Need some help - struggling in my Walk

DianaT

Need some help - struggling in my Walk

DianaT

I KNOW God is a healer, I KNOW he KNOWS my thoughts, but I feel so incredibly scared and sad lately.  I feel as if I am letting Him down and that my belief is weak.  At church today, it was as if the pastor spoke directly to me, telling me to not fear, to believe that God will answer my prayers and I just cried because I knew it, I felt it.  Then I am at the store and I start to get all worked up and feel a panic attack coming on.  I calmed myself down and prayed (yep ~ right in the middle of Walmart) took a Xanax and now I am so upset with myself.  I need some support but I don't want to be a blubbering mess talking to my pastor.  Would you all continue to pray for me? Not only for healing but in my walk with Christ?

kbugmom

Diana I understand. I have mets and I know God does heal. In his time. I get overwhelmed out of the blue at times. We all struggle in our walk for we are human. You recieved a blessing at church today and that is wonderful. I wil pray for you. Try not to be so hard on yourself we all have those days and moments of frustration. Keep standing on his word. God bless you.

swimangel72

Diana - I'm praying for you - here are the words to a song that I sing as a prayer, I hope it helps you.

When you walk through a storm
Hold your head up high
And don't be afraid of the dark
At the end of a storm is a golden sky
And the sweet silver song of a lark

Walk on through the wind
Walk on through the rain
Tho' your dreams
Be tossed and blown

Walk on..
Walk on..
With hope in your heart
And you'll never walk alone
You'll never walk alone

2Hands4me

DianaT - How are you doing now? This is a time of many emotions! I did fine with the decisions and information (probably took the intellectual approach - but also tried to make sure that I was truly in touch with my real feelings)! Then 2 weeks after surgery when I was so-o-o-o tired and couldn't get things done, it was harder to rely on God's ever-present help. He wants us to be close to Him and have a personal relationship. He also knows we are human and have weaknesses. Sometimes when we don't understand, He wants us to just trust Him. Here's the path.....walk in it with Me. He has promised to be with us, and He always keeps His Promises. We'll continue to pray. I think it helps to know how to pray specifically - "Please be with _____" is OK, but with specific prayers, we can see specific answers! May God be with you in a special, close way today!

EWB

You are in my prayers, in my heart! I had such a hard time about a month ago...very much the same, lots of crying. As I prayed and let my self cry, where ever I was, whatever I was doing...it was such a healing thing, as if a lot of the past 2 yrs was trying to get out, be acknowledged and put to bed.

I pray you find a quiet, peaceful healing place, where all the noise and crazy stuff from the outside world quiets down and you are able to be alone with God/Christ and feel the strength, calm, comfort, healing warmth down into your bones, into your soul and into your heart. Let go of the fears and worries, let the light and healing in. One day at a time.

In his name I pray...Elaine

kiara

Diane, I know you will be okay.

Let go and Let God.  I have witness many many miracles in my life.  I am 56 years young.

And believe me the best thing that can happen to you is your faith.  If you have faith, there is nothing imposible and your life will be perfect in spite of all.

Each day is a new beginning, love it and cherish it.

Life is good.

Blessings 

spar2

Diane, you are in my prayers.  Kiara is right, everything is possible with faith.  Keep the faith,  God will get you through it.  BC is a long tough journey, one no one wants to take.  I don't know how people do it without faith.  One of my friends that is stage IV and I were talking and decided it was a win win situation.  If she beat the cancer she wins and gets to stay with her family, if the cancer takes her she wins because she will get to go to the home that God has prepared for her.

Dear God,

Please hold Diane is your arms, take away her pain.  Give her peace. Keep her faith strong in you and know that you are right beside her or carrying her this whole journey.  In Jesus name. Amen

Garysgirl

Diana, I, we will all continue to pray for not only your health, but your walk, put your hand in the hand of the Great Physicians, breaking down and becoming a " blubbering mess" with your pastor, might not be such a bad thing. We women see ourselves as the ones who take care of everyone elses problems, and we do, because we are soooo good at it! But this is a time when we need to let other people help us at times. Myself, if it had not been for the Lord and my fantastic husband, I don't know what I would have done.

DianaT

You ladies are fantastic.  I have been feeling better and better.I have my moments of blubbering, but overall I know that my time here is blessed surrounded by family and friends. I am feeling well, working, enjoying my children, friends and life. In all of this I find humor in getting upset about the little things in life.  I went to a funeral service for a coworker who passed from pancreatic cancer on Friday.  That was rough, but I felt at peace too.  Weird to explain and think about, but I believe that I will have many, many more years with my beautiful family.  Thank you for your continued support and prayers.

rferraris

Diana,

When I get in one of "those moods" I like to go back and read Exedus.  Reading about how God lead Moses through the wilderness always seems to help.  

After my diagnosis in 2006 I got on my knees and was too weak to pray.  I could only get out the word help.  Later that day my husband and I had a heart to heart (I'm go thankful for a Godly husband! )  who told me my faith was weak and that it was ok because I still had it even though it was just a little at that point.  That night we went back to church and something happened.  I went to the alter and gave it all to Him.  I now know that God is using this journey in my life and that it is not a detour or road block.  I pray all the time that He will continue to use me to minister to families that have been diagnosed.  He's also given me the courage to do things that I never would have dreamed possible in the last three years.

Prayers are with you!