Bonfire of the Goddesses

duckyb1

Chabba..........it is magnificent, and only a couple miles to the passes from where we had lived..........there was "White Pass" which closed around Oct............Snoqualmie (which was open all winter, but trust me, it was a hair raising drive across that mountain pass to Ft. Lewis where he was discharged from", and of course Mt. Ranier which was gorgeous...............the day we left  Yakima on our way back to Pa. it was 28 degress below zero, and it was Feb. 27th, 1957..................My first son was born in July that year......I was just 22 years old..........I do miss those wonderful days.

We picked pears, in the orchards, apples, and always stopped at night on the main highway out of Yakima to buy "Spudnuts".........they were donuts made with potatoes..................and a 1/2 gallon of homemade root beer.....................what wonderful memories..........my husband has been dead for 20 years now..............I loved Washington State..................also though Oregon was beautiful too, but nowhere compares to Yakima..........we drove from Phila., Pa. to Yakima Washington, 3,400 miles cross country.............what a journey, and we ended up in the Yakima Firing Center for the next year............we had a lovely apt. off base, and it was pure heaven.................nice to remember.                                       

chabba

Spudnuts - We had a shop in Spokane when I was in grade school, they were our favorite treat. 

When DH and I married he had an  Olds 442, one of the worst cars ever for snow and ice.  The night my Father died, 12/11/67, we left Seattle for Spokane at 11pm just as a blizzard was blowing in at Snoqualimie.  Chained up in Northbend and never took them off until we got to my parents at noon the next day.Only stopped for gas and coffee, never drove faster than 25 mph.  A terrible, terrible night.

duckyb1

Chabba.....the first time my husband and I went across Snoqualimie Pass, I saw this massive wall of what looked like an ice fence all around us as we went down the road.........I said to him...............what is that, and how did it get so high ...............he said (having been there for 1 1/2 years more then I, said ..........that is the plowed snow that ends up piling up..............I said, "your kidding'......he said no "dear, those things stickingout of the snow, is the top of the telegraph poles...........I could not believe it..................actually you would get killed running into the ice wall if you went fast and skidded, cause heaven knows you could not go off the side of the  mountain, cause the "wall of ice would stop you first".............what an experience.............yet, I loved the place.............wanted to go back for years, was my husband's wish...........he died at 57 years old before we had a chance............I cherish the pictures we took........................hugs.

nibbana

Snoqualmie Pass is nothing. You want a real high mountain road, go over Chinook Pass, or Stevens Pass.

For a real pucker factor, Hart's Pass is about a perfect 10!

luvmygoats

Really quiet here!!!  I want to throw on this friggin hot (hellish) weather.  Car temp said 107 yesterday (officially 104).  Now forecast 107 today.  Most of metroplex got storms/soaking rains.  I got soaked, shoes, sneakers, and all.  SOOOO ready for fall which here in North Texas doesn't come until November.  Then again many times we skip fall go straight from summer to the 1st ice storm.  Onto the bonfire with what Accuweather is calling probably at least the 3nd hottest summer since 1950 and may hit #1.  'Course can't forget last summer which is #2.  I can't seem to find the current #1; chart in the article only goes back 10 years.  Might be 1980 when it hit 113 here, out alltime high.

FireKracker

All the threads have been really quiet for some time now....I dont know if people are just on vacation,in a funk or just plain busy which i hope is the case.

anyway i wanna start some trouble im throwin in my onco.my blood levels went down,,,she did not contact me....nor send a copy of my blood work to my internist....screw you...i called the office and told her np and she said she will call me back...did she?no.I have an appt.on aug6th.im just not showing up.I dare her office to call me to ask why!!!!!!!!

soooooo eventho its hot as hell im gonna start a fire...burn bitch!!!!!

tomorrow I see the new onco.lets see what he has to say? Wish me luck!!!!im tired of these damn white coats who think they shit gold....am i pissed.you bet i am.....

sas-schatzi

Granny-----go get'em, I've found that things get quiet here from about 8:30pm Friday until. Monday am. L&H's sassy

voraciousreader

Granny... I am joining you!!! While the DH was in the hospital the first time in late June, I ran a few blocks away to my oncologist's office for my scheduled Zometa infusion and blood work to check my menopausal status and routine blood work. Did anyone call me back???!!! When I had a slow moment during the DH's second hospitalization, it dawned on me I hadn't heard from anyone. Then I panicked if my estrogen levels were rising I would need a Lupron shot and I needed confirmation. So... TWO WEEKS after my lab work... I had to call them!!!???!!!! At least the PA called me back within a reasonable amount of time that day! But you just reminded me why we need to schlepp a few logs down the hill! I'm working on it Granny! Put your feet up today and let me do the work. The DH is doing well now and I have plenty of time on my hands now to do something constructive. Look due East in a little while and you will see the smoke coming from the Island!

duckyb1

Nibbana.........................have been on Chinook Pass.........amazing.................never heard of Steven's Pass......I knew of Snoqualamie, Chinook, and White Pass....................been on them all..........amazing places.........

