Breast Cancer twice now in Rib bone

suz45

Hello Ladies,

This is now my 3rd time on the boards in 3 years. Had a lumectomy with 21 nodes in LB in 07(one tumor plus 2 nodes involved), Chemo then rads. Did an Oopherectomy for prevenative measures. Next was Sept 09 BC in right breast, node involment under arm, in neck & mammory nodes. Had chemo, rads then bi-lateral with (supposed to be) one year delayed recon.... My year would have been April 13, 2011.

I just got told this week that I have cancer in a rib bone (back). It showed up in a full body bone scan, I have pain in the same area and now have had a ex-ray. All lean towards cancer. I will be going for a full mri, bloodwork & so on within a week or two and they are planning on giving a shot of radiation to the affected bone to help aliviate the pain in my back.

My first cancer was triple neg and the second was almost the same, just a little more on the neutral side, Im also BRCA1

I gotta say this one has hit me like a ton of bricks, I was starting to get excited about my reconstruction & getting back to a sorta normal life. Now Im told It wont be cured, but am not sure as to what sort of life expectancy this new cancer  has..... months?? a few years?? Of course Im scared... I know they dont want to put me through regular chemo tx again, but there was some talk about a clinical trial (that is now closed) that worked well with my type of mutation. Also there is a new tx just approved in the states (not canada) that will be looking into (this wont be covered on my medical) anyway its all early and the info is all fuzzy as I didnt think I had cancer again!!

As odd as this may sound I still want my reconstuction... I feel scarred & mutilated, I want boobs again even if just for a little while. I was supposed to have immediate reconstruction but the Oncologists wanted me to wait a year... I would have been healed by now If it had been done. Yes I would still have bone cancer, but wouldnt feel like I have to strap on a set of boobs to be intimate (thats fine for some, but just isnt me)

Im also in the middle of renovating my house (major renovation) so everything is in a dire mess as stuff gets shuffled from one room to the next.

Not sure why Im writing this... maybe for advice, direction or anything realistic as its all become unrealistic now & my world has been turned upside down.

Hugs my dear Sisters, Suz