January Mastectomy

neversurrender

{{{Kat}}}

I am sorry you had to deal with such an insensitive jerk at the onco office.  You would think that someone in her line of work would be a little compassionate, but apparently that is to much to ask.   I will be praying for you tomorrow and Thursday as you face the task of talking to your DDs. 

Allow yourself the tears and the anger.  Don't feel you are 'blubblering'.  This is damn unfair and it is ok to feel sad/scared/pissed off ! 

{{{HUGS}}}

Sally

bookart

Lordy, Kat - blubber away.  I still have crying fits - isn't there a ton of anger, grief and fear teaming inside all of us?  And worse, to have these petty obstructions aggravate and frustrate?  I try to have calm, peace, strength of mind - borrow God's if I can't find my own - but sometimes, it's just too much.  You have our permission to cry all you want.  No good holding it in, anyway.

Lynbob

Kat, we are here with you babe. It's weird but if feels like if it happens to one of us it is happening to all of us. You are on my heart and mind and in my prayers. Your daughters as well {hugs}

faithandfifty

Kat. I hope that somehow by your sharing here with us that it is somehow 'therapeutic'.

Absolutely blubber on. I don't think there's any meter running and you gotta do what ya gotta do.

I seriously don't get the interaction with the onc nurse/phone conversation stuff?!?!?!?!?! What on earth? How is she not at liberty to relay your information to YOU?!?!?! I think I'd be on the phone every 15 minutes to have that onc relay the info him/herself if YOU want it.

I get that the onc may not have an available appointment, but if the pathology is "in" and you want the info I don't know how/why on earth you aren't entitled to it????

Please forgive me if I'm shooting my mouth off.

I have read over and over and over here at BCO that the squeeky wheel gets the attention. Now, more than ever you need to be your own best advocate.

It would seem to me that you are entitled to the report. Have them FAX it if you want it, or show up and have them hand it to you.... if that's what you want.

If you had the info prior to your appointment on the 15th then you could articulate a set of informed questions. Kat, that's just my two cents from the outside. I certainly don't mean to seem to know a thing. The only time I've had to 'wait' for news is while the pathology tests were being 'run.' Once the info was into the office I was given the "news." Both diagnosis -- over the phone, by my surgeon, prior to the appointment with the onc.

Maybe I should delete this whole response.

I don't want it to cause you any additional aggravation. Truly.

Perhaps I've completely misunderstood your recent post above.

Please, please, please know that I only want good for you. I only intend to support you in the midst of the unknown.

Debbie

robinlbe

I agree with Debbie....keep calling your onc, or go over there and DEMAND a copy of your path report.  You should be able to see this before your appt. so you know what you're up against...and be able to research this (or whatever you want to do with it) before you meet with the doc. 

And cry, scream, yell, pound the floor, blubber, sob, and whatever else you're feeling  ALL you want and need to do!!!!    You are going through SO many emotions right now.....You HAVE to get it out!  You can't leave it in.

Will be praying EXTRA hard as you tell your daughters.  I know that one of your daughters is my daughter's age - they both graduated from high school this year and began college.  My daughter had such a hard time with my diagnosis two years ago, and when she was reading this with me the other night (the one who said, "I love those guys!"), she told me she didn't know how your daughter was going to be able to be away at school.  She knew that she would have a hard time if this diagnosis had been mine. 

I'm sure you'll be in your girl-hugs for a long time.......

Kat, I just HATE this for you....hate it, hate it, hate it!   I hated it for Gina, too, when she went through round #2.  This just stinks!  But it sounds as if this has been caught early, and we're going to hold on to that!  We're going to have faith

Hey, ya know what? Call that doc's office every day and see if they have a cancellation - maybe you could get in earlier ......one day sooner is one day closer to answers and maybe one night closer to more rest (?)....

 Much love and prayers to you, dear Kat...

blessings and love to all....robin

KatRNagain92

I'm doing it!  I'm going to storm the Onc's office and demand my results!  I love that Debbie!  I phoned today to find out if I should stop Tamoxifen.  I certainly don't want to be fueling a fire if I don't have to.  I get a message on my house phone (when I specified my cell) from the APN....the same nurse practioner that told me to get dressed...it's just a cyst...that the doctor wasn't in so she couldn't ask her but she thinks I should stay on it.  lol.  Ya right...like I'm going to listen to her? I'm not taking it until I see the MD.