FireKracker

Ok VR-----go get em....I too have time on my hands because im stayin with a friend who is a 29 yr.cancer survivor...just so she is not alone,eats something etc....i dont do much for her except laundry and little things.she dont let me do too much...Ill help with that damn fire....bet on it....i hate hate hate those stinkin white coats that think they are GOD.Why the hell do we find them.....

glad your hubby is doin well.Thank you God

just give me a holler if you need anything.

hugggggs k

sas-schatzi

VR---I went off to a dental appointment will DH had an infusion----his blood sugar when it came back was 52-------none of the nurses recognized it as a medical emergency. They gave him crackers. He was so far gone, he didn't know what to do with them..I got him to the car and gave him glucose tabs and rechechecked his BS and then a wendy's with the chocolate first>>>then a BS check. Retrospectively I should have called 911. Would have forced them to develop a policy on in house lab notification and action.... Cluck'em

Hope DH doing well

Anonymous

You go Granny, I too am sick of not getting results from all the tests, like it doesn't matter. 

From a page back, LE.  Today during heat felt like someone had a grip on the fat of my arm, squeezing the crap out of it.  Could do w/o the LE.

me, eBay rules for lsiting.  Circles and inconsistencies to make one insane.  Onto the fire.

Anonymous

In the fire with the last two drains. They have be in now for almost 4 weeks. They continually pinch and burn. I'd pull them myself but the doctor was smart enough to place them where I can't get at them.

Edit: I called the plastic surgeon. I am still too juicy. Wednesday he is going to give me another fill. Hopefully that will work. I am going nuts!

Linda-n3

VR, I hope your new onc is better than the last one.  If not, can you find an "integrative oncologist" to work with?  I have an acquaintance who travels to UCLA to see one - I don't have the ability to do that myself, but she is a MUCH happier camper with an onc that truly understands the human condition and sees her as a patient, not a disease.

Sheila, hindsight is 20/20, and yes, you should have called 911.  There is NO excuse for discharging a patient with that level of hypoglycemia.  Crackers are fine to start with maybe, but a recheck afterward is imperative - they discharged your DH in unstable condition, and I think that is a big no-no!!!

Veggy, darn those drains!

Now for a little time by the gentle healing fire with my buddies.  Last week I met with my MO, had a very intense discussion with her, and I ultimately felt like she heard me, was sorry for not listening to me and honoring my personal values from the beginning, and I believe she will do so in the future.  I forgave her that day, and it was a major weight off my shoulders.  The day before I met with her, I had forgiven my DH and other family members who were major influences in choices that I made for my treatment; they did so with the best of intentions, and know they did it in love (but also a little selfish love - I know they want me around for a long time, although sometimes I wonder why, especially when I become my alter-ego... more on that later, maybe).  And Saturday, during my first solo road trip in 2 years, I forgave myself.  I am the one who agreed to all the treatment plans initially, and have been blaming myself for ending up with neuropathy and fatigue that so limits my life now, but I realize I did the best I could at the time, basing decisions on so many unknowns, with so much at stake.  I am now on my way to true healing.  Thank you all for being here with me during my angriest moments, for supporting me, for encouraging me.  Life will never be what I had hoped for, but it will be different, and I have made a transition from "loving to learn" to "learning to love" through this ordeal.

Since it is so hot, we should stand back a little from the fire and I will provide the margaritas!

voraciousreader

Linda... You just reminding me of a fascinating book that I read this weekend. Otis Webb Brawley, MD wrote this terrific small gem of a book called, How We Do Harm. I will spare my dear sisters of the details of the book. All I will say is that he includes what you describe. On Amazon it received 5 stars. I disagree. There should be 6 stars! The book is readable and profound. And, if I lived in Atlanta, I would beg to have permission from him, for him to be my physician!

Anonymous

VR - now I will order that book.  Thank you.

Into the fire with the blackcloud blog on another site that I was just on, such negativity and hurtfulness.  I am glad to be back on bonfire, fuzzy's and the others here that I enjoy.

