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edited June 2014 in Stage III Breast Cancer

Well, Since I am always posting my sob stories I thought I would share my day.

I woke up praying for peace and stregnth to handle chemo today. About 30 minutes later I got an email from a friend who had cancer while prego and she had same amount of nodes, same size tumour and if you can believe this it was in the same place. She got the same treatment as me minus zometa and taxol. She emailed me to tell me today is 2 years out from chemo and her scans came back perfect , blood work perfect. That gave me tremendous peace. I read this in the car up to the hospital

I arrived at the chemo room and brought the baby. I sat next to this very nice lady who was around 55. She has stage 10 bc and tells me she feels she can go atleast 10 years-that she has met a ton of stage 4 ten year survivors. She knew nothing of Zometa. For some reason seeing how normal she is , how her plans to live I was instantly filled with strength.

I then went in to my appt-blood work was perfect infact the best it has been. My platlets were at 450. Phsical exam good. We then discussed doing Zometa every 3 weeks for 4 sessions with my chemo. She agreed. I was filled with more strength. (this dosing shcedule is based on a study I found and I was determined to get it)

So my prayers were answered-peace and strength- a very clear answer to my prayer.

I then went to chemo- and first went the benadryl. I didn't know it made you feel drunk. I was like "this is the best I have felt since I was diagnosed." It was awsome and I will look forward to that every week:))) lol

BUT- THE  real lesson learned was that as that benedryl hit me they kept saying, " Go to Sleep-let  go- relax"

And I kept thinking-No I don't want to sleep-I want to enjoy this (LOL) and I want to work.  I fought it and I won. I was stronger then the drug. I worked through it.  So, all day I kept thinking how I was bigger then that drug-that my mind controlled my reaction-my thoughts were stronger then what the benedryl wanted to do to my body.

That is how we need to be with our cancer. We are bigger then our breast cancer!!

No, I don't believe positive thinking cures cancer but after today I believe a strong mind can send messages to our body and our body will react. I proved that to myself today. It was a turning point for me. I feel happy today. I haven't felt happy for a long time.

Prayers and Strong mind.....

PS

No side affects to the taxol. So far so good.

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