emotional eating

PiscesMoon

i've never had a 'normal relationship' with food.  all of my life it's been dieting and obsessing with food.  i've even gone so far as to binge/purge/starve at times.  the past couple of years has been so much better, with binging/purging episodes far and few between.  i've lost a lot of weight (needed, as i was morbidly obese and am still considered 'obese').  cleaned up my eating in a major way.  and have dealt with most of my emotional ties with food.  however, since being diagnosed, i can tell you that i've gone back to the good old friend of mine - food.  it's not nearly as bad as before but i find myself eating when i am not hungry - something i worked so so hard on and is still a daily battle.  on other days i find myself eating maybe once a day - and not much.  what i thought i have conquered has actually just been 'asleep' i suppose.

anyone out there relate?

~M

GryffinSong

I can certainly relate to food as comfort. Since my diagnosis I waver between wanting to eat healthy to keep further cancers away, and eating because "I deserve it after all I've been through." Stess eating. I know I'm doing it, but haven't stopped.

I wish you luck in getting back on a healthier food track ... I'm with you in spirit!!

pabbie

Yes, I can relate. Thanks for posting this. I've been letting myself eat whatever I want since my BC dx.

I was soooo good for 10 years after my colo-rectal cancer; (calorie-counting, Weight Watchers, etc.) actually to more of a regime. I was working full-time and needed to regulate my food and water intake to be able to sustain an 8 hr day of work. But when I got the BC, I just let myself go crazy with whatever I wanted to eat. I'm a little better now but still not back on track. Depression (in my case) doesn't help either w/ unhealthy eating-(I crave alot of carbs). I have hope one day I'll find the strength to move forward in exercise and healthy eating.