Things they don't tell you?

darCraig

Like, you will never be the same - maybe they did, but I wasn't listening?  18 months after chemo, I'm STILL TIRED!  Can't do what I used to do in a day, so I work less hours, and have a cleaning person (I know, poor me) - but we take the financial hit for these things.  Have to keep up 30 hours a week at work to keep up my benefits - yes, still an issue in Canada.  I'm not willing to give up extended medical/disability/life insurance.  And I can't get coverage anywhere else right now since I've have CANCER.

I've gained 5 lbs, and the hot flashes are killing me.  I feel like a sweaty little pig!

Still sore under my arm and my chest (had a mast) and the prosethsis hurts.  Then I have to talk myself down from thinking I have lung mets (a good friend died from BC lung mets last week). 

And it's starting to sink in that 5 years is not a magic number for me - maybe I'm more likely to recurr AFTER 5 years, since I'm on anti-hormone medication till then.   

I get feeling a bit intimidated by the "I'm better than ever" BC survivor stories.  These things SUCK, and nobody seems to want to acknowledge it!  It's not all pink ribbons, that's for sure!

abbadoodles

There's a lot of truth in what you say, for some more than others.  Why don't you check into the Bitchy, Moaning and Groaning thread?  It's a great place to unload when these things are getting you down.

I'm sorry you are feeling so poorly.  Have you asked your doctor to help you find the cause?  Maybe some nutritional intervention or alternative treatments, like massages, could help.  I wish I could fix it for you.