What Keeps You Going?

Methusala

I try not to think about being a Triple.  a 3D ha ha. The big Triple Threat!

but seriously sometime doesn't it just weigh on you?  What keeps you going?

My 7 year old son is my life.  He's pretty much lived with this since he was 4, so doesn't remember anything different, you know?  But my last few visits to Roswell Park, he's insisted on coming.  The poor little guy I think knows almost too much for his own good and he worries.  One thing about this cancer crap, it sure has made me appreciate people more, especially him.  

LRM216

Not bad enough that we have to live with the constant fear of this beast coming back, but then our children also get to live with the disgusting burden that is forced upon their lives (seems no matter what their ages) that so disrupts their security and the right to a happy, secure childhood.  My girls are grown and I have grandchildren, but I still see the worry in all of them and I hate it for them and for me.

Guess my above paragraph lets you know that I don't always do to well with this disease I have. I still roar at the injustice of the disease, not to mention the nights and days when for some reason, the fear of it all sets in again, just as it did upon diagnose.  The term "triple negative breast cancer" stills makes the hairs on the back of my neck (if I even have any there!) still stand up.  I hate it.

I am going to hope that the next poster brings a little sunshine into your life by being a bit more upbeat then I am right now.  I could use it too!

Holding your hand all the way, babe.....

Linda

angelsabove

My amazing kids. Wonderful husband who even loves me without boobs or while I was bald. My mom who actually made the statement. WHY could it have not be ME instead of YOU.....My in laws who have been VERY supportive and helpful. First and FOREMOST I must say Our Heavenly Father and lots of PRAYER.....could honestly say without him....uuuuummmmm I just dont know if it would be possible to Keep Going.....Especially now....I am three weeks post treatment and I feel like MY TEAM has left me....:(

Trying to step out into the NEW WORLD.....the world where I am now a (Cancer) Survivor. A world where I am not DAILY fighting this beast......

COME ON GREAT MINDS OF MEDICINE......GET US A PILL TO TAKE!!!!!!!!!

May God Bless Us All 

cwrightrn

I have found all this to be a battle of the mind.  I read once that if we dwell on the "what if's" of tomorrow, it robs us of the joy of today.  Now, don't get me wrong, my hubby and I have had to have very difficult conversations but when we are done....we move on, we don't dwell there.

I too have kids, ages 11,14,15 and they have had to deal with a lot more than I had to at their age BUT I think it will make them more compassionate, loving people.

We too, have great faith and we cling to that during difficult times.  All you ladies that responded are stage 1 or 2....I started out at stage III and in a year progressed to stage IV--too quick for me!  Don't waste the time you have worrying about tomorrow...enjoy today!!

Blessings and hugs

Carole 

Karen3

cwrighrrn - thanks for the above. I agree!

I was having neoadjuvant chemo and regular MRI's - but it showed that the chemo wasn't working for me so it was withdrawn and I was straight in to surgery and now I am doing rads. Sometimes I feel terrified about all this and I still have troubled sleep BUT I am trying really hard to adopt a different approach to life. I am a single parent with a 17 year old son who I adore. We've all heard the saying 'live for the day', but the significance for us ladies with BC is profound. It is a 'new normal'. I have booked a lovely holiday for my son and I in July and I intend to enjoy every minute - we have both wanted to see Pompeii and  thought why not now? So, it's booked! It's given me something to look forward to when all this treatment is over . I am just getting ready to go for my rads now but Cwrightrn is so right - DONT WASTE TIME worrying about what may be and enjoy the here and now!

Love to you all and wishing you all a lovely peaceful day!

Karen XX

Scoobydoo

Carole - you speak words of wisdom.  Thank you for your post.

First, my Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ keeps me going.  To know that He is control helps me get through each day.  To know that I have eternal life with Him helps me when I feel scared of dying.  Reading the Word of God, especially the last 3 chapters of Job really helps me make it through.

Second, my wonderful loving husband. He is such a strong person.  He is my soul mate.  We are a team. I hada lumpectomy and there may be a chance I will have to go back and have bmx.  He wants me to do whatever to live.  He said boobs or no boobs I will stil be hot to him.  How sweet is that.  I am bald and overweight and dont feel hot at all. His eyes told me that he meant what he was saying. 

Third, my mom is my hero.  She is a strong woman in the Lord.  I do not know how I would have made it through without her.

I wish all of us long lives and cancer free.

Anita

Titan

Scooby..what a wonderful husband you have..that brough tears to my eyes...I think my husband thinks I'm hot too even though I have the 2 scars....but they are almost gone now...he thinks my rad tattoes are cool too..I think they are ugly.

Like people say forget about the what ifs!  You are wasting your time...there is a very good chance that this beast will never revisit any of you again...

It does take time and you will have your moments...I certainly do..but dang...those what ifs are not worth the time...usually I yell at myself....people think I'm crazy!

cwrightrn

Karen---WOW!  Pompeii??? And I thought our camping trip to the Oregon coast the end of April was exciting!  Good for you!!

Anita--Our faith is the same, our hubby's are the same, I don't however have a relationship with my folks because of abuse BUT my inlaws are wonderful.  Throughout this, however, I have found it is much harder on those around me---you are right, our eternal destiny is secure but our families are left behind and that is difficult.  I have found over this last year though that God has given me a peace about that and through little things that have happened I have seen that they will be okay and there is a great comfort in that.

Blessings to all of you on your journey and great big hugs!

Carole 

Karen3

Carole - blessings to you too.

Your positive approach to all you are going through is an inspiration and it is clear you have a deep faith to hold you up. By the way, a camping trip to the Oregon coast sounds wonderful to me! I love camping although the weather can be pretty cold and wet in England....Enjoy your trip!

Hugs to you from across the pond,

Karen XXX

 

riley702

Carole - I love that quote. It reminds me of a similar one from Shakespeare, "Our doubts are traitors and make us lose the good we oft might win, by fearing to attempt."

That's very good advice; thanks for reminding me.

Karen3

riley702 I love that Shakespeare quote! Thanks for that X