Starting Chemo October 2009

MarieK

Princess JoJo - so glad you are feeling better.  I think we all deserve to have a little crying time once in a while.  This is really hard to go through and most of the time we can try to carry on with our lives and try be "normal" but when in the spotlight there is no hiding from it is there? 

valeriekd

Good Morning sisters of the pre-christmas breakdowns!

I had one myself yesterday - I overheard my 15 yr old saying 2 a friend that we had not gotten up all our decorations and it was only 3 days before Christmas (This while lolling on the phone-me vacuuming). I got pissed off and started to cry - she hung up and hugged me and apologized but last Christmas I was in the hospital for 5 days w/ a nasty concussion and now this and I felt so useless and weak. I swear to God Martha Stewart was on TV canning glazed pecans. Anyway, we both decided it was a good tension release also the first time in her life she has ever comforted me (in a big way like this) - weird.

Anyway, I guess this is life and have to slow down when necessary and break down when it happens. Love to you all - be well-Valerie 

txstardust

Val - gotta love those teenagers, really!  That was sweet of her, though, to give you cuddles.  And can I say Martha Stewart is a freak?  You should not watch her at the holidays!

Scoobydoo

Good morning Ladies.

Wow I have been away for a couple of days and the posts have piled up.  I am feeling much better as I just had the common cold.  Still have a little cough but other than that feel great.  I guess we will try to make it to DC to see the National Tree and have dinner.  We do this every year and I am trying not to cut out everything just because I have BC.  I started to neurontin for neuropathy and I already feel a difference.  I wish my onc would have suggested this drug sooner.  My next and last tx (YAY!!!!!)  sis on Monday 12/28.  My mom is flying in on 12/20 to help while I am going through painful SEs from taxol. 

MarieK- I would put a cotton ball and bandage on the injection site for only a few minutes.  You shouldn't keep it on longer than that.  You only need it on the site til the blood naturally clots which is a few minutes.  Hopefully you won't have anymore spots.  I hated receiving the shots.  My husband was the one giving them to me and actually he became quite good at it. 

Suz- thank you so much for responding to my pm regarding neurontin.  I have started taking it and so far so good.  I am feeling much better and am grateful it didnt turn into something that would cause hospitalization.  Thanks for your well wishes.

Valerie- our children are having to gain maturity to deal with us having BC.  I see a new level of maturity in my 15 yo.  That is so wonderful that you daughter comforted you.  It will be a memory that will last forever and forge a closer bond between both of you.

Anita

jeanl151

Hi girls,

  I hope everyone enjoys these days before the holiday. We need to find a way to relax rather than focus and stress on what we did other years.

   Val- I had similar situation with my daughter (22 years old).  She decided to make our traditional Christmas candy. First batch did not come out right so on round two when I asked questions to help not repeat batch one mistake. The conversation turned defensive on both our parts and yelling. It ended with apologetic tears and hugging. We were both wrong.....again it is the stress over the changes happening in the family as we all deal with the treating of BC.

   I know our families will be at a new, more mature level when this is over and Moms are healthy again........we will get there.....I so look forward to summer, warmth and a healthy body!!

 love to all,  Jean 

MarieK

Hello Ladies!

 OMG!  The most embarassing thing happened to me today - you will not believe this!

Today I popped over to Walmart to pick up a few last minute gifts.  I went early and the store was pretty empty - our Walmart is open at 7am and I was there just after 8.

I was reaching down to pick something up in the toy aisle and before I could do anything my foob rolled out and plopped on the floor!

I quickly snatched it up and stuffed it back in my shirt.  Then it occurred to me that someone watching might think that I was shoplifting and if I was caught on camera I might be asked to see what was in my shirt.

Thank goodness no one was in this particular aisle with me and no one approached me. I didn't really know what to do so I just carried on with my shopping like nothing happened.

But when I passed a mirror I could see that my face was very red and my heart was racing until I left the store.

I've had dreams about my wig blowing off before but never thought my foob would roll out in public!

I only wear one foob on my left side and it looks like a flesh coloured bag of silicone with a nipple - I'm sure people would think I was really weird if they actually saw what fell out of my top!

