Just me ranting... Yes again :o)

cherneski

OK, I just have to say

I HATE BREAST CANCER!

I HATE CANCER! 

WHAT KIND OF SICK TWISTED DEMENTED DISEASE PICKS EVERYONE FROM LITTLE KIDS TO PREGNANT WOMEN! 

I HATE CANCER! 

GO AWAY CANCER NO BODY LIKES YOU HERE!

Thank you for letting me vent.  Not that I like meeting anyone new here, I especially get upset when it is a woman that is younger than me but to have 2 pregnant mothers on this board at the same time is just beyond me.  Pure and Billy you are in my prayers.

GIVE US THE DAMN CURE ALREADY!

Anonymous

Rant away hon!!  We all feel the same way.

Anonymous

Rant away hon!!  We all feel the same way.

apple

yeah!

idaho

Amen sister.

paml

I with ya! I hate this disease! I never want to see pink again!

baywatcher

Eff cancer!!!

karen1956

Couldn't agree with you more....BC just plain old s****!!!!

karen_in_nj

Rant away. You've got a chorus of ranters supporting you here. I hate cancer.

jenn3

It just doesn't seem fair - rant away!!!  We had a young mom with two little ones and a newborn that we used to talk to every other chemo.  She was always upbeat and in a great mood even though she had so much on her plate at one time.

kimber3006

I'll add my voice to that rant - hate HATE HATE it!

bonnie1jean

YES, I HATE IT TOO.  I HATE THAT MY LIFE WILL BE FOREVER ALTERED BECAUSE OF IT!

Pure

I know it sucks that were pregnant but I have to say that I wanted a 4th child more then anything-I knew there was someone always missing from our family. When Jeff was diagnosed they told us we would never have kids-now I have the family I always dreamed of which 10 years ago I was wondering if my husband would live and plans of family didn't exist.

 I had a misscarriage in Jan of last year and at that time they did a biopsy on a spot in my breast that came back negative and the real area they told me was nothing so I went and I got pregnant again.  I have to believe that if they found it early sure I would be NOT pregnant and with bc ( a little easier route) but this child wouldn't be here either. And to know I went through 4 months of treatment with perfect blood, very little  SE"S , etc I can't and wont complain. I am blessed-this baby is blessed and maybe he saved my life, maybe he protected me from the SEs,etc.

I don't know the answers and might not ever know and I have my days when I will sit in bed and cry and scream why cancer twice in our family and how could God let a preganant women bring life while fighting for hers-but I believe I truly do that there are gifts in everything, blessings everywhere, and answers that I may never have in this life but I have to accept.

Yes this disease sucks, yes it's unfair, but you know what so is a 8 year old that is raped, so is a mom who looses her children in a car accident-there is always someone with it worse so all we really can do is choose to look at our blessings.

But yes cancer sucks!! I have to tell you 2 weeks before I was diagnosed I started a blog called TooYoungForCancer and a line of tees for a website called RunningHightees.com-both were to desgiend to help me really get over what happen to my husband while giving back. I don't work on the blog and I sold the site b-c I can't talk about this crap yet and I don't want to be around it anymore then I have to-but life is so ironic and crazy we can only trust something better is coming our way.

Pure

And Chernski-I love your rants. I always get excited when I see you post and nervous when you don't for a while.

KerryMac

Jen - that was a great post. Yes, we do have to count our blessings, and always know there is someone worse off than ourselves.

That being said, yes, I hate cancer too. With a vengence..... 

DCMom

Jen- Now I have to search for baby news...did I miss Killian's arrival, but wanted to stop and post how much I can not stand cancer.  I feel like it has made me want to rush toward a lot of life's events because I want to be there.  One thing I notice are the songs that make it seem like we appreciate life more when we are dying.  In some ways yes, but in most ways I feel like I used to enjoy everything more as it happened.  I wasn't rushing my kids out the door I was enjoying their adventures along with them.  Now I notice how thrilled and anxious I am to see my son is heading off to college because I want to be there for him.  I want things to slow down, but I want them done so I was there.  Hard to explain.  I can't come up with how to condemn Cancer strongly enough...it is too horrible for comment.  FUBC!

