In memory of my dearest dad

nowheregirl

                     

Thanks to all those who have sent me condolences. As some of you know, my dad passed away this past Friday at 6:32am where I live which makes it Thursday night in the U.S. at the age of 84. He had been admitted to the hospital on the 5th of May and dx'd with colon cancer. He had fell into the critital condition and we had been told that he would not make it another day. Well he did make it. He was such a fighter (that's where my "zillaness" came from) and had been improving to the point where the doctors had eaten their words and been made to believe that he might make it another couple of years. However he left us behind without even giving us the time to say good-bye. This is what I posted on my Facebook and thought I would share with my friends here. This is my tribute to my dearest Daddy.

                      

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Daddy, you went so quickly. You had finally started eating normal food instead of the fluid on the very night before you left. You had even gone for a short walk in a wheel chair on that day and been looking forward to starting rehab to be able to walk and go home. Only an hour before you were gone, you even talked to the nurse who came to check in on you and you even joked around. Who could have thought that it was going to be the very last time people would see you alive? I am sure that you still don't know why you had to go so I will let you know. Daddy, you really were recovering, recovering to the point where the doctors had eaten their words and told us that you might make it to another couple of years. No doubt about that. So rest assured that you did NOT lose the battle against cancer. Apparently you had developed a blood clot while bedridden in the hospital for the past few months and it caused a sudden heart attack. It was so sudden and you had to leave us at 6:32am on the 24th July before you even knew what was going on. You weren't even given the time to say the last good-bye to us as none of us was able to make it in time. This really sucks but at least you didn't have to suffer and was able to go peacefully without pain. And daddy, don't you think that it must have been NOT like "the last good-bye" but like a "later gator" with that joking look on our faces because that was just the way we had always been?
                 
Daddy, believe it or not, I had always been a huge daddy girl. You never knew that because there was a looooooong period when we were literally a dysfunctional family. We kept giving each other so much grief and sorrow, and I ended up leaving home and starting my life by myself at the age of 19. But as the time went by, we managed to put it in the past and retrieved our relationship back. For the past 15 years or so, we have done all sort of silly things together and shared laughter. Even after you became a little demented, you always cared for me and greeted me with that big smile on your face every time I came to see you, which I will always treasure for the rest of my life.
                           
Damn this really hurts. Daddy, this really does. But I know what you loved the most about me so I will try my best to not cry anymore. You loved joking around with me and we would always try to crack up each other with our silly sense of humor. Daddy, I still do think that I have a better sense of humor than you did. Yours sucked big time I'm telling ya!!! You better brush it up before I join you in Heaven. Daddy, it's just that we can't physically see each other for a while but nothing is going to stop us from being a good pair, right? I ain't say good-bye. I ain't tell you to rest in peace either because that's just not what you would do. Instead, I will tell you to enjoy playing with our beloved doggy Riki till I join you. So, later gator my world silliest Daddy. I love you to bits. 
                                        
Yours always,
Foo (that's how you had always called me!)

                  

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Hugs,

Fumi

AnnNYC

Fumi, you know I've already said how sorry I am -- now I want to say thank you for posting this beautiful glimpse of your dad, including your vivid portrait in words...

Thinking of you,

Ann

hollyann

Fumi I just found out about your dad.....I am so sorry to hear this sad news.......My sincere comdolences go out to you and your sweet family......Thank you for sharing a glimpse of your daddy with us.....I am sorry I never met him.......He seems to me to be a truly wonderful daddy......I never knew mine...He passed when I was an infant.......I must say your daddy was very handsome too!......You have such an eloquent way with words, Fumi.....Your daddy would be very proud.......

swimangel72

Fumi - my heart's broken for you! I'm so sorry about your dad and more that you didn't get to say goodbye to him. I love his photo - what a great hat he's wearing! He looks very vibrant and smart in this picture! I was also a "daddy's girl" - my dad passed just 8 months before my wedding when he was only 60 - he had brain cancer, but like you, I know he's just waiting in heaven for all of us - he's like our family's guardian angel, watching over his 8 kids and 16 grandkids for the past 25 years. Anyway Fumi - I just wanted to send you an angel-hug - and a prayer to help you get through this painful time.

lexislove

Fumi, sorry for you and your family's loss.

