I'm bitchy, I moan, I groan.....anyway.

rock

Shucks, folks, you are making me blush.But flattery will get you . . . another poem.

A Poem for Sbmolee. 

Sbmolee has boobs that are itchy 

Which can make anyone a little bitchy

Seeking relief she popped benedryl

But remains in scratching hell.

**Burmashave**

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Even though I can be a huge dork, I hope you women know that I think the world of you.  I think of you every single day, a couple times a day.  Word from AlaskaDeb, anyone?

sbmolee

LOVE the poem..and I am getting bitchy.  My son stopped by after skiing for food.  I was mostly put out that I have to put a shirt on.  Thank goodness I had locked the front door so he had to knock or open the overhead garage door...so I would hear him and get dressed.  He and two friends came in hungry.  I ordered takeout and got rid of them...THEN took my shirt off again.   Work of to be just a real treat tomorrow.  oh hell....could be worse -

Anonymous

LOL Rock, keep the poems coming and YAY for your all clear scan.

CMB......hoping all will be clear for you too.

Wish......maybe we can send you a pet Rottie for XMAS?????? They love their masters and love to oblige if anyone tries any monkey business. How about putting up huge BEWARE of DOG signs????

Diane........when will that girl ever get it straight??? How about a little pocket book for her on BC 101 and a Merry Xmas kid, talk to me when your done reading.

Well my suckage for today is this. It is almost one year since I found out I had BC. Now, one of my 4 sisters called me this week freaking because she has to go for a breast biopsy. Also DH keeps getting worse news from work and it looks like layoffs will be our Happy New Year!!! Nov sucks for me, especially now!

LuAnnH

Haven't posted in a few days, heck it could be a week, what do I know.  Rock, you are one of the coolest chicks!  I love your photos, used to be very illusive now the black and white with the makeup  - touches of color with dramatic looks, so so cool!  I love people like that!  your poems Rock Also!!!!

Ok naked girl with the itchy boobs, just read the post and can't remember who wrote it.  It reminded me of years back (about 9 now) when I completed rads, was burned so bad I couldn't wear anything on it!  It was just terrible and while the kids were at school I locked the doors and ran around topless with one boobie.  Now this was an awkward site since I am a 40D, we were talking a little boobie bobbing around  LOL  I was so happy when that one healed up!

I should be asleep because I have to get up for tx in the am so they can give me benedryl so I can go back to sleep.  Am I missing something with this?????  Oh well just wanted to say hey and let you all know I am here.

Now I wil have the SOI of the new year!  My son is due home for good from Iraq hopefully within SIX WEEKS!!!!!!  You heard it ladies SIX WEEKS!!!!!!  I am getting so excited I can't stand it!  They told us between Jan 15 & 20th last time I heard so it is close!  My baby is coming home!!!!!  Now the big questions still stand will DIL go and live with him with the babies?????  But I don't care because even if they don't they won't be living with me anymore!!!!!  I am getting my son and my house back all in one shot!  WOOHOO!!!!!!!

cmb35

Hey girlies, a big that sucks to all.

MRI for the brain was a nightmare (included IV mania, which is par for the course, but also had to pull me out "but don't move!" and then restart the computer/test all over again about 10 mins in - ugh!) I'm in the crazy zone now as I try not to let myself think at all.

One thing I can say is that the brain MRI stress is certainly distracting me from the breast MRI stress. So I guess that's something!

Freezing cold (perhaps I should put the heat on?), love the poems, sorry about the suckage

I will probably continue to lay very low until I hear back on the breast MRI (last Thur) and the brain MRI (Fri night), at which point I sincerely hope that I will be in the mood to get a Christmas tree!

wishiwere

Rock, I can feel a smooch on my cheek, everytime I see your avatar!

Big THAT SUX to those in need, which is way to many for this stuffy head to remember   Sorry for that!  Just not dealing with this cold well at all, hate being sick

My IOS is minor, but dang it all it's mine   I am going to face this scumbag at the court house today to see what happens when they revisit his bond hearing and find out what locks they'll replace & when.  Dh ID'd 2 of the guns he had on him when arrested as ours, but now we can't get into the safe he messed with the lock so bad to find the permits. That's on tonights agenda. Had a panicky time last night after dh went to bed and there was a guy all dressed in dark clothes walking by veeeeeeeeeerrrrrrrrrry slowly.  He stopped in front of the house next door, which was when I nearly called the policed.  BUT.... I told myself I am NOT going to be a victim again and call the cops on someone walking home from work or whatever....so I didn't. Instead I worried as I lay in bed all night   SUX to have to even think of this scumbag yet!

Thank you for letting me vent about this OT IOS ladies.  I don't want to scare my family about my fears, b/c I know they heightened, but just needed to vent it, K?  THank YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Many {{hugs}} from me

Traci-----TripNeg

Just popping in to check on everybody....... I just ate 1000 calories of burger and fries. Good grief. I gotta get a grip. 