 Then when I got home tonight and got the mail, I got a big packet from the hospital.  Remember the pink "So you have breast cancer now what" book?  I'm thinking to myself, are my path results in here?  Nope, just a lot of brochures for wigs and dealing with anxiety over the holidays.  gads. 

I'm still crying...my husband, bless his heart says  "Well, Kat, you do have something to cry about"  I thought that was kind of funny.

And, I found another lump in my left armpit.  I'm surprised I didn't feel it before...it makes sense since the cancerous node is about 8 inches below it.  And we all know, lymph travels one way and one way only....(double sigh)

I told my oldest daughter tonight and I'm sad/embarassed to say she's either in denial or she's so concerned about how this will affect her wedding that shes actually mad at me.  My youngest comes home from college tonight so I'll tell her tomorrow (I'll be in bed probably...I get so sleepy anymore)

I quit my CAbi job too It's the end of the season and I'm having my sample sale this weekend. I just can't afford to sign on for the Spring season and pay for the sample line when I don't know what's happening.  My account manager sends me a 'form' letter that says I should really re-think my decision that CAbi girls who take a season off find it hard to come back the next season. I told her I didn't know if I had two seasons to live let alone sell CAbi! I think she felt bad...she's refunding my 250.00 non refundable dollars that I paid in October to hold my Spring spot.

I do like my new job though...taking adverse event calls for an oral pharmaceutical company. I just feel so bad that they've spent all this time and money training me (and I'm pretty good at it!) only to pull the rug out. I'm not saying a word to them though until I know whats what.

Oh, this is interesting too....my good friend told me tonight that there's a theory about recurrrence. When you remove the food source/tumor from your body, your body stops producing antibodies to fight it. The body gets lazy and doesn't recognize little cancer cells floating around and then all of a sudden, it's everywhere.  (triple sigh) 

Thank you all for keeping me close to your hearts and for your prayers.  You are all such a big help to me I can't even tell you.  I certainly don't feel alone I can you tell you that.  I am so blessed to have you all in my life!

Sweet dreams Team January!
xoxo
Kat

neversurrender

Kat,

I'm sure DD is angry.  She is angry at cancer, at the timing, at life in general right now.  She is probably also terrified and in denial.  You are on hand, so it is easiest to vent the anger at you, unfortunately.  Given a little time, she'll come around.  I'm sorry you had to face her anger though.  I can only imagine how hard that conversation was for you.

I agree with Debbie.  Demand those results.  You want to be as prepared as possible for your appointment.  

Kat, I hate this for you.  I hate this for your family.  I will be keeping you in my prayers today as you talk to your younger DD.  {HUGS}

Love ya Team January !

Sally

Never Surrender !!!!!!!

sunsnow

Awww, Kat, on behalf of daugthers of BC moms, I apologize. I cringe when I think back on some of my reactions to my own mother's illness. I can't even explain why I had some of the feelings I did. I think it was the overwhelming feelings about the unfair, random nature of all of this. Your daughter didn't do anything wrong (nor did you!) and this stupid thing is going to mess with her life. She'll feel badly enough someday when she looks back on this--trust me. 

I'm glad you're going to march in and get YOUR results. If the office won't give them to you, the lab must. I also had a problem with the home/cell number issue and kept missing doctor calls. I finally had them remove the home number from their data base. I didn't want to receive calls or messages there anyway. It made me feel tethered to the house whenever I was waiting for results. Of course, that meant receiving MRI results in the middle of TJ Maxx. Oh well.

I hope things have gone as well as possible with your younger daughter. She's the same age as my oldest, and I can't imagine how hard this must be for both of you. I wish you strength and peace.

Maura 

faithandfifty

Kat. I'm so glad that you're not angry at me for being so outspoken. I really thought about deleting my whole rant....... just hoping that you would take it with the good intentions that it was offered.

Continued prayers for both of your daughters.......... I can't even begin to imagine their jumble of emotions, especially when this is the time when the info is yet uncertain. I'm sure that we as humans always look at things from our own perspective -- 'how will this effect my fairy-tale' and its a rare person indeed who can immediately grasp the gravity of someone else's story, even when its unfolding for someone they love dearly.

I'm glad that you have 'us' to share their reactions/non-reactions/over-reactions/under-reactions.

I know that the fashion line gave you some genuine joy and I'm sure that decision, while wise, also saps you of the vision of where you thought you'd be heading. I know for me, when I have had to "cancel" something due to the cancer-journey, that's when I have gotten indignant and thrown HUGE pity-parties for myself.

In the words of your dear husband, you do indeed have something to be crying for/over/about.