For a full visual here is what it looks like:

http://cgi.ebay.ca/Size-4-Silicone-Mastectomy-Breast-Forms-Insert-4F_W0QQitemZ330388306352QQcmdZViewItemQQptZUS_CSA_WC_Intimates?hash=item4cecad79b0

Now that it's over I just have to laugh about it and keep thinking that one day this will all be over and I won't have to shove things in my top!

Hugs to all,

Marie

unklezwifeonty

Dear Marie,

I can't even begin to imagine what the store security personnel would say when they see that video. "Alert women stealing foobs?" Funny after the fact although I am sure you must have been scared when it happened.

CAtharsis

5th treatment yesterday - only one more to go.

 You gals have been posting alot:will get back to get on track and give update.

JustmeAlicia

Oh Marie ~ funny yet not funny at the same time.  Glad you recovered your foob and went unnoticed.  I too worry about my wig blowing off.  THAT would not be a pretty sight !  Nice foobie and I looked at it on the link you posted.    2010 has got to BE a better year for us girls .

Catharsis ~ hope you get some rest and feel better soon.  1 more to go... woo HOO then time to celebrate !

Valerie ~ like SHELBY said Martha Stewart is a freak.  I CANNOT even take her monotone voice.  If she wants to brew up something in the kitchen she can get her ass over one of our houses.  In the meantime shut her off.  Sorry about your daughter.  Kids just say the darndest things.  (((HUGS)))

Hope everyone is having a good day as the Holiday ever so rapidly approaches us... Ugh!!!!

Alicia

joanneasiata

MARIE

Carnot stop laughing, oh you poor thing , i Carnot seem to get the picture out  of  my head of your foob falling out and on to the floor your soooo lucky no one was there could you imagine what they would of been thinking and then security pulling you aside lol

VAL

So sweet, it is so nice to have older kids while we are going through all this it is teaching them to be sympathetic and unselfish , i have cried many times on my 2 boys shoulders one is 17 and the other is 14 they are great they give me lots of love, my 17 took me on a date yesterday a restaurant for lunch and then the beach and a coffee for a few hrs, all his shout  it was one of my faviourite days , I'm so lucky ,and my daughters 21 and 20 are around a lot giving me support . 

I'M feeling pretty yucky today , tired and puffy eyes ,my arm the one they put the drip in is sooo sore its been sore for a couple of months now, anyone else have this problem .?

Were not doing anything for Christmas my TX in the day before so ours will be on the 3 rd of Jan instead ,all the family will come over and good friends as well lots of food, Sam will cook the turkey and the ham and we will have prawns and everyone else brings salads and deserts, Carnot wait, plus everything will be half the price yeh for tight ass jojo love a bargain!!

Stay well lovely ladies big hugs to you

PRINCESS JOJO

ps soon to be jojo just

MarieK

JoJo I use my PICC line for my infusions (since TX #2) but the vein they used for my first infusion is hard as rock and aches from time to time.  I have been told that this could take months to heal.  My friend who went through all this 3 years ago still has funny lines in her arm from her infusions.  She tells me that they don't hurt anymore but you can see lines in her arms like rivelets or like ripples in the sand left on the beach from waves - very odd looking indeed!

I have a question about another SE - dryness.  I wake up in the night sweating but my eyes are dry and practically sealed shut and my throat is so dry I cough. I have to keep water by the bedside and sometimes I get up and rinse with Biotene which seems to help.

Anyone else experiencing this?

Regarding the foobie incident - I posted the link to my foob because to see it you might understand that it is kind of heavy and squishy and when it fell out it PLOPPED on the floor and made a slap noise and landed nipple up (yes I did wash it with antibacterial soap when I got home and wiped myself with a antibacterial wipe!).

Onty the thought did cross my mind that I might have been "caught" on camera and I'll just die of embarassment if it ever shows up on YouTube!!! 

ScoobyDoo - thanks for the tip about the cotton ball and tape.  I'm going to do that this next time round (only for bleeders) and see if that makes a difference.  I did experiment with a bandaid on my finger (wore if for a day) and the adhesive did not leave any irritation so now I'm not sure what is leaving the marks.

Well ladies my hubby is cooking short ribs for dinner tonight and I should go set the table and contribute a little!

Good night All!

Marie

suz45

HUGS!

Happy Holidays My Friends.......

