Baby Update

Pure

I am scheduled to have my baby a week from today unless I go earlier. I am not going to log onto here for the next week to sort of clear my mind. (unless I have a breakdown) My husband is begging me to not log on so much so I don't hear the scary stuff.

Anyway if you PM me I will get that-so PLEASE any good news PM me or someone in need or prayers:)))  I know a couple of us have appts this week and you will be in my prayers. I actually have baby appt today to be checked to see if I have progressed at all. Also, I am on facebook if anyone is on there.

I will email an update though right before I go in and God willing maybe it will be before Monday. I have to admit I don't want to be induced-this baby has been through so much it's just one more drug but something in my gut is telling me this baby needs to come out. Every pergo with bc I have talked to was induced at 34 weeks so if I make it until Monday I have gone 37 weeks and am so thankful.

I am super scared of course that the baby comes out healthy but all studies at MD Anderson  all babys followed had no problems so I am going on that study:)))

So right now I am dealing with extreme fear and anxiety about beating this disease and being here for my baby. I had a dream last night my husband cheated on me and the girl told me after I died she would raise my baby-that was reallllll pleasant. But I guess it represents my thinking and I want to calm my mind a bit before I have this baby so I am going to focus on my mental health this week:)

I hate this disease-I hate that I got it while preganant-I hate all it has taken from me from all of you-from the stage 4 girls but I am determined to find a way to come to peace and have hope.

Have a good week and I will let you know when I go into labor!!!!

arnie2two

Will be thinking of you... good thoughts...good thoughts.... good thoughts!  xoxoxo

hollyann

Will be thinking of you...Your booties are almost done....Will send them Friday......

karen1956

Pure.....(((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))))).....can't wait to hear all about Killian's arrival.....have something for him, but waiting till he is born......will look for you on fb...I'm there too.Karen

concernedsis

Best of luck Pure. You have my prayers too!

kim40

(((Jen))) We will all be thinking of you.  Take the time that you need away from the boards to get prepared for your new addition.  We are so very excited for you!  Let us know when it is time and we are all there with you holding your hand.  Can't wait to meet the little one!

Let-It-Be

Jen, I think of you everyday!  Sending you prayers for peace of mind, quietness and feelings of being SAFE. 

Wishing you a smooooth delivery and please cry and let your feelings out.  If you don't there's no way for them to leave you!  Cannot wait to hear of your new arrival!

Lots of good vibes,

Christine

Anonymous

Best of luck, Jen!

cheers247

Jen, I'm thinking of you and praying for a safe delivery for you and your baby.  Much Love!  Jessica

kimber3006

Sending loving, peaceful vibes and prayers your way!

Moissy

Jen  Peace be with you.

2z54

Thinking of you too! 

KerryMac

We'll all be right there with you Jen.

Get someone to let us know once he makes his arrival!

Wishing you an easy labour, then two pushes and he's out! 

Marple

  Wishing you well with the birth of your precious baby.   Gentle hugs.

barbe1958

Jen I wish you only the best and can only imagine the joy in your heart once you hold your new one in your arms!

smithlme

Happy, healthy baby days ahead. Give him a kiss from me. BIG hug to you!

Leah_S

Jen, I'm praying for you and your baby.

Leah

apple

big hugs Jen..

be positive!!!

Beverly11

Sending prayers and hugs Jen.

Bev

Bugs

Hugs and prayers for you and Killion, Jen.  Think only positive baby thoughts this week and try to push cancer out of your head.

Bugs

DCMom

Pure-  It's all been said.  I can't add a thing.  Tears in my eyes, joy in my heart, and thoughts of a wonderful life together for you and Killian.  God Bless and Prayers lifted.

AnacortesGirl

That sounds like a good plan and it is wonderful for that baby that you're going to make it to that 37 week point.  All baby systems are a "GO"!  Our thoughts are with you and we look forward to hearing from you!

Faith316

There's just nothing like a new baby ..................every birth is a miracle from God.

jenn3

(((HUGS))) headed your way.  I can't wait to hear all about the new baby in our group.

Kodapants

All be well to you and your family. Is your fb name is it under pure?

Anonymous

I think of you every day and will be checking to see how you are doing.  I know you will do great.

lkc

Jen.  Wanted to wish you an baby K all the best.

i know all will be well.

i hope you enjoy your baby time !

Mamita49

All the best from me too.

You will be alright............

xoxoxo 

Gitane

The waiting room is pretty full here at bc.org.  I'll just squeeze in, too, and wait here with everyone else.  Warm hugs, G.

bejuce

Dear Pure,

I wish you, Killian, your hubby, and family all the best next week.  I'm sure Killian will be a gorgeous and healthy baby that will bring you much joy.

Can't wait to see his pictures!

Sending you love and prayers,

Bejuce

BTW, you mentioned that you didn't want to read much, but when you come around to it, you may want to check this article that was published on the New York Times magazine a while back. It's about pregnant women with cancer and it can be found here:

http://www.nytimes.com/2008/08/31/magazine/31cancer-t.html?_r=1&scp=1&sq=pregnant+with+cancer&st=nyt 

(if the link doesn't work, you can search the NYT archives for it, the article is entitled "With Child, With Cancer" and it was published on the NYT magazine in August 2008) 

cookiegal

wow this baby has so many fairy godmothers....someday when he grows up he will know he had the bravest, hardest fighting mom ever.