floors at this hour

Jazzygirl

Cubbie- I understand the feeling of be separate and apart from with cancer. I will also say I have had that same experience with every challenge I have gone through in life- sick family, family losses, being laid off, getting cancer since my 20s. Our lives really do change so much for awhile around this. You just don't feel well enough for awhile to do anything but the basics. Your energy is very different for awhile, but it slowly comes back and with that, some of the things you love.

I had to park a lot of things for a long time but slowly introduced them back into my life as I felt better. The gym, playing music. socializing more with friends, wanting to travel, etc. These things find their way back to us.

Chevyboy

Morning gals.... and WELCOME ...um, who is it.... "Seachain"??? I remember talking about this when Robin Williams took his own life...

http://www.people.com/article/robin-williams-commi...

And reading this, helps me understand why some people feel the need to take their own lives.... I was just so adamant, against it all, only thinking about the family they leave behind.... But knowing the circumstances a little more, helped me realize that the "drugs" are not the only thing causing so much heart-ache.....

Also Zerg-net had an interesting story about Burt Reynolds... Do any of you remember him, and all his girl-friends? Some people just have more money than brains it seems like... and not enough common sense...

Simplicity

lmao Mags!!

Hope all you ladies have a great day! I'm going to catch up in this thread, one of these days

Holeinone

Welcome Seachain, like your name.

Cubbie, it takes TIME.......sadly slow process. My tx, caused a PTSD reaction. Very sick during chemo, lost too much weight. Your dx & surgery is still very recent. Give yourself the hall pass to be mourning the old you. I am 2 years, 5 months out. Everyday, I will have moments of that sinking feeling. But, I have had great times with friends, my adult kiddos, DH. My life did change, ( retired ), but as stated before, life is about change & resilience.

Spookie, happy belated. I am hungry, any cake left? Speaking of food, I have gained 10 lbs in the last few months. Good thing I saved some of those bigger clothes.

Loved the birthday bagpipes.....

Hate what's going on in the world right now. They showed a young man playing Imagine ( Lennons song ) on a grand piano in the streets of Paris

leftduetostupidmods

Cubbie, I totally understand the feeling. I usually avoid too tight shirts that need to be pulled over the head - with the normal ones I'm ok now, after so many years of stretching. But still, this last summer, I went with my best friend to Goodwill to get some tank tops/sleeveless blouses (weather here in Oklahoma is very hot in summer) as I had lost weight and everything was hanging on me, and I didn't want to spend too much as I knew I was just at half of my weight loss so spending money for something I wouldn't be able to wear in a couple months was kind of pointless.

To make the long story short among those tank tops was an absolutely gorgeous one, with spaghetti straps, made of something really stretchy and with lots of rhinestones. I put it on and it was really flattering my figure (duh! stretchy). Then I start taking it off and I manage to get the bottom of it it past the bottom half of my head. I try and try and nothing. At this point I was starting to get really hot and somewhat dizzy. So I started whispering "Jeannie! Jeannie!" hoping that my best friend was still looking at the clothes racks near the fitting room. Nothing. I keep struggling with the top and manage to get the bottom of it past my forehead. Now I'm totally stuck, my boobs exposed (I DID wear a bra), the stretchy thing compresses my arms along the head, from under the armpits to my elbows, there's no room to wiggle and no way to get hold of the edge anymore, and I start suffocating. What can I say? It ended with me bellowing at the top of my lungs "Jeannie! Help!" (I have to say I have a VERY high volume when I want), my best friend trying to run on a slippery floor, and all the Goodwill employees milling around desperately trying to find who's getting killed.

The joys of being a BC survivor.... sigh

Edit: I DID buy the top. It was just too flattering. I just don't wear it often and need to make sure that there is someone around who can help me take it off when I need to change, lol

susan3

sea chai..oh my gosh...funny...I often get caught in something...lol I don't panic...I do get pretty mad....lol happens a lot. Pulling dresses off overhead...a bit of a challenge....life is full of those

Cubbie....time is your friend...things fall back into place eventually. And the things you don't pick back up, you end up ok with. Time just needs to pass so our minds and emotions can catch up with the changes. Be good to yourself. The road is long, and winding.....I can sing for you

susan3

Shelby loves squeezing in between pillows. Don't know how she got there at 14, but I bet she can't get out..lo

Chevyboy

Cubbie2015

Holeinone, Jazzy, Loverly, Seachain, Susan, thank you. I am always touched by the people who take time out of their lives to help those of us who are struggling at this moment. It helps to know that others have been through the same emotions. Having cancer is a very otherwordly experience.

