Here I go again

jmar19

Hi all,

 I went through breast cancer about 3 years ago at the age of 28.  I had to have a mastectomy, chemotherapy, and radiation.  I was doing good and have been on tomoxifen and then had an elective mastectomy and double reconstruction about a year ago.  I was suppose to have the second stage of my reconstruction last Friday, but they had to cancel the surgery.  They did some tests and found that the cancer is back, but this time they found some around my lungs, in my liver, and my bones.  I really don't want to have to go through chemo again.  I'm seeing my oncologist tomorrow to discuss the plan for treatment, but I'm sure that is what he's going to suggest.  I still want to have my surgery and I am currently out of work, but because I didn't actually have my surgery, I don't think my short-term disability will kick in.  I thought I was doing really well and wouldn't have to deal with this again.  My situation is very different this time.  I now work 2 jobs and I went back to college again.  I don't know how I'm going to handle all this and go through treatment.  The downfall is one of my job's is perdium, so if I don't work I don't get paid.  My other job is only 30 hours a week so I need both jobs to survive.  Also, the program I went back to school for is ending so if I don't do it now I will never be able to do it and this is something I have wanted for a long, long time.  I know I can't really make any decisions until I see my doctor tomorrow, but these are all the things that are rushing through my head since Thursday.  I am also really disappointed that I didn't have my surgery.  I have a tissue expander in one side and it's been in there for over a year and it's very annoying.  I am very frustrated and annoyed.  UHG!!!

Jen

TenderIsOurMight

So very sorry to read your words, Jen. Just wish you to know I will keep you close in my heart during these trying times. May your doctors listen closely to your desires, and be open minded of your needs. May you feel supported as you go through your testing and consultations.

 

Tender 

Deb-from-Ohio

I'm so sorry Jen to hear this..........I hate this disease........I will keep you in my prayers hon

Hugs and Prayers

Deb

sansoa

i will keep you in my prayer be strong jen... god is always thiere

YATCOMW

Jen....

Just checking in with you and wondering how you are doing?  Hope you and your onc have built a plan to kick this cancer to the curb.

Let us know how you are doing and know that we are thinking of you.

Jacqueline