Know that we are here. Know that we care. Know that we want the absolute best, easiest, most direct route through to the sunshine again.

Go ahead and vent all you want. We're gathered around you. We'll listen.

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faithandfifty

Maura..... you were so insightful and articulate in your empathy having been there/done that.

Truly priceless reflection.

Thank you for your sharing.

Perspective.....................................

My how much we learn through this process.

ReginaR

TEAM JAN We Need a Group Hug{{{{{{{{{{{{{{HUGS }}}}}}}}}}}}

Kat, been thinking of you so Much! I am sorry that Onconogist Nurse was NOT helpful. I always say to them " If it was you would you want to Wait??" some time that works.Waiting is the worst part. Sending Prayers to help you with Patients & with your DD & Family. {{{{hugs}}}} for comfort!I will be praying for next weeks appt. Please let Us know what we can do!

Love all My "Team Jan!!!!

Have a great week! Gina

grdnslve

 I'm not on here much anymore, so thanks to Sally for the PM.

Kat--really nothing left to say that hasn't already been expressed better than I can.  I am ..  stunned.  The tears that seemed to finally be on hold are freely flowing again, and it is hard to breath right now.  I hate this bloody disease.  Am so heartsick for you going through this.  {{{{{HUGS}}}}}

Just found out my brother has stage IV kidney cancer--terminal.  I want to wake up and be 23 - and think the only enemy is father time and car accidents.  Your news hit me even harder-- oddly closer to home & more personal. . . and perhaps my every waking fear.

Can only hope the knowledge of so many offering up love and prayers will give you some peace and strength.

KatRNagain92

Oh Lola, I'm so sorry about your brother!  When does this ever end?  Prayers and good wishes go out to you and your family during the horrible time.  And strength for you!

I want to thank everyone for giving me the courage to get my path report!  I got it!   They faxed it to me.  At first they didn't want to but I told her that it was my property, I was an RN so I know what I'm reading, and I already know the Biopsy outcome.  I promised I would keep my appointment for next week but I insisted on having her fax it to me and she did.

It's pretty straight forward.  They are calling it metastsis of the right breast carcinoma that is comparable to the IDC that I started with.  They don't go in to ER+ or Her- or the nuclear grade but it does say that its on my sternum and my left chest wall. 

So I have stopped my tamoxifen for now...I don't know if that is wise but another week can't do much more harm.  I really think I might be one of those people that converts the tamoxifen to the food source so for now that's my executive decision. 

My sister's coming in to town tonight so that will be good.  I'm having my year end CAbi sample sale tomorrow so that will be hard to say goodby to that. 

Thanks again for all your love and support!  I'll keep you posted on my appts!

xoxo

Kat

grdnslve

Thanks Kat.  So glad you got your results.  Maybe from here on when you have proceedures, tell them to cc you a copy for your records.

Do you have a case manager with your insurance??  Ask them if they will roll over any $$$  for this month to next years deductable.  Doesn't hurt to ask. 

Enjoy your time with you sister.

faithandfifty

Kat. Again thank you for keeping us updated.

I'm glad that you have the report, since you wanted the information. Sometimes it takes a committee, a team, to help 'think' through the step at hand.... as they present themselves.

I know that this news is what you 'suspected' from your initial phone conversation, but I'm sure seeing it in writing was still tough.

Now your training and your background and your understanding will play to your strength. When you are ready you can begin your inquiry thru the web, thru BCO well informed warriors.

Right now you have your sister. Will you tell her? Or perhaps you have?

Did you end up speaking to your younger daughter? Is your husband back home?

I am just attempting to construct a visual picture of you -- I'm attempting to envision who is surrounding you with support. I need those images for my peace of mind on your behalf.

Sending prayers for you. Sending prayers for your immediate family as they come to grips.

One day at a time. One hour. One minute.

Sending prayers. Followed by yet more prayers.

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Anonymous

 Kat you have been on my mind and in my prayers. I am so glad Debbie and others encouraged you to get your pathology reports, hopefully they will help you to plan and prepare for your appointment.

Lola I am so sorry to hear of your brothers diagnosis......such a difficult time. When you mentioned in your post how about wanting to be 23 it made me think of this beautiful email I received today. Very heartwarming, and like it says to be sure to send to loved ones and special friends.  I feel honoured to be able to call all of you wonderful ladies here my very special friends. 

Lynn so good to hear from you!

Sorry for such a long post, but it really does pull at your heart strings.

