Scared Out Of My Mind HELP!!!!

LuvJesus4Ever

I was diagnosed with infiltrating ductual insitu in June 2009 and I am 30 years old.  I had a lumpectomy and sentinenal node biopsy that all came back negative.  I opted to not do chemo or radiation, BAD CHOICE!  Its now come back and is present in my right lung.  I am starting chemo this friday called taxofere.  I am so scared I can barely see straight.  What I want to know is this..... anybody had a similar case of it spreading to their lungs and after their treatment had no reoccurances or had it go into remission?  Is there ANY hope at all that chem will work for me and not reoccure?  I understand mestastic breast cancer had no cure but is there any hope at all that this won't happen again?  I've heard of some survivors that have had cancer go into remission but I'm confused if they had mestastic cancer??  Anybody that could help encourage me through this time would be very appreciated.  I am so scared, all i do is cry and yell.  I'm so angry, hurt and confused.  I just wish I had some hope that I will survive this and live to have children one day and not have to be on chemotherapy for the rest of my life, however long that is.  I'm so lost!  Somebody please help me.

Auntbiz

I am sorry to hear your news.  I do not have any answers for you.  I will be praying for God to heal you and give a peace that passes all understanding.

Blessings,

Elizabeth

cancerkicker

I am so sorry you have to deal with this beast called mets.  I have had mets for 18 months now and it's not near as bad as I would have thought it would be.  I still work (although now part time), I still work out, am an active parent of a two year old (although tired) and have a social life.  I have been on chemo for 4 months.

The worst part is the beginning - when you don't know what to expect.  There are lots of women who have lived years on mets - and I guess my best piece of advice is to not get hung up on statistics.  THere is no cure for metastatic disease but you can live with it for a a very long time.  My doctor likens it to living with diabetes - it's a chronic disease that you will know live with. 

It's perfectly normal to yell and scream and cry.  It will become clearer though and easier to navigate.  I promise.

Until then, lean on your friends, family, faith and all of us here on line.

Jessica