Tired of not being able to get away from Cancer!!!

Debbi5108

Does anyone else feel like me??? I want to wake up one morning without cancer being the first thing on my mind and the last thing before I go to bed and a conversation without my cancer and how I'm doing . I know people generally mean well but, there is more to my life than just cancer. I used to be the go 2 girl when someone had a problem but, now its like OH NO!!! I can't tell her she has enough on her plate. Come on if you tell me then I don't have to think about my problems for awhile. Is this silly or wrong???? One more ? It says you can only post 5 times a day here why is that???

Emily2008

yes, i totally relate!  matter of fact, i have to BEG my friends to tell me their problems so i can get my mind off mine, LOL!  usually they comply   they often say,"i don't want to bother you with my little problems when you've got so much to deal with."  when i force them to, they'll finally spill out their problems!

 don't know about the 5 posts a day thing.  strange.

Debbi5108

Same here I have to beg them too and yes they finally do spill but, it takes abit and they say the same as yours  You have enough to deal with!!! LOL

Alwayssearching

Debbi5108,

Yes.  I recently told a friend that getting diagnosed with BC around the beginning of October is the worst timing.  With breast cancer awareness month I was tired of hearing about it.  I am returning to work on Monday after three weeks for bilateral mastectomy.  I am looking forward to returning to some routine normalcy.  I know day one will be filled with repeating how I am doing.  I will come up with a one-liner like "I am feeling great thanks for asking" or "I feel better each day" maybe the more I say it the more it will be true.  I will be working through chemo and hair loss and, and, and....    I hope I can do this......

henny

From a perspective just a little further down the road- when you get your hair and energy back people around you begin to forget you've been dealing with cancer. It feels good to be one of the regular folks again and not have cancer the topic of every conversation. But that doesn't mean you don't think of it often-just less often than when you're in active treatment

I'm looking forward to looking back at this idea from 5 and then 10 years out

Henny 

Debbi5108

Always searching, You can do it, We are tough women. I think in general if you are going through BC then you are sick of it being the main topic of conversation. I know I am however I can say on the hair thing that I didn't think it would affect me Boy! was I wrong it hit me hard and trust me I grew up UGLY and was never vain but, it hit me now others have said it didn't bother them. As for working you can do it and it seems like it takes forever but, it has went pretty quick for me and I hope it will for you. 

Henny I am looking forward to looking back in 5-10 myself.

peapot

I finished chemo this time last year and my daughter's whole school knew what I was doing.  She's in 5th grade.  Now everytime we forget to do something, her teachers say "I s everything ok at home?" Or "Is your mom o.k.?'  Yes thanks, just forgettful as ever.

bettysgirl

i totally know what you mean. It seems the brain can't rest from the thoughts this first year. People who haven't been there don't know how consuming it all can be. Hopefully there will be a day when i wake up thinking of something else. I feel often that my mind is never at rest and that contributes to the fatigue. I'm sure one day we will be less consumed but that day hasn't come for me yet. When your calendar is filled with appts, and your days filled with all these meds...you can't move away from it.

Debbi5108

Betty, I totally know what you mean on the waking up thinking about it, however it does get better and all the time consuming appts and chemo right there with you. I know the mind never being at rest thing as well as for the meds well I pretty much just take Zantac 150 and thats it except for Mondays I also take a Claritan.

Peapot, It seems once you are diagnosed with BC and you forget something or your kid is tired at school everyone automatically assumes it's something to do with your BC, not that it could be just the normal busy life.

Luckily we will all get through it and that it does get easier, or so they say and so far it has held true.

Take care and hugs

Deb

guitarGrl

Debbi - I was feeling like you are feeling for about three months after my treatment ended and lately it came back because of my followup mammo - but you will actually have days that you don't think about it. Of course if you had chemo, you look in the mirror and see it, but the people around you will stop asking so much.

Also you need to start doing things that are fun for you, so you have other stuff to think about.

susan