Bonfire of the Goddesses

voraciousreader

Sandy... Hope you feel better soon. Maybe by the time you see the doctor you will have more questions and have the strength to process all the answers.

Sandeeonherown

Voraciousreader. How true!!! I plan on bringing my recorder so I can listen again when I am not in a hospital....means I can verify what I heard etc....helps.

GirlFriday

voraciousreader:  I'd like to plant some Donkey Tail Spurge in the garden if I may.  We bought it last year just because of it's name.  It's a funny funky looking succulent.  It'll adds a little prehistoric character to the garden.  Also, my primrose isn't doing too well, I thought I planted in enough low level sun, but it's not the case.  Can I lend it to the garden until I find a better place?

Sandeeonherown: I totally feel for you with the appointment blunders.  On Friday I got referred for two  different procedures...I wanted the numbers so I could call and make the appointments and I was told, "Someone will call  you by early next week, If you don't hear by mid week give us a call"  Now I wanted to stand there and scream and how illogical that was, but instead I said, "Okay, I'll call you on Monday afternoon to follow up, and make sure the referrrals went through"  I smiled so sweetly I wanted to vomit.  The receptionist smiled back.  I felt like telling her to duck and then I was going to kick her computer in...of course I was probably just grouchyand fatigued from my radiation appt at 730 and then waiting in the clinic for two hours. Total time 5 hours.  I think I got referred to the wrong place.  I'm at the main hospital, but apparently your records don't follow you through on their computer system. Which makes no sense to me.  I"m treated at the Breast Care Center, The radiation center, the Oncology Department, and Now the GYN clinic.  I fill out a questionnaire at each place, and it is entered into the same computer system each time.  It's ridiculous.  It's all under the same "hospital"  Then when I'm at the appointments I have to answer the same questions, and I have to request to have my files sent to each different place I go in the SAME hospital.  I think I'm going to go to each department and ask for my own personal copy, and then get a dolly to care it around on.  It's just so ridiculous.  I throw in hospital policy and procedure!  Burn!

voraciousreader

GirlFriday...be my guest!  Dig in!   I need all the help I can get!    Which reminds me...I'm going to have the DH build us the fence and a nice bench.  I hate sitting on blankets...I know, such a hooty pa tooty, I am!

imbell

Want to toss in my onc's nurse. If you hate your job lady move on. She doesn't discriminate she is nasty to everybody.LOL

jo1955

imbell -  My rad onc's nurse was the same way.  She went in a long time ago.

Burn Baby Burn! 

voraciousreader

Okay...here's what's going in the fire...the word "Again."  So, here we are on a breast cancer site and we're all afraid of the word "Recurrence"  which is another word for..."Again."  I just hate thinking about those two words.  I want to delete them from my mind and vocabulary.  And now that I have to tell family and friends that I'm preparing for more surgery...what do I hear, "Not again?!"  "Again?"  "Shoulder surgery,again?...Which shoulder is it THIS TIME?"   "How many times have you had surgery?"  I could see already what they're going to say about me after I'm gone after reading about Elizabeth Taylor...she survived 20 major operations...she had surgery over and over, AGAIN!  AGAIN AND AGAIN!

So, today, dear friends, the word "Again" and it's sister word..."Recurrence" are burning in the fire!

jo1955

voraciousreader - Ahem to that Sister!  The flames are getting bigger.

Sandeeonherown

Girlfriday- actually, I missed my appointment because I had a heart attack on Monday morning and so could not make my appointment 12 hours later. I called them as soon as I got home to reschedule....she then called back to say ; it is not crucial ...we can make the appointment for later " to which I responded...look..if you had an opening in today I would be in there. I have a list of 8 questions I need answered and now I have to wait two more weeks....not your fault but no...I will keep the appointment on the 4th, thanks....sheesh....now I have even more questions like...did radiation spur on this heart attack?

Omaz

Sandee - that must have so scary!!

GirlFriday

Sandee:OMG That's ridiculous!  A heart attack and BC.  I feel like I need a break and I'm just chaising someone to prove that this stupid cyst is not OV...it's like pulling teeth. But I'm probably just chasing ghosts after my feelings of betrayal from BC.  I'm so sorry about your heart attack.  I hope you find a way to heal, and get what you need!

