Ugh...I'm going CRAZZZYYY!

kristie78

 Okay, I'm on the edge and I think I'm being a bit silly. Here's a bit of my history: 2 years ago I had what turned out to be a B9 lump removed from my right breast and some of the nipple all came back B9. I was supposed to start yearly mammograms but alas I didn't for whatever reason, that I cannot remember today. My surgeon also wanted me to have the BRAC thing done but I never went through with that either. Again, for reasons I no longer remember.

 For the past few months I have noticed a dimple/dent about on my left breast (when I raise my arm it becomes very obvious) about 2 inches above the nipple. I ignored because honestly I was unsure if I was actually seeing anything since I didn't feel a lump at all. I showed it to my boyfriend numerous times, he would say he didn't see anything and he didn't feel any lumps either.

Well, Wednesday I really saw it after getting out of the shower it was really noticable when I was putting my hair up in the towel. So, I called my mother over to look at it (poor woman!) She came over and did see it, I made her point it out to my boyfriend (poor guy, I think he was mortified!) but he now does see it.

It looks like someone imprinted their thumb in the boob. So, I called the doctor's office on Wed. guess what? They are closed for the holiday weekend!! So, now I have to wait until Tuesday to get just an appointment.

I'm freaking out big time, my stomach is in knots, I feel so wound up and anxious. I cannot sleep, on the verge of tears since I let this go on for months. I feel like I'm over reacting a bit since I haven't even seen a doctor but I have this horrible feeling in the pit of my stomach.

What can I do to deal with this? My boyfriend isn't much help, he is just saying it's nothing or not to carried away until I see the doc, I'm being silly! Yes, he said I was being silly.

I just feel lost and so scared.......

Thanks for reading.....

Mouser

Hi Kristie --

Hang in there! Tuesday will come,  you can push for a quick appointment, and the odds are it won't be anything. Still -- go for those mammograms etc!! One scare is enough!

And if it is something -- it's not the end either. Just look at all of us here: we're still kicking.

hugs!