((((((((((((((((((((((((Colleen))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

Bonnie.......the Cowboys SUCK!!!!!!!!!

Everybody else..... (((((hugs)))))

Wish, you need a gun!!!

Marple

Wish your world has been violated and it will take a lot of time to feel safe again.  I had a different kind of experience but the end result was the same.  Fear!!!  It takes a long time to get over that.

nowheregirl

Hi all,

            

Been here for over three years but am quite a newbie here in this thread. Hope anyone wouldn't mind. 

           

Well, my life has been craptacular for the past couple of months. Started off with shingles in October (thankfully they are all gone now),  got a lump-ish thing in my armpit area which turned out to be just a cyst but you could tell how worried I was, my best friend's dad passed away, had to give up on my car and de-registered it, my other best friend's now ex b/f turned into a nasty jerk and dumped her for no reason, and now it's official that the busiest time of the year at my work has started. Been working more than 14 hours non-stop at the very least without even getting the weekend off. Heck I only get every other Saturday off in the first place! The worst part of this is that I still do have to fix my food regardless of how late I get back home from work as I live by myself. I do have two babies but they are cats so all they would do for me is make me clean their litre boxes and feed them before I feed myself. Plus I go in for the Lupron shot every 4 weeks and the clinic where I get it is an hour drive away from my place. But at this time of the year, you know the traffic gets crazy like hell. Last time I went there it took nearly 2 hours and I am guessing it can take 3 hours next time I drive there. 

Yep, I have been super extra mega ultra busy already. But thank to the people at my work. They really seem to love giving me more things to do. They would never use their own brains (if they ever had any!) and keep asking questions or making me do stuff for them. Have they ever heard of Google? And they would always mess up with the pc's and I am the only one that can fix them. They can't even do what I tell them to do. Looks like they don't even have ears that work. Last Tuesday, I told some people at my work to do stuff that was due Thursday. I explained things and headed off to my customers. Then guess what? When I was back, things were totally messed up because they didn't do the job right. Had to spent entire two days to fix them all. *sigh* I think they all had a full mastectomy in their heads and there's nothing left but scar tissues!!!

OK done. Hope everyone has a good Monday.

xo

Fumi

hunkydory

Oh my Gawd Fumi, call me slow, but I have never heard the word "craptacular" before and absolutely love it.  Hope you don't mind if I borrow it sometime.  HunkyD

sbmolee

Same here - Craptacular fits my life alot also! 

Fumi  - does sound like you life has SUXed lately. 

Anonymous

Sorry for the suckage going on. Wish, I hope you get a bit of peace of mind back. Hope you are feeling better, Jane. Hang in there, Fumi...

OK - now listen to my sh*t: today is the 8th of the month and my dumb-butt, a$$hole of an ex has not made a child support payment. Mind you, his total monthly committment is a whopping $113. Bet like hell he will not send it and instead buy yet another stupid arse gift my kid doesn't need. I have an idea for a gift: how about food?

I truly dispise him so much right now... 

flyrzfan

looks like a slow day on the crap board...except for you Fumi ~ welcome aboard! Sounds like you needed a place to let it rip!

Wish ~ I sure hope your day turned out better than it sounded like it would!

Felicia ~ shovel party?

Traci ~ So, So, sorry about your boys! What a game though...

Wishing everyone a quiet week!

BooBee

Suck-o-la ladies.

We don't need snow shovels in eugene Oregon very often but we have a lot of axes.  I'm coming off steroids so would this be an acceptable tool for now?  Felecia, I'm happy to share....do you want me to hold him down?

I'm one of those people that have chosen not to wear anything on my head unless I get cold and I have the strangest thing going on with my scalp. Although it's shaved there is still some patchy stubble left. I look like a mangy dog that was shaved to help clear up a bad skin condition. The funny thing is my gray hair is still growing. Go figure. Stubborn little buggers. I'm still damn cute bald!! 

Bow wow for now.

Jane_M

Renee - You are damn cute bald.  The three of you look like triplets!

Sorry for all the suckage!  I've had one of those good news....bad news days, if you know what I mean.

The GOOD news is the BRAC results are back and I do not have the BRAC gene.....the BAD news is I have a mutation of another gene that may or may not relate to breast cancer or another type of cancer.  

The GOOD news is I have so far survived my first Taxol today....the BAD news is that it took 6 hours.

All little stuff....and I am grateful for that.

BooBee

The little one is a friends baby.  My DH calls him my "mini-me." Which makes me "Doctor Evil."  Good news on your text.  We will be testing our daughters after the first of the year.  I have no family history but two of my husbands sisters have tested positive for BRAC 1.  I don't mind saying that I'm devastated they may have to deal with this.