Linda - I need to get some forgiving done, I know what you mean.  

duckyb1

Linda, and DianeEssa...........need to do some forgiving too.........will order the book tonight.......hugs to both of you........we are in this together, right.........................I will shed a few more tears, and then put on my Big Girl Panties................today was a bad day......won't get into why, but let's say it wasn't good.............

Linda-n3

ducky, am so sorry you are having another bad day. My shoulder is here for you to cry on all you want, my arms are here to hold you in a hug as tight as you want, I have a box of tissues right by my side to offer you..... and a cup of tea for between the tears....

duckyb1

Thanks Linda................I'm hoping for a better day tomorrow............sometimes with the morning light, comes a better day...............hugs

FireKracker

If anyone wants to read a book on forgiveness i would without a doubt say read the book THE SHACK.....damn i was soo full of anger at first i refused to read it...then my GD saw it in wallmart and bought it for me.....Amazing...so deep.I was sooo angry and unforgiving...hey im still angry but i have learned by reading this book 2x that when you forgive its not about the other person....its for YOU>>>

FireKracker

Veggy---thinkin you just might make the medical books on having those damn drains in for so long....

sooo lookin forward to see you.Still dont have a date yet.

hugggggs everyone K

Anonymous

Grannydukes- I read on one of these boards that someone had their drains in for 6 weeks. I am so tire of taking painkillers. I took a shower tonight and my poor husband had to change the tape around the part of the drain that goes into my side. And then he had to herlp me get dressed as I am crying. I accidently saw myself in the mirror. Need I say more. This better be worth it in the end.

jo1955

veggy - (((HUGS))) sister.  I had one drain in for over 5 weeks.  I read on the LD flap thread that someone had a drain in for 7 weeks.  I was so tired of sleeping in a chair and not getting good sleep.  Once I got the last drain out, it was so exhilarating - such a relief.  Yes, it is worth it in the end.  Hand in there sweetie.  Please let us know when the last one is gone.

sas-schatzi

Linda--when I looked around at all the nurses in the vicinity of my DH at the time , I knew they didn't have a clue.  Ihad glucose tabs in my purse that I gave him on the way down and a meter in the car, and then more tabs and then food. You and I have and understanding of my history. These nurses didn't like to have anything questioned. In a different time I would have called 911, but we were both receiving treatment there and I had managed to piss allot of people off. They were the only show in town /county approved by our insurance. My mind just kept telling me get him out of there. Wrong decision, but that just supports that I am not who I was b/c if I was I wouldn't have hesitated.---------Brain damage really sucks.

sas-schatzi

Veggy --just as Jo says sweetie hang in there. Give it time. The doc took my left side drain out early b/c the entry site looked like it was getting infected. It developed a seroma under the axilla that the fluid would have been drawn off if the drain had been in there longer. The seroma lasted > a year and caused problems for another 2 years ----only the last few months is it right. So, hang in there, a bit of time now can mean a difference of a couple years.  Please , be patient------L&H's sassy

voraciousreader

I am sitting on my front porch right now in my Lay Z Boy recliner thinking of all of you and wishing that we all get through a peaceful and happy day. Gentle hugs to all of you and may today be easier than the day before...

Anonymous

I've had a seroma before. They are worse than these lousy drains. I am being good and listening to the doc about them. I can't wat to sleep in my own bed again. I just can't wait to sleep.

It looks beautiful out today.  I'll try to focus more on the postivie today.

Gentle hugs!

Linda-n3

Throwing automobile routine maitenance visits on the fire.  Took my new car in for 5000 mile check, it was done very quickly, very nice waiting room, etc.  I asked if they could change the settings so that the doors would not automatically unlock the second I turn the car off as I don't like it for safety reasons in a parking garage etc.  No problem, the man said.  Took a few more minutes, and I was on my way.  Then I noticed the display had been changed to km/h from mph, other settings looked different.... I am not handling changes very well, so was in tears, pulled over in a Hardee's parking lot, pulled out the books, spent 20 minutes reading, searching, fixing settings..... AARRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! 

And the to top it off, yes, the doors do not automatically unlock when I turn the car off, but now they no longer LOCK when I start the car!  I guess it must be an "all or none" thing, but I am not happy.  Also, this car does not have any memory settings for the seat, so the very large mechanics reset my seat so they could get in, and now it will take me a while to fine-tune that!  What a hassle.  And, I really am grateful this is all I have to complain about today - could be so much worse - and I DO like my new little car! 

Linda-n3

Thanks for some recommendations on books.  I am torn between ordering the print version, which I can then pass on, or the Nook version, which I can carry anywhere....

voraciousreader

I can't afford my book addiction. I only get my fix from the library. They are kind enough to order books that I recommend or inter loan them for me. I can also download library books.