Delayed reaction to DX & TX?

ibot

  Hi everyone. I just can't get it together. I'm angry all the time. Things that were minor before I blow up about now. I had left mast April 30 this year. 2 months bettween bad mammo and

mast. I went back to a stressful and physically demanding job 3 weeks after surg. I thought I was fine. I'm just angry at the world. Is this a normal reaction? How do I cope with this? I don't want to feel this way,  Thank you for any advice you can give.

yellowrose

When I was having anger and sadness a wise friend told me that a cancer diagnosis can come with a form of PTSD.  It took awhile to work through it but with the support of my good friend, my DH and several folks here at bc.org, I am doing much better.  Still have moments, like when I lost my friend earlier this year to the beast but many more good days than bad.

You are recognizing that you are angry.  You desire to overcome it.  Those are important steps in the healing process.  Time will help but if you need to talk and coming to the boards aren't enough, consider reaching out to a local support group or talk to your social worker.

I will lift you in prayer. 

ibot

Thank you Rose. I'm crying so hard I can hardly type. I always thought I was stronger than this. I should be happy that I didn't have chemo, rads, etc, but I'm still a basket case. Any prayers would be greatly appreciated. Thank you again.

Anonymous

Tobikeyes, sorry to meet you in this forum but happy you found it as you will be among so many wonderful ladies that have been just where you are and will help you through.

What you are feeling is totally normal and as Yellowrose said you will work through it.  It's not easy and you will have mood swings that you will want to control but can't.  That, too, is normal.  It is okay to be angry, to cry, rant, complain, scream, whatever.  Yes, we all thought we were stronger because we are so used to being superwomen and fixing everything for everyone else.  Now, I mean right now, it's time to take care of yourself.  Be selfish and put yourself first as you get through this.  Time will help.

Please visit these board often, especially when you need a shoulder or a hug as it is readily available at a moments notice.  You will find people on these threads who understand in a way no one else who has not gone through this can.

You can do it.

Dear Lord I lift up Tobikeyes to you at this time and in the days, weeks and months to follow.  Please give her the strength to withstand and let her know that you are there with outstretched arms that she can enter into at any time.  This road is not easy Lord but we know with your grace and mercy Tobikeyes will find the courage to go on.  Bless also the sisters here at bco who will gather around to offer support and prayers for Tobikeyes so that she will know she is not alone in this.  I ask this in the precious name of our savior, Jesus Christ, Amen.

yellowrose

You are stronger than you think.  Sending you a {{{hug}}} to go with the prayer. 

    

ibot

I just hate this!!!  My armpit all the way to my collerbone is tender, hard as a rock, feels like razor burn all the time. I don't know if wearing my form makes me more or less self concious. This whole thing just sucks!!!!! Stupid people and the ever popular " oh, you're lucky,you only lost a breast." Yeah, lucky. Even the Dr. "you're cured. Go back to your life. It's fine now"  NO, IT IS NOT FINE!!!!  How about someone tells him,  Oh , we'll just take the boys and everything will be fine. How ya gonna feel about that! O.K. feel better now after small rant. Probably not the last one. Thanks