Such a great photo of you dad...nice to see.

Leah_S

Sending condolences to you and your family. I'm glad yu have good memories to restore your smile.

Leah

abbadoodles

Fumi, I am sorry for your loss. Blessings to you all.

lexi4

Dear Fumi,

Sending you big hugs and prayers for healing to your sweet heart.

Thanks for sharing your thoughts about your dear daddy and the picture of him. Until you meet again...

Love,

Lexi

LavenderNLace

Fumi

I'm so sorry to read about your dad.  What a wonderful tribute you have posted for him. 

Hugs

Lavender

dreamwriter

I'm sorry that you are in pain.  You were blessed to have that time with him.  And you will be blessed again.  So you better brush up on your sense of humour cause he will have experts up there.... can you compete with the worlds best funny actors?  He is probably getting tutored right now.  Catch up if you can.

Deb-from-Ohio

I'm also sorry for your pain...I lost my Daddy 2 years ago this November to liver cancer. He didn't fight it, didn't want to. Him and Mom were married for 50 yrs, she passed away 10 yrs ago, he told me he missed her and wanted to be with her, he was so lonely...so that thought, that they're together makes me feel better. So imagine your Dad  up there with all the family members he has missed along the way..and keep his love in your heart, that's where it has always been anyway right?

AND watch out..my Dad liked to pull jokes too..3 times now our doorbell has rung, once as soon as I came home from my lumpectomy, no one was there, period...it was pouring down rain that day, so there were no kids out, there was no one...I told my hubby it was my Dad....

Hugs and prayers to you hon!

coonie

I'm so sorry for the loss of your Dad. I know he was very special to you.

(((((((((((((gentle hugs))))))))))))

Jayne_in_UK

Fumi condolences to you and your family for the loss of your Dad. I'm so sorry to hear about this. Thank you for sharing your tribute and the photo of him. Hugs.

celia088

Fumi,

I am so sorry to hear of the passing of your beloved father.  Your relationship with him sounded like it went through some twists and turns, but you both became closer with each other.  He will always be with you in your heart and your memories. My condolences to your whole family.

I have listed your father in the Relatives and Friends section of the List of Angels memorial thread.

hugs, celia

Marple

I'm at a loss for words..........what a truly heartfelt tribute to your Dad! 

My deepest sympathy..........

iodine

My heart truly goes out to you.  Moms are very special, but Daddy's little girl is an amazing thing to be a part of.

Isabella4

Fumi....I really feel for you..your Daddy looked so fine, you will miss him so much.

Look after yourself.

Isabella.

AnneW

Fumi, dear one, this is such a tremendous loss for you. Cherish the time you had together. Let his "zillaness" roar through you. The person you are is a lasting tribute to him.

Hugs,

Anne

OneBadBoob

Fumi, my deepest condolences on the loss of your father. 

As AnneW wrote, let his "zillaness" roar through you, and indeed, remember you are who you are because of him. 

Warm cyber hugs and understanding of the pain of losing a father. 

jancie

Fumi - I am so very sorry.

lvtwoqlt

Fumi, If I haven't said so I am so sorry for your loss. My husband lost his father 2 yrs ago to liver cancer and he didn't get a chance to say goodby either. Just remember this, he will always live in your heart.

Sheila

Estepp

Fumi.. Great letter to your daddy............ wondeful!

I am sorry for this pain you feel.. I am a daddy's girl too...

althea

Fumi, I am so sorry for your loss.  It's especially hard when it's unexpected.  Your tribute is eloquent as you always are.  Thank you for sharing your memories with us.