Recurrence after Bilateral Mastectomies

misteme

Hi all, I am new to this site after googling to see what I can find about recurrence after having a double mastectomy. I am 7+ years post Stage IIA (with 3 lymph nodes that were positive) Estrogen positive. (HR-, no gene) and I just found, right now as I write this, a smal (4-5mm -size of a pencil eraser head) lump in the non-affected breast thtat I had removed prophylactically, at 9 o'clock. I am TERRIFIED, simply and fundamentally SCARED! So scared that I just told my 16 yr old son and 11 yr old son, as well. (the young one saw me crying) and I am a single mother, so it's not an easy feat to hide my emotions - I have to go to the bathroom for that, and it's harder now to stay in there too long without them getting suspicous) ANYHOW, I am wondering about if anyone has heard of, or knows, or has had experience in this situation????? I did my 5 yrs of Tamoxifen, as well as ACT Chemo....the 'lump' is right smack next to my SALINE implant.. I've lived the last 7+ years BELIEVING, having 110% faith that I am healed (I'm a Christian) and yet I am now so scared, I can't stop crying......I plan on calling my onco MD first thing Monday morning, but for the next 36 hours (even more until it's examined) I'll be an emotional wreck. I've never fully emotionally recovered from getting BC, in fact I'm on disability now from SS. I have anxiety disorder, depression, etc. And, have also had other physical disabilities (Fibromyalgia being the major, along with severe arthritis down my spine from my neck (I was a nurse for 15+ years) and 2 herniated cervical discs from getting hit by a drunk driver 2 yrs ago. This now, I am afraid will push me over the edge, which is what I've been living on these last 7 yrs. Although my faith has gotten me thru it, I've never thought much about a recurrence. Just alwasy believed I am healed 100%. However, a physical thing such as this lump now has me beside myself. Any suggestions, advice, (other than making an immediate MD's appt Monday am) would be so appreciated, Angie

konakat

Hi Angie,

You might want to post this in another forum (Not Diagnosed with a Recurrence or Metastases but Concerned for better visibility.  This forum is about 1/2 down the list of forums.  This link might work too: http://community.breastcancer.org/forum/105

Sorry, I don't have an answer for you but you will reach more women by posting on the other forum.  Best wishes,

Elizabeth