All the firsts...everything feels different

cookiegal

It's sort of strange, this first year with cancer is kind of like the first year of marriage in a way.

This is my first NYE with cancer. Personally I like the holiday. In a few weeks will be my first birthday with cancer, then first valentine's day.

I'm glad April 12 will be my second marriage anniversary, I am glad we got in our own set of firsts not in the shadow of cancer.

Yes. I am so grateful to be alive, and have a good prognosis, but it's a little sad too. I wish this NYE was just a holiday, just our second married NYE, and not the start of a new string of events marked by survival time.

I don't know, maybe I will get used to all this and in a few years I will be living not surviving.

This post sounds a lot gloomier than I meant it. In a few hours I will pack my semi-radiated breast up into my new dress, put on my feathered headband and false lashes and go have a great nite.

But it's hard to explain to the cancer-free how everything feels different.

lovemyfamilysomuch

You did a great job of explaining how it does feel.  Congratulations on making it through the first year!!  It put a smile on my face thinking of you all dolled up and ready to enjoy!  Go for it sister, and Happy New Year!! In sisterhood, xo