THIS IS A TERRIFIC STORY AND APPARENTLY TRUE

Puppy Size This is one of the neatest stories you will ever hear.
You will know precisely what this little girl is talking
about at the end (you'll want to share this one with
your loved ones and special friends)! 

'Danielle keeps repeating it over and over again.
We've been back to this animal shelter at least
five times. It has been weeks now since we started
all of this,' the mother told the volunteer. 

'What is it she keeps asking for?' the volunteer asked.

'Puppy size!' replied the mother.
Well, we have plenty of puppies, if that's what she's looking for.' 'I know.....
we have seen most of them, ' the mom said in frustration... 

Just then Danielle came walking into the office 

'Well, did you find one?' asked her mom.

'No, not this time,' Danielle said with sadness in her voice. 'Can we come
back on the weekend?' 
The two women looked at each other, shook their heads and laughed 

'You never know when we will get more dogs. Unfortunately, there's always
a supply,' the volunteer said. 

Danielle took her mother by the hand and headed to the door. 'Don't worry,
I'll find one this weekend,' she said.

Over the next few days both Mom and Dad had long conversations with her.
They both felt she was being too particular. 'It's this weekend or we're not
looking any more,' Dad finally said in frustration. 
'We don't want to hear anything more about puppy size, either,' Mom added. 

Sure enough, they were the first ones in the shelter on Saturday morning ..
By now Danielle knew her way around, so she ran right for the section
that housed the smaller dogs. 

Tired of the routine, mom sat in the small waiting room at the end of the
first row of cages. There was an observation window so you could see
the animals during times when visitors weren't permitted. 
Danielle walked slowly from cage to cage, kneeling periodically to take a
closer look. One by one the dogs were brought out and she held each one. 
One by one she said, 'Sorry, but you're not the one.' 

It was the last cage on this last day in search of the perfect pup. The volunteer
opened the cage door and the child carefully picked up the dog and held it
closely. This time she took a little longer. 

'Mom, that's it! I found the right puppy! He's the one! I know it!' She screamed
with joy. 'It's the puppy size!' 

'But it's the same size as all the other puppies you held over the last few weeks,'
Mom said. 

'No not size... The sighs. When I held him in my arms, he sighed,' she said. 
'Don't you remember? When I asked you one day what love is, you told me
love depends on the sighs of your heart. The more you love, the bigger the sigh!' 

The two women looked at each other for a moment. Mom didn't know whether
to laugh or cry. As she stooped down to hug the child, she did a little of both. 

'Mom, every time you hold me, I sigh. When you and Daddy come home from work
and hug each other, you both sigh. I knew I would find the right puppy if it sighed
when I held it in my arms,' she said. Then, holding the puppy up close to her face,
she said, 'Mom, he loves me. I heard the sighs of his heart!' 

Close your eyes for a moment and think about the love that makes
you sigh. I not only find it in the arms of my loved ones, but in the
caress of a sunset, the kiss of the moonlight and the gentle brush
of cool air on a hot day. They are the sighs of God. Take the time
to stop and listen; you will be surprised at what you hear. 'Life is
not measured by the breaths we take, but by the moments that
take our breath away.'
 hope your life is filled with Sighs!!!

Appreciate every single thing you have, especially your friends!
Life is too short and friends are too few. 
Life is too short to wake up with regrets.
Love the people who treat you right and forget about the ones who don't.

robinlbe

Lola, So saddened to read of your brother's diagnosis....will be keeping him, you, and your family in my thoughts and prayers.

Kat, I'm so PROUD of you for demanding the results that were yours to begin with!  Sometimes doctors, nurses, and medical practices become too possessive of things that are truly OURS to begin with, *and* they forget their original purpose is that of serving......   You must really like your onc, to put up with his nurse!  She sounds as if she's due for a career change - some kind of a job where she doesn't need to show campassion!  Maybe a weed puller would be a better occupation for her        

  Anyway, I am truly sorry that the results were what you were sort of suspecting, what we were fearing, and what we were praying we weren't going to find.  BUT, the battle isn't over!!!!!!    It's just beginning - we've just got to fight a little harder this time.  Show this ole C-guy what he can do with his stupid ole C-cells for good!!!!!   Guess we weren't tough enough on him the first time!!!

