scared beyond coping

zorrospouse

I thought this pet/ct scan was just a precaution because a cardiologist radiologist wanted to cover his rear mentioned a enlarged internal mammary lymph node in the ct to clear me of heart issues.  I was sure it would be the final nail in the door which breast cancer was hiding.  Instead today when I was leaving the scan room I was standing where I saw my body films and there were 2 large white spots.  From everything I knew before and since this morning, you DO NOT want to see bright white spots on this film.  I am beyond being scared.  My daughter is pregnant with her first child and I don't want this to over shadow her joy in being pregnant.  She is the only one of my 3 kids living in the same state. Please God let me not have to tell her I have cancer again.  We had to go thru it the first time when our oldest son and his wife were having their first son.  Please help me cope, I can't see my oncologist until 11:45 Monday and I am supposed to be working for another nurse then.  I am not going to be able to hold it together if I am right about what the results are.

carcharm

Where were the white spots? Did they use contrast? Take a deep breath. I know it's scary but it may be a normal finding.

zorrospouse

the spots were below the right dome of the liver but I don't know if they were in the lymph nodes or in the liver it'self

zorrospouse

Sorry I forgot to add that yes they used radioactive sugar for contrast.

Susie123

I am so sorry. I havn't had a pet scan but do understand the pure fear associated with testing. My alkaline phosphates are elevated and continue to climb. The thought of cancer returning is terrifying. Keeping you close in prayer. Susie

zorrospouse

Thank you for the support.  My husband and I were able to speak last night and I am feeling better today.  Hopefully after speaking with onc tomorrow I know if I have to fight the bc beast or find peace of mind.    There seems to be several possible causes of postive scans beside ca.  I am focusing on making baby blankets for my daughter's baby today and will face tomorrow with support from family and support from web site friends. 

HantaYo

Namaste!

Zorrospouse, {{{Hugs}}}.  Keep working on those baby blankets today.  You have our support here.  Don't worry about holding it together.

Karla

carcharm

Sending positive thoughts for negative results. Good luck!!

Mazy1959

zorro..whatever it is you have support here. Hugs, Mazy