Before BC what did I spend my time doing?

montana7p

Before BC what did I spend my time doing?

montana7p

I sit and wonder sometimes what I used to spend my time doing before I spent hours on the internet looking up treatments for hypertrophic scars, peripheral neuropathy due to either surgery or radiation, thinking about the weight around my disgusting belly that I'd like to lose, dreading having my ovaries incapacitated and wondering whether I'll live to see my kindergartener graduate from grade school. I'm so sick of spending time and money -- or losing time and money -- on this krap disease.  Breast cancer sucks.

coss

Amen.  Two years out cancer is still my first thought in the morning and the last at night.  What was I doing before all this? What were my plans, what did I care about?  I can't even remember any more. I don't have any answers for you, I just wanted you to know I hear you, and yeah, it sucks.

nobleanna007

 I hear both of you being almost 3 yrs out!!!! It sucks! And anyone on these pags can say they don't think about it and put it behind them are fooling themselves! No we should not harp on it and live our lives for it! But Darn it it is there and will always be their! whether we like it or not. I refuse to sugarcoat it, and yes I have been blasted for it but I will not say this journey was easy! And it will be my journey for the rest of my life, whether I like it or not! 

So yes we have to move on, I get it but how do you do that???????????????? When you feel aches and pains??? You still have neuropthy and lymphedema which flares all the time! I still have 3 surgeries to go through! How do I put it in the past when it will be with me forever?????

B.

hammer2

Amen ladies, I feel the same way. I just can't seem to get past it. Its been over a year and its all I think about. Everydody says find something that you are interested in and that will help. Sorry but it doen't work that way. Its always ther in your mind!!!!! I thought it was just me. Thanks to this forum I never feel alone. Somebody on here always seems to bring me comfort in knowing I'm not alone in how I feel.