   In the meantime, cry all you want.  Cuddle with that wonderful husband of yours, hug those precious daughters of yours, and let them cuddle and hug you.....

blessings and love to all the J-team......robin

neversurrender

Kat, I'm glad you were able to get your results.   I am sorry that it confirmed your fear.  Enjoy having your sister visiting, soak up all the love from her and your DH and DDs.  Their love will help keep you strong for the battle ahead.  I know that today will be another tough day for you. I hope you can enjoy the party, in spite of the reason you must have it.  {{{Kat}}}

Lola, I am so sorry to hear about your brother.  I will keep you family in my prayers.

I love ya Team January !

Sally

Never Surrender !!!!!

grdnslve

Thanks for the prayers for my brother.  This is complicated by a total life change for them.  They had to leave the cabin they built with their own hands, from sawing the lumber to contruction, as the location was too far away from any services.  Plus they would be snowed in during the winter.  But her cousin offered them a place to live in town, and with the loving help of family & friends they are now able to concentrate on fighting his disease.  He has mets to the spine.  on the positive side, this past year he reestablished contact with children he hadn't seen in many years (dratted ex), and now says his bucket list is full.

We have decided to not tell our mother as she has alzheimers.  We just lost dad last year.  ugh

We are in Arizona for the winter-rockhounding.  Dh went to town yesterday to buy some acid to wash the rocks with, while he was in the store he bought some rum.  The sweet oriental lady who was checking him out freaked out at the two purchases, telling him YOU CAN'T DRINK THAT!!! YOU CAN'T DRINK THAT!!! BURN YOU!! BURN YOU!! Guess she thought it was a mixer.

Love to you Kat & all you ladies

bookart

That's hilarious!  But nice that she was watching out for him.

KatRNagain92

Hope everyone has a great Sunday today!

Maura, I meant to tell you thanks for your thoughts on the angry daughter.  I was thinking about you last night and I wish I would said something earlier.  I think that is good advice.  You're right of course and I'm sorry that your still having aftershocks about your own mother.  If your mother was half as wise as you are (and I'm sure she was) she did not give it another thought, just like I'm not going to admonish Kelsey either.  Thanks for your insight.

Oh, and I should also tell you that my husband's very favorite saying so far during all this is "Circle the Wagons!"  He is very grateful I have you ladies to share, bond, cry and comort with...and so am I!

Prayers for all of us today!
xoxo
Kat 

faithandfifty

"Circle the wagons!!!!!!!!!!"

"Puppy sighs!!!!!!!"

What-ever-it-takes......................................

We're here. We're standing with you. We're holding you up in prayer, in tears, in laughter.

Kat. We're in your heart, your pocket, your purse.

We will be with you through the whole new chapter.

Let us know what you need to hear.

xx00xx00xx00xx00xx

faithandfifty

P.S. Kat, I was just thinking that you might appreciate another thread that I frequent here.

It's called, "Life's a Beach" and is in the section, "Growing Our Friendships After Treatment."

(Yes, I realize that you're just contemplating what treatment lies ahead.)

Anyhow the thread very seldom talks about cancer much, but is a group of a dozen or so 'creative' types who all love the beach. We have several pretty amazing photographers in the batch. We also have a 3 or 4 Stage IV gals who are 'regulars.' I think maybe just by osmosis of rubbing beach chairs with them, you'll gather some calm.

You're more than welcome to pop in. I told 'em that I was gonna give you a special invite.

The rest of you are also MORE than welcome -- ALWAYS!!!!

It's just a pretty serene sort of place. I've frequented there for probably close to four years or so and its a delightful group. We do have 'new' folks join us from time-to-time, so if anyone is interested just pop in and say, HI!

xx00xx00xx00xx

robinlbe

Kat, just wondering if you've been able to talk with the youngest daughter yet.....   I have to admit to FB stalking you...I found your two daughters, and they are just as gorgeous as you are:)   I think it was so awesome that your oldest took her sister, you, and her future MIL dress shopping with her.  What a special girl she must be!   You know - anger is one of our first steps in grief.  (or at least *one* of them....along with denial, sadness/depression, etc)...but of course, you knew that.  I'm glad you're not taking her anger personally. 

It's just like when my own kids vent ON me....they have to vent someplace.  We all have to release, and we usually take it out on the ones we love the most.  Sounds cruel....but it's the safest place to vent.  We know we'll be loved unconditionallly.  Your daughter knows she's loved unconditionally and she loves YOU unconditionally.  I can only imagane how she feels, too.

I just know how *I* felt when my dad was diagnosed........and how I felt when things were going well....and then how I felt when things took a turn for the worse....TOTALLY DIFFERENT scenario....and a different type of cancer altogether!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  A very aggressrive form of lymphoma, and it all happened within 5 months         It's NOT going to happen like this for you...but I can understand your daughter's fears, because I was there...and I saw my own daughter's fears two years ago, and how clingy she got....and how my oldest son (who was a freshman in college) took a nosedive in depression-land.

