Surgery wasn't so bad.

Carrol2

It has been 18 days since the surgery. 

I am able to move my arms pretty well but not completely flexible yet. I have this discomfort that is more annoying than painful.  

I did have a lot more pain initially very tolerable, but gets less and less every day. The worse part of the whole thing for me was the unknown. I had this fear of my boundaries.

 I did not feel much pain and thought that if I moved I would. Once I got out of bed i felt much better. Then I was petrified for them to change the bandage because I was afraid of what I would see. It was not bad at all and I also again felt better.

I was afraid to go home and be without that call button, but it felt great to be home in my own bed and I slept much better than in the hospital and felt better.

 I was afraid to get the drains out that it might hurt, didn't feel a thing and wow that felt much better.

Even the first night I slept without the compression bra sent me reeling with fear, but whew did that feel good.

Now I get up every day and do my exercises, get dressed and relax. I spend most of the day reading about my cancer online trying to find more things to fear but it gets less and less as I learn more.

 Now I am waiting  for my onoctype results to see if I need chemo. Then I can worry about that endlessly.

 How did you do with it all?  

lago

Thanks for posting… as you know I'm only a few days away. Nice to hear you're pretty flexible after only 18 days. I'm hoping for the same although I'm having the expanders places so I might hurt a little more initially.

For some reason I'm not scared to see my "Franken boobs" when the times comes. I just don't want them messing with my face

Carrol2

lago

how nice to get the reconstruction started right away. I did not have that option. I hear the recovery is a little longer with that. But find out asap when you can do some light stretching. Do whatever you can as soon as you can, it makes the process much easier.

lol at "Franken boobs". Mine kind of look like someone took a pin and deflated me. I still have kind of a shape and cleavage sort of though, so makes me feel much better. I think the scar is going to be very thin too. I bet you will not look bad at all. What size are you going for? Bigger or smaller or the same as you were?