I know its hard for everyone... Sigh this is my second time going through this at Christmas (Dec 07 was my last group) but....  Im trying to focus on the small pleasures. I have no family really close to me besides dh & ds. So we will have a small dinner Christmas day. Im not interested in gifts normally... and expecially this year (I but whatever I want year round). My guys feel the same way and are respecting this..... it means a lot to me as I was always the one that made "Christmas" a big deal even though it wasnt nesessary.

We have gotten our tree from the same place 20 years. Lol... the tree farm has a bonfire going with hotdogs and hot apple cider. I have been known to spend 3 -4 hours there picking out my tree. Well I was a little late this year, but still found the perfect noble pine tree... much bigger than normal but beautiful. It took me 3 days to decorate....my favorite thing!!

But its done now, .... I dont care that my house is in a mode of chaos, yes I too am embarassed to let anyone beyond the front door as there are bins of stuff, piles of paper and laundry baskets everywhere... yes the dishes are in the kitchen.. but not done and when was the last time anything was truley scrubbed. I have slept in my favorite chair for months, so my blanket is there too. Does it matter... really. I dont think so as the only thing that honestly matters to me is that my guys are happy... and they feel even stronger that Im happy.....  So thats my Christmas, no gifts just a dinner with my two guys and lots of phone calls later to out of town family. And maybe a visit late on next week.

Merry Christmas Love Suz

txstardust

Suz, what a cool place to get your tree!  And you've got a great approach to the holidays this year.  Isn't the most important thing spending time with the people you love?  I'm glad your guys are being so sweet about it all.  And I also have dishes in the sink, haven't vacuumed in a few weeks, papers are taking over my coffee table and kitchen, but I have to remind myself that my family is what is important, and I'm so happy with my new hubby and my wonderful children.  Keep your chin up!

Marie, how scary that must have been for you!  At the time, mortifying, but later, you've just got to laugh (or else you'll cry!).  As far as the adhesive rxn goes - you might not have a rxn on your finger because that skin may not be as sensitive as where you are getting the shot.  And the dryness, I have noticed that my skin is VERY dry, I'm applying lotion all the time to my hands and face, and my mouth is dry as well.  My dentist said we have to be super vigilant about brushing because the dry mouth can cause cavities since the saliva isn't helping keep your mouth clean.  AND I'm jealous that you had short ribs!!!

Still Princess JOJO - how wonderful that your family is re-creating the holidays for you!  We did the same at Thanksgiving as my tx was the night before.  And prawns...oh, you are speaking my language!  I love turkey, too - we are having a lovely turkey dinner, to which I am contributing corn pudding and cranberry relish.  I just hope I can taste it!

Alicia, I know it's hard to find the holiday spirit - it's eluding me this year too.  I just keep the Christmas music station on in the car and sing along with the kids.  Let's hope that 2010 is the best year yet!

Jean, I'm with you on looking forward to summer!  My DH and I are planning a big celebration in June, a combo wedding reception-type thing (since we didn't really have one) and "thank goodness treatment is over" celebration.  My girls and my best friend and I will also be traveling to Virginia for a beach vacation.  I can't wait!  

Anita, so glad the neurontin is giving you relief!  It's amazing what a little pill can do.  You deserve all the best!

Onty, CAtharsis, Juannelle, Mary, and everyone else...hope you are doing well!

I'm still feeling the fatigue, although not as severe as a couple of days ago.  I went to bed at 6:30 last night!  Ended up waking at 5 a.m. though, so my sleep cycles are a little off.  But it's so hard to stay awake in the evening!  I cooked dinner, which I haven't done in a little while, and everyone appreciated it.  I'm thinking spaghetti is in the works tonight (with jarred sauce, no less!).  And hooray, today is the day my Cleaning For A Reason cleaning crew comes to help with this cluttered, messy house!  I am so grateful for people who are kind and generous with their time and talent for those of us who need it!

Peace to all... 

Hollycan

Well, just thought I'd check in with you all, haven't been on in a while and there are so many posts to catch up on.  Nothing like some steroids to pop me out of bed at 4:30am!  :-)

First of all, Marie, OMG you poor thing regarding your "Walmart accident".  I totally would have reacted the same way (my face always blushes bright red when I am embarassed) so glad you got out of there without a tap on your shoulder from security. Funny to look back on it now I guess, the whole story actually made me giggle a little. Thanks for that! :-)  Regarding dryness and sweating - I have the worst night sweats, I've had to get up and change my pj's and pillow cases as many as 3 times in one night, it's crazy.  Guess it's my body sweating out all the toxins, either that or it's the beginning of "chemopause"...  My mouth and eyes do get a little dry but nothing significant.  During the day my nose runs constantly and the slightest breeze/wind makes my eyes water - go figure.