So, while I am praying for YOU, I am praying for everyone....especially your daughters.....

Love and blessings to all the J-team.....

probably won't be here for a week.....will be snowed under with school work....seven more school days until break!!!!!  But I will have SOOOO much to do before then.  Yesterday, I worked for NINE hours on school stuff and I'm getting ready to do more!  And next weekend I'll have even more to do.....sigh.     Just call me a "paid slave".....

much love to all!

robin

jizogarden

Hi Kat,

I've been off for the last week but my thoughts have been with you....hoping that you and your daughters and husband have been able to hold onto each other....hoping for comfort and courage. I'm still at a loss for words....every time I try to write to you I feel like an idiot....with so little to offer, everything I start to type feels so hollow.

I am glad you pryed your test results from the stiff claws of the oncology nurse....what a piece of work.....geez...... I hope making your own choice about the tamoxefin takes some of the helplessness away.  

Looking forward to hearing your updates this week.....and can say with every inch of me that I wish there were no updates coming that the cancer never came back......I know we all wish this..

Stength and healing to you Kat ♥ xox Laura 

burley

Kat-I'm so sorry to hear of your results, but we are all definitely going to circle the wagone!  I'm so glad you were able to get your results-although they weren't what you wanted, at least you know what you're up against.  We are all here for you, and sending out tons of love and prayers.  I think it's a reminder to us that we all need to be diligent about checking our bodies, including the tissue left after mx.

Lola-sorry to hear of your brother.  I'm glad he was able to move into town, and that his bucket list is full.

I'm nose deep in gathering paperwork together for the IRS.  Just when I thought we were on track to getting some payment arrangements, they slapped us each personally with federal tax liens. ugh

{{Kat}}  {{Lola}} 

bcincolorado

Kat and Lola I am sorry to read of the news.  Please know you are thought of daily and we care about you.

KatRNagain92

Thanks Ladies...you all fill a void that no one else understands.

The whole family knows but we're keeping it under wraps as long as we can because I'm not to anxious for my job to find out until I know what my prognosis is.  My youngest is heartbroken and can't stop crying.  My oldest is in denial still.  Thanks for the kind words Robin!  Visit my facebook page anytime!

It's interesting because I had Kendall for the sole purpose of giving Kelsey someone to have when I was 'gone'  I had just lost my dad and I thought oh no...what if something happens to us and Kelsey will be all alone in the world, I can't have that so I immediately got pregnant and Kendall has been the light of my life since.  She looks like her dad but has my personality so it's been fun watching her grow up into a young woman. 

Last night we had Kevin's kids over and our son in law is a pastor and we had a wonderful healing prayer.  I'm exhausted though. My weekend and has just been go-go-go and here I am talking myself in to going back to work today.  I just really want a nap! lol

Thanks for the invite Debbie...I may pop in there.  I still haven't venture far from team January...I'm frightened!

Laura...being off the tamoxifen and taking extra Vitamin C is already doing something.  My GI system is more regular and I've lost those pesky 5 pounds (but that could be stress too...but you never know!)

I also read an article about Pertuzumab (per-too-zoo-mab) and it's encouraging, except it's 10,000 a month!  acck!   I guess I best not put the cart before the horse...I've always been good at that.

Off to the showers, have a great day everyone!

xoxo

Kat

faithandfifty

Kat, yesterday in my feelings of 'helpless-ness' my husband offered to take me over to the gulf 'beach' so that I could express myself in our traditional manner.

It was fairly overcast afternoon for Florida as we drove over.

I had just finished writing my message to you, when he yelped, "Look the sun is coming out." So I got out my camera in the hopes of capturing some small glimmer of sunshine for you.

The most amazing thing happened. A gull flew right into the sun at the very moment I snapped the photo. How's that for timing.

This is from all of us. Tongue tied and not knowing what to say.

We are all on your team now.

We are all here and cheering for you this week.

There's a lot to celebrate this week -- you and moi have our birthdays!!!!

Let's focus on that!

Birthdays are what its all about!

Here's a little something for you to look at, when you need a reminder.

jizogarden

Wonderful photos...perfect! 

Just dropping in to give a hug to (((((((((((Kat)))))))))))))) and to all the lovely ladies of this group ♥ .

Strength and courage xox Laura