Beverly11

Pure E - What a wonderful post.  If you ever are interested in public speaking, I can guarantee you the room would be full of people with wet eyes & smiling. 

Way to rant Deborah.  

Everynight I say a prayer for my BC sisters.

cherneski

Jen, I am so happy that you have such a great attitude.  I am happy we all have such great attitudes!  Well, you all know me, as great as it can be.  It just really seems so un-just!  You all know what I mean. 

karen1956

Pure....wonderful post....you have such a way with words....I hate cancer!!!! and yes, I know that things could always be worse and so many sisters (and brothers) have it much worse than I do (or did).....and I probably don't count my blessings enough....I have 3 wonderful children and now a wonderful SIL.  Have celebrated one college graduation.....son is finally in college, so there will be another college graduation in a few years....my youngest DD will celebrate her Bat Mitzvah in 2 months.....but BC has change my life in so many ways...some how I can't look at it in any positive way.....maybe one day I will grow enough to say, you know, having BC made me better because now I...... (not sure what to put in the blank).....You are an inspiration.....just thinking that tomorrow is Killian's big day.......yahoo....a baby....can't wait to see pics and hear all about him.  Hugs....

Billynda

Wow, so weird reading another pregnant girl's posting when the last 9 mos. I thought I was the only one:)  That is exactly how I feel, too!  We tried for this baby, I found a lump the wk b4 I knew I was preg.  The 1st doc I went to said it was nothing.  My OB is the one who had me get it checked more thoroughly.  So, I too, feel that this baby may have saved my life.  Then, at first, they were telling me the best thing would be to get an abortion.  I just couldn't!  So, I found docs that told me I didn't have to and they know for a fact because they've done this before:)  I felt so bad putting him through chemo, but knew that I had fought for his life so that got me through.  My husband and I did want 5 and now he doesn't want me getting pregnant again because he doesn't ever want us to go through this again, plus that's 9 mos. of no MRIs, scans etc. and he's scared about that.  So, if I hadn't been pregnant now I would have only had my daughter.  I feel blessed to at least have one of each now!!!  OR almost now - a few more days and I'll have 2:) 

BUT, don't think I'm all roses and butterflies about it.  I am pretty mad that I have to deal with this.  I just know that I feel a lot better when I focus on the positives. 

The best medicine for me has been having to put on a cheerful front for my baby girl.  I don't want her to wonder why her mama is sad all the time, and it seems when I act happy for her - I start to actually feel that way:)

pip57

Deborah, I just saw your rant on the active list.  And it hasn't been deleted yet.  You must have made some friends over the last few months. LOL

I so agree. Sometimes I am at peace with where I am and at other times I just want to spit nails. THIS JUST SUCKS! 

NancyD

Deb, rant on, lady. I've lost too many relatives to cancer of different kinds. It ALL sux no matter what age they were.

cherneski

Prettyinpink, Yep, I think everyone that reads my stuff now knows how to take me~lol, at least I hope so.

Billy~ I am so happy for you that you found Dr.s that know what they are doing and you will be meeting your new son soon.  I cant imagine what in the world you and Jen go through.  It angers me so much.  Cancer is a big bully!  I hate it!  It is just not fair!  Damn, picking on a pregnant woman is just the ultimate of low scumbing things!

Nancy~ yes you are so right, it all SUX!

Love you all,

So happy Jen has  Killian to hold in her arms, rather than her belly now

Billy, please keep us updated.  Praying for you and baby boy.  Does he have a name yet?

Gitane

Go chernski, your rant rocks.  Somehow you have a way to say it we can all relate to.  Look at all of us chiming in.

Billynda,  I'm pretty mad/sad, too, but somehow it isn't always front and center the way it used to be for me. (Still have my days though....)  I've heard others say the same thing you just said.  They act the way they want to feel (happy, confident, etc.) and without realizing how it happens they actually begin to experience those feelings.  I wasn't that deliberate about it, but I can see how it could work.