Anita, I took Neurontin about 6 years ago for some nerve damage I had in my arm.  It took two months to get a surgery date scheduled so they put me on it in the meantime to help with the nerve pain and it worked great.  Glad it is giving you some relief with your neuropathy.

Laura, I never got a chance to say Congrats on your wedding.  Your pictures are lovely and you looked beautiful, thank you for sharing them.  I can only imagine how bad you must be looking forward to your new and improved wedding/reception this summer. Yay!  On another subject,  how do you like the cleaning for a reason crew?  I've been thinking about emailing them to see if I can get a visit...

Princess JOJO (I love the princess part, please don't stop using it), sorry to hear about your meltdown, I have had a few of those myself (well I think all of us have).  Your DH sounds amazing and so supportive, my DH would have done exactly the same thing and I was in tears when I read your post.  You are such a brave and positive person, I know you will get through this.  You have inspired me to go out "topless" too.  I haven't done the grocery store yet, but I have popped into a few lunch places to pick up a sandwich. Baby steps... Got a few stares and smiles but other than that it was pretty mellow.  It's funny when the kids get a look at me, they stare and stare, then the second I look at them they look away - it's kinda cute actually, so curious they are.

Well I have my 4th out of 6th TC tx's this morning - soooo not looking forward to it.  I can already taste the yuckiness in my mouth just thinking about it.  Think I'll fry up a little bacon and eggs, that ought to get rid of it, won't be able to taste anything for 10 days so might as well have a treat (I loooovvveee bacon!).  

Warm hello's to those of you I missed on this post, life is crazy busy with work and the kiddos and the holidays - I can barely wrap my head around it all.  I know I don't post on here very often, but I do read through all of the posts and I take great comfort in knowing that you are all out there and that I can pop in now and again. 

Hugs and warm wishes to each and every one of you and I hope you enjoy the Christmas Holiday.

xoxo

Holly 

Hollycan

Oops Shelby, I accidentally called you Laura in my post...  Chemo Brain!

Hollycan

Hi Again,

Hair check - the sparse amount of hair that I have left on my head keeps growing back in, is this happening to anyone else?  I shaved my head after the first tx, the bulk of it fell out around day 16 so I was left with sparse stubble that resembles a little old bald man's head. Most of the hair on the sides of my head is completely gone but I have to keep shaving the top because it keeps growing back in, it looks awful if I don't.  Eyebrows and eyelashes started falling out in little chunks last week - bummer. I only have to shave my legs and underarms about every 3 weeks, that's nice, and I haven't had to get a bikini wax since the first treatment - very nice!  

Cheers!

Holly 

Hollycan

Hi Again,

Hair check - the sparse amount of hair that I have left on my head keeps growing back in, is this happening to anyone else?  I shaved my head after the first tx, the bulk of it fell out around day 16 so I was left with sparse stubble that resembles a little old bald man's head. Most of the hair on the sides of my head is completely gone but I have to keep shaving the top because it keeps growing back in, it looks awful if I don't.  Eyebrows and eyelashes started falling out in little chunks last week - bummer. I only have to shave my legs and underarms about every 3 weeks, that's nice, and I haven't had to get a bikini wax since the first treatment - very nice!  

Cheers!

Holly 

MarieK

Good Morning All!

Holly - good luck with your tx today!  I like your bacon and eggs attitude!

As for the hair - I never totally shaved my head.  It works for me to have a bit of "velcro" to help keep my wigs on.  Most of the hair on my head is white and about 1/8" long.

BUT I have a few "rogue" BLACK hairs that continue to grow and I am doing nothing about them for now.  My daughter likes to pluck them out when she sees them - they come out easily with just your fingers.

Makes me wonder what colour hair I'll have when it does grow in?

One more note about the foob incident - when I told my husband what happened he said to me "I guess you'll just have to remember to bend with your knees to avoid parts falling off" Then he laughed.  It's so funny because he has a bad back and I'm constantly telling him to bend with HIS knees!

I hope everyone has a good day.  I'm off to a breakfast date with my best friend.

Later...

