my mom

swoosh7

about a week before my eighteens birthday(July 24th)  my mom was diagnosed with breast cancer, it has been a rough few weeks but i have finally stopped crying and i am trying to believe what she keeps saying "this will make are family stronger, god made this happen for a reason, everything will be okay, be strong for me.." i have been strong i believe. i avoid crying infront of her, but i have so many questions i want to ask but im scared, i try to avoid the topic because i dont want to cry infront of her and i dont want to see her sad. I want to talk to someone, but i am scared to ask... im scared she will think im going back to my old ways ( about three years ago i was anorexic, its been about  2 years since i actually talked to someone) i just want someone to vent to, but so far i have no one to vent to, i have no one to ask questions to and that why i want to talk to someone (counslor) but i dont know how to bring it up to her.... im lost and confused.