SO NOT READY ....

crazylifex3

I am new to this forum and  In 2004, I developed BC at the age of 32 (as a result of radiation treatments for hodgkin's disease in 1986), and had a Bi-lateral mastectomy with immediate reconstruction of saline implants on June 28, 2004. My right breast dx was infiltrating carcinoma with ductal and lobular features. Left breast had lobular carcinoma in-situ. Chemo ( Adramyacin and Cytoxan) 1 tx damaged my heart and I developed cardiomyopathy. In 2008 I had a heart attack, and my RCA (right coronary artery) was 100% blocked. I had a stent put in and it was noticed that there was numerous amounts of radiation fibrosis with in the heart itself. Here in 2010, I am awaiting surgery (Sept. 15th) for possible recurrance of BC in the right breast. Recent ultrasound showed BIRADS catagory 5, 3 tumors noted in right breast along mastectomy scar and one bb size tumor noted in the sternum area. The US report states 2.6 cm poorly defined solid mass with high vascuIarity ,and 1 cm solid mass within the skin suspicious for skin mets. I am seriously numb over all of this and mainly scared to death at the moment. The large mass is pressing on my implant and is causing tremdous amounts of pain there and along my right lymphodemic arm!! UUUUGGGHHH!!!! I can't believe that this is  happening all over again after 6 years. I could just vommit!! I can't sleep, and I haven't cried yet, and I'm not sure at this point if that is a good thing or a bad thing.....Is there anyone else out there with a similar story? What are the chances that this has mets to other organs?? I want to see my kids grduate high school and drive me crazy with grandchildren. I am SO NOT READY to do this again!! I can't handle loosing my hair....that's the worst....(sigh)

mamaof3bugs

I don't have a similar story but I wanted to give you a cyber hug.  You should post over on the stage IV boards, there are a ton of wonderful ladies over there that can give you advice.  I will keep you in my prayers.  Angi

crazylifex3

Angi,

Thankyou for the cyber hug!! It was definately needed. I poseted over in the stage IV boards. I hope all is well with you.

squidwitch42

Huge Cyber Hug as well. 

You have been through so much, and I hope we can provide you some of the support and information you need.  The stage IV boards have some wonderful ladies..I see you said you posted there. You will be in my thoughts and prayers.

(((((((HUGS)))))))

Traci

rreynolds1

I'm not in your situation but I can offer you hope.  Even if the results are that the cancer has spread, it is not hopeless.  They treat Stage IV breast cancer as a chronic disease.  I have several women in my support group who have been doing well for years.  They are coming up with new treatments, two just recently which improve our quality of life and allow us to see our children grow up.  One of my friends has been living with bc for 14 years and now considers it an inconvenience rather than a hardship.  Every so often they change her treatments when they feel they have stopped working well.  Don't get me wrong, she would rather not have Stage IV breast cancer but many of us aren't aware that there is hope even with Stage IV breast cancer.  My motto is to hope for the best but plan for the worst just in case.  Hopefully, it will be nothing but a scare.  Hugs.

Roseann