Marie

micheleboots

Marie, you made me laugh so hard...that sounds like something that would happen to me...I think I might have seen that on the walmart site the shows crazy things you see at walmart...can't remember what it is called..

Well I decided I didn;t need to suffer so I called my ONC and she is prescribing percost for my bone pain....yah...can't wait to get some sleep.

CAtharsis

Marie: The foob incident made me laugh... though I can imagine that when it happened, it was not that funny.

Holly: On the hair, it is the same for me. I shaved the day before my first tx (october 1st) and now, before my 5th tx, I had to shave the hair on the top of my head. On the sides, it seems to want to grow back. Let's wait...

My last week: The day before my 4th tx, I had a blood infection. It occurred again twice last week. It happened that there was a bacteria in my PICC line. The took it out last week while I was having the infection symptoms, being fever, shivering, muscle pain. Through it all, the nurses were trying to put a catheter for antibiotics in IV... after 10 attempts and a couple of hurting veins, it finally got in...

Monday, while receiving 5th tx, there was also an incident. This time, the temporary catheter moved such that a portion of the Taxotere went into my arm! There was swelling but no danger of damaging the tissues. Now, two days later, the swelling almost all resorbed and there is no pain...

Let's get the SE in, bring on the last Taxotere on January 14th and let's get to surgery and rads!!!

Good luck to all of you dealing with SE

and... let,s find a way to enjoy holidays.

Isabelle

Scoobydoo

Michele - Percocet is a God send.  Seriously.  I could not have made it through taxol without it.  I only take one pill every 4 hours and that seems to help.  I am careful that the day when the pain goes away I downgrade to motrin.  But for the first 5 days I am on percocet and no apologies.  It is the only way I could survive taxol.

CAtharsis- sorry to hear of all of your difficulties.  Glad to hear you are almost finished with chemo.  Wow you are a soldier. 

I want to chime in and wish all of you wonderful ladies a very merry Christmas and Happy New Year!  May the New Year 2010 bring happiness, health and many blessings.

Anita

one-L

It sounds like some of you have been very busy and have had a few strange incidents (Marie).  I have been reading all the posts, but either have been gone or not feeling like posting in the past several days.

Yesterday, we went to my granddaughter's adoption. She is 8 months old and my Son and DIL brought her home from the hospital when she was born.  Anyway, she is legal now and it is the best Christmas present we could ever want or ask for.

Anyway the fatigue is still hanging in there and when I get home from work, I am too tired to do anything but read.  I am ready to get this over.  Tomorrow I have TX #4 and it is my last, woohoo.

I will continue to read the post, but the next several days will be busy, busy, busy.

I hope everyone has a great holiday and get everything that you wished for.  (Mine is a cure for BC, but I am not sure that I will get that one)

Hugs to everyone...

Juannelle 

Sido

Thanks everyone for the love after my breakdown.  My sister has actually been wonderful and even encouraged me to go topless at home.  She also bought me an expensive eyelash-growth conditioner to help them to start growing back!  Not that I've lost them all, but they and my eyebrows are definitely thin.  I'm just glad she didin't cry...I don't think I could have taken that.  As far as the wig snafu, I guess that just gives me more cash for after-Christmas shopping in Chicago!

Blessed holidays to my chemo sisters!  Sido

joanneasiata

HI ALL

MARYNY

 IVE EARNT MY SELF ANOTHER SMILEY THANK YOU !!!!!!!!!!!!!

SIDO

So glad your sister is with you now and is encouraging you to be as you are just for now around the house enjoy her and Christmas together, yeah save your money for the sales Ive bought 2 wigs and i don't think i will be wearing them, its to hot over here which makes it easier.

JUANELLE

congratulations, a big clap from me (I'm jelouse,  ill admit that) . what a special time for your family to be bringing a new member into the family ENJOY

ISABELE

Love that name one of my favorites

I hate it when they are sticking that f~@#$ iv in my arm it hurts so fare Ive been lucky no trouble i felt for you when i read of your trouble f!@#$% nurse.

MICHELLE

YES go the drugs yeh I'm glad you've got some relief enjoy some sanity .

