Stress and depression are starting to set in :(

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Niknak0320
Niknak0320 Member Posts: 138
edited June 2014 in Young With Breast Cancer

I have been feeling BLAH for a few days now.  The reality of my life is starting to set in and it's depressing.  I've been trying to fight back the feelings but stress is making it hard too.  For once in my life I am ok with time passing by quickly (so I can put this behind me finally) but with that also comes the realization that I still have decisions to make (whether or not to do radiation), bills to pay (even with insurance these bills are kicking my ass!) and the uncertainty of my future health (I'm having a hard time thinking that I'll never be able to be pregnant again).

Is anyone else having a hard time concentrating on life in general?  Thankfully my kids are trying to keep me busy.  My 4yo starts football tonight and my 9yo will be starting soccer again in a few weeks.

Sorry to be such a downer...I know this is no time to feel sorry for myself.  I hope I can snap out of it soon!

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  • baywatcher
    baywatcher Member Posts: 532
    edited August 2009

    Hi Niknak-

    I am sorry that you are feeling low but I believe that this is very normal. My surgery was 10 months ago and I feel like I am just starting to come out of my depression. You are not even 3 months out yet. Of course you are going to be depressed!! Give yourself a break. This breast cancer thing sucks big time.

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  • lexislove
    lexislove Member Posts: 2,645
    edited August 2009

    I'm not sure where you are with your treatment, but there where a couple oof phases where I found myself more weepy thhan others. When I finished radiation..that was the hardest. I was lost.Just lost.I felt like a little girl just going to school for the first time.I was unsure and uneasy.And of course..the old "omg...what if it comes back? Did I do everything? Is there anything else thhat needed to be done?"

    It comes..but goes. I just kept busy with my 3 year old. Parks,pre school,mom duties,house duties ect...doing all these things made me feel normal.I did however have to tak an antidepressant though. I took it for 6 months just to get off the edge of finishing treatment ect. Im now better. It will be 2 years for me next month.

    I get you..completely. If you need to talk or vent you can pm me

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  • Lauren3
    Lauren3 Member Posts: 289
    edited August 2009

    I can completely relate.  All that really matters to me is that I get and stay healthy for the one amazing child I have - but - I find myself thinking about the fact that I will never be pregnant again ALL the time.  Chin up girls! 

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  • lexislove
    lexislove Member Posts: 2,645
    edited August 2009

    Lauren,

    I fought with the whole" won't ever have another child" issue as well. But then I started to think that I had to be here for THE child that I already have. Having a BC that is ER+ is just too risky,IMHO, to have another child. If I have to yank my ovaries ...so be it.

    I feel blessed thhat I had a child before BC.My heart aches for all the young woman who will never have a biolgical child. Thank god..there are options though like adoption or suregot mothers.

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