And Seachain, that's about where I've been stuck a couple of times! I've managed to get myself out, but I'm a bit wary of what I put on now, since I live alone. I can just see having to drive over to someone's house to have them help me get out of my shirt! Glad you bought the gorgeous top despite your adventure with it.

Shelby looks so cozy...

It's a beautiful day here, probably the last one for this fall. I rounded up my nephew and we raked leaves at my mother's house. (Well, he raked, I bagged, because I think I'd probably regret doing too much raking at this point post-op.) We had a funny, good natured rant about each of us being the youngest child in our families, and how the youngest child in the family seems to get stuck doing stuff because the older children get the first opportunity to move away. Plus, his parents are on vacation, so here we are stuck with the leaves while they're off having a good time. We were thinking it might be easier to live in Arizona and have one of those lawns that's all fancy rocks and yucca plants. I'm sure there's some downside there too, probably involving scorpions.

Smaarty

hi all. Welcome seachain, love your pic on the other forum. Don't let Susan sing!

This is what I'm working on. Ran out of one of the fabrics but found it on eBay, which is lucky because I bought probably 6-7 years ago. Lucky me. It's going to be a table topper when done. For some stupid reason I thought I could make 10 wedges instead of 12 since I shorten the numbers of strips I need. Dumb. So I'm short 2 and will get them done when the fabric gets here.

Ran out of that print that's the biggest piece.

Partly assembled

2 of the ten. I'm going to start sewing them down to the batting and backing fabric. You'll see it all done in another week or so. That's my plan anyway.

This year I've got all the kids quilts done and on a roll. First Christmas in 3 years that I felt like doing stuff again. So Cubbie, it just takes time. Do you meditate? Might help if you're into that kind of thing. Gets really old to think about your boobs all the time. I was doing pretty good until the weather got cold. Now the stupid boobs don't like the cold! They get tight feeling and uncomfortable. Does it ever stop? Oh well, have a trip coming up to go to the Caribbean so that will help.

So as that old saying goes. Just one foot in front of the other. Take it one day at a time. Blah, blah, blah. 😜

On that note, I'm gonna go cook some soup. Cold and windy. The rain stopped this morning

susan3

smarrty, who told you I can't sing . Only my family knows that..he he

Cubbie2015

Smaarty, I like your table topper. You were really lucky finding more of that fabric on Ebay. I wouldn't have thought of looking there.

One of our churches here has a meditation class on Monday nights. I've thought about joining them before, maybe I'll give it a try.

Susan, I do sound for children's school music programs - your singing can't be that bad!

Smaarty

Susan said on an earlier post that she couldn't sing. I can't either, though I try, but usually when alone

Spookiesmom

Spookie gives me funny looks if I try to sing. Must hurt her ears. It's like, Moooooom shut up!!

Smaarty

I went to DGD's shower this morning. It was couples. Had a good time and they got lots of cute stuff. She is really getting big now

This is a gift made with crayons. The top edge is made of crayons.

Jazzygirl

Cubbie- I have an awesome yard with rocks. Called xeriscaping and good for low moisture places. But I still have to clean up leaves too, little trickier to rake with rocks. I tend to use a big broom to sweep them up.

I am the youngest too and even at age 55, have an older sister who likes to "delegate" things to me she does not want to do. So that behavior transcends those state boundaries even when everybody moves away from home! Sounds like you and your nephew had a good day together.

magdalene51

Hey Seachain! Another Okie! Beatmon and I are both here too, we had lunch together last week. Welcome to the Owlettes!

Went to early church (8:15) then came home and slept 4 more hours. Had dinner at our favorite Mexican place. 3 pain pills in 24 hours, my mouth was so dry I drank 3 big glasses of sweet tea, then couldn't finish dinner with my favorite flan dessert. Maria says hi, Beatmon!

DH bought me a fan that plugs into the USB port on my laptop and has a flexible neck so I can point it right at my face.

May have to put my studio on hold til March, hope not.

Off to bed, still really tired.