Signs

Young79

Signs

Young79

I'm not a real religious person. I haven't gone to church regularly since I was a child mainly because my  mother did not believe in the ways of the southern Baptist church. No shorts in the TX heat was ridiculus to her along with a few other things. But we did say our prayers and I do believe in God, it's just my version of God doesn't go along with any one faith. I think that we are all One and that all the different versions are just shoot offs of how God really meant for us to believe. 

 Anyway, does anyone believe in signs from God? I do. I found my BC because the area it was in had started to itch and a friend had told me that itching was a sign of BC months before. Once I went to the doctor and had the biopsy done the itching stopped. I think that was a sign from God telling me to get a mamogram, that something was wrong. Why would it itch and then just stop when only a small portion was taken from a large tumor?

 So now I'm sitting here after having BL mast where they found no more cancer, no nodes with cancer, no gene for cancer etc and so on, that leaves me with around 2% of having cancer again. And I'm not sure I even want to do Chemo even though I'm "young". Why add another % to my risk from the drugs?  I was suppose to start research chemo on monday but my blood work came back with elevated something or other in the liver which the  Dr. said might be from the anesthesia and to postpone a week. But what if I go back and it's still there or there is some new thing delaying Chemo? Is that a sign from God that I should not do Chemo?