Some peace

sweeney

Has anyone else ever found that after the initial hellish period of finding out you have cancer and all the horrible emotions you go through that next phase isn't so bad? I just had my lumpectomy and sentinel node biopsy yesterday and today I feel peaceful. I feel cared for and loved. Maybe it's the act of admitting to the world that you need help and care and then realizing when you say that, that people actually come through in spades. Not sure, and I know I'll go though some horror again soon as I await pathology to tell me if I'm unifocal or multifocal but I just thought I would post this. Because there are some moments in all of this where I have felt more blessed than I ever could have imagined. And I think that important to post about too, especially for those who aren't in those moments of peace. Sit tight. It's coming.

LtotheK

Yes!  I often say that these posts could have been written by me.  Had my surgery Monday.  This post describes me today perfectly.  I was even happy--and I am not sure what the path report shows. It's 10 cent wisdom to suggest we all "live in the moment", but sometimes this kind of shock does just that.  And it's kind of miraculous.

in_cognito

I agree!  For whatever reason, I felt so much better after surgery.  It was like a large cloud was lifted.  To me it was the first step in getting through this!

LRM216

Yes, agree completely.  I guess  the fact that we became "proactive" and began our journey helps the mitigating factors a lot.

Linda

sweeney

So glad we agree! Because goodness knows that there will be lots of ickiness right around the corner, but for right now I'll take the peace I can find. Curl up with my kids and my cat. Let my husband pamper me and feel like all is right in the world. Even if that only lasts for a couple of days. Bless each one of you and sleep well my friends....:)