Sandeeonherown

Girlfriday- thanks....walking is helping, venting helps, being clear on what I want is also helping and ensuring people I care about also get their cholesterol and stress checked...all help. I do, however, think I have had enough in one 18 month span....9 months since the BC diagnosis....but there you go...can't all be an easy ride, right?

Rennasus

Sandee so sorry to hear of your heart attack atop BC. Throw that on the fire, girl!

I want to throw in my Tami tablets even though they are supposed to be good for me. They are messin' with my head, my hormones are whacked out and it's only been a week! Tossing them into the proverbial fire now... 

Sandeeonherown

Toss 'em in..since it is a virtual fire, you can toss 'em in and take and adjust to them at the same time!! wehh! as for he heart attack...yes....not a good thing but using it as a learning tool...such that it is.....be well

geewhiz

Holy mackerel Sandee...I hope you stay well now!!

I want to throw in guilt...for eating and drinking things I shouldn't sometimes...for not exercising all the time, or as hard as I can. I actually think I threw it in before....chemobrain, lol. Well, throw in the chemo part of my brain too!!!!

Sherryc

Ok I am throwing in the RO nurse who blows me off about my breast pain. (have been to see BS and it is real not in my head and we are doing something about it).  Also my tamoxifen pills have they have not been very friendly to me. I know I need them and would not quit taking them but this virtual fire thingy makes me feel good.  Also all the drugs since bc, take this pill and then take this pill to conteract this pill blah blah blah.  In they gooooooooooooo

jo1955

Even though I won't stop taking it, I want to throw in the fuzzy head feeling I get from the Lyrica.  I hate it that I have to write everything down and when I am trying to say something, I know what I want to say but it doesn't come out right.  So in goes the SE from Lyrica.

barbe1958

Jo, the Lyrica issue should settle down...how long have you been on it? It should level out in around 6 weeks where you shouldn't even "know" you're on something.

jo1955

barbe - I have been on it about 5 weeks now.  But I was on 75mg for 4 weeks and 150mg for 1 week.  That is good to know. I was hoping I did not have to do 4 years and 9 months of this.  Think I am counting?

FireKracker

I have not been to the fire for a while.gee i thought i burnt everything to death BUT i have something new.big and new

Im having a Celebration of life party.huge party.I would like to thro all the negative energy that people are sending my way.like are you nuts?its too big for you to handle?its gonna cost too much?you are becoming obsessed.I dont want gifts.its a celebration of life.burn that negative energy and please sistas send me some positive energy.stay away from the sparks....

Sandeeonherown

I am going to toss in the gal upstairs (not my 81 year old neighbour but the gal saying with her temporarily)....ok..you might have been a nutritionist at one time....ok, you seem to think my weight is why I had a heart attack....ok, we know each other peripherally because I was your instructor a couple of years ago....and somehow you think that makes it ok to tell me to go on a juice fast or stop gluten because tha is how you lost your weight? uh...ok.....but guess what? My dr's and the cardiologists did not say anything about my weight....they said I was lucky I was so healthy so....INTo the fire! I have been tried to be nice every time you have tapped on my door this past week but honestly,.....go away!

voraciousreader

Into the fire just went the four sports bras that I bought before my breast surgery!  I just returned from shopping and bought 3 new comfortable bras!  Amen.

Sandeeonherown

Still can't wear my comfy wrire bras...not unless I want aching boobs and streipes across my nipples.....ARGH

Rennasus

grannydukes, sending positive celebration of life party energy your way!  

While I am at the foot of the bonfire here, I am tossing in all my low energy so that this coming week I have lots of energy to heal!!

GirlFriday

grannydukes! I think that idea rocks!  Of course you can handle it!  You can do anything!

Sherryc

I want to throw my friends soon to be ex-husband in because he is a real jerk and just a down right mean person. In the fire Don!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anonymous

Happy to pinch in my headgear, those night bonnets, what are those called again ?

jo1955

I want to throw in the nasty nightmares I am having about getting bc again.  Have had 4 of them sincve starting Lyrica.  If I could, I would throw that in too but then I would not be able to walk.  Sigh!

voraciousreader

SherryC.... I guess I will have to break out the champagne? This is going to be some bonfire!

voraciousreader

Jo... Try to get some good sleep. I am up at night with shoulder pain. I will chase those nightmares away from you while you are sleeping.