HOLLY

Thanks for the sweet words , Ive had to shave twice a few hairs just want to keep growing i just think it is our strong side  the fighter,Its good to hear of women who dont want to play wonder women good on you enjoy the way you want to do Christmas it sounds like mine, its all about family

Well yep number 4 is down 2 more to go i didn't take in anything that i had baked i just didn't want to and i didn't even want to be friendly  either, i just hate going in there the smell, the chairs ,the needles the way it makes me feel after i HATE FEC I know things could be worse but i want it all to go away. well my winge have a great Christmas girls

for now I'm JOJO JUST

THE princess will return  soon mwa

lainieo

Hi Girls,

Wishing everyone a very happy holdiay, and not many SE"s

The holdiays seemed to creep up on me very quickly. We are just going to take it easy this season. My daughter arrives this afternoon and my son tomorrow night. I am thankful to have my family here. I anm going to try very hard not to break down when I see my son. He hasn't been home to visit since July and  my diagnosis because he lives so far away and his job.  My eyes are tearing now just thinking about our reunion. The kids will be home until Jan 4th.  They will be around for chemo #4 on NEw Years Eve.Talk about strong cocktails! I get a mixture of all 3 tac. I usually invite my in-laws to visit, but this year we are just going to be us. For once in my life I did what was best for me, which is not my nature.I am always thinking of others and doing for them.

Juanelle  Congratulations!  That is very exciting news and a great holiday gift!

Sido  I am glad that your sister is there and you have her support. My sister has been wonderful through this whole ordeal.

Marie you have such a great attitude. Thanks for sharing that story.  You managed to keep a good sense of humor throughout the incident.

JoJo you will always be Princess JOJO. Feel better.

Well my DH and I are off to the grocery store. Our schools have been closed all week due to the snow so I had a wonderful Christmas gift of 3 extra days off for our holdiay break.

 Peace

RaiderDee

Merry Christmas to all of my chemo sisters!  Getting ready for my 4th and final AC this morning. (then on to 4 Txt) I'll be glad to be done with the red devil.  I finally get a 4 day weekend.   I'm looking forward to it since I've been  working 6 days a week since I started chemo.  The best part is that I will feel well enough tomorrow to enjoy Christmas dinner with my friends and family.  I won't start crashing til Saturday.  I hope everyone has a joyous holiday and few SE's.  I will be thinking of all of you. I consider your love and support to be part of the miracle of Christmas.  Be well.

Dee    

Enjoyful

One-L - Congratulations on the "new" granddaughter AND finishing chemo!  A great Christmas gift!  By the way, my brilliant brother has promised me a cure for breast cancer within 5 years and he's never wrong.  :-)

Marie - I was horrified at your story but then got the giggles (SORRY!).  I immediately thought of YouTube, too, but in my head it was "YouFoob," 

Lainie - Sounds like you've set up a great plan for the holidays.  I've tried to simplify this year, too, and not do everything in the world (even though it's hard NOT to!).  Enjoy enjoy!

PRINCESS (forever!) JoJo - Hang in there.  It's hard not to run screaming from the dr's office when they get the needle and hang the bags.  I think the fact that we actually go back to the dr's after the first treatment is a testament to our bravery (or insanity!!). 

Dee - Congrats on finishing up with AC!  That's one nasty cocktail, and I'm amazed you were able to work 6 days a week through it! 

Happy side-effect-free holidays to everyone!  You guys are awesome!

E

txstardust

Wonderful holiday wishes to all my sisters!  And to those of you having tx today, I hope all goes well.

Love to everyone!

Peace,

Shelby 

micheleboots

I just want to wish my fellow cancer sisters a wonderful Christmas. 

I don't have my usual energy today...I took the percoset last night and slept not bad, but started to vomit this morning...perhaps I took to much..now I am scared to take it again...but good news is that bone pain is getting better..I think.

I am thinking of you all and wish I could write more to each of you, but you are in my thoughts..

one-L

MaryNY,  I am finished with TX #4 and I mean finished.  It is such a relief.  I have scaled down for Christmas this year also.  We are going to my DS's home in Austin and all I have to take are snacks.  Can't beat that.  We are also getting snow in Texas, can you believe that.  It is not sticking to the ground, because it was 76 yesterday, but we never get snow at Christmas.  The wind is blowing about 40 miles an hour so the snow is horizontal and it looks pretty funny.

Wishing all my Chemo Sisters a very Merry Christmas and I will be thinking of all of you tomorrow.  May next year be the best year ever, we will finish all treatment and never have to worry about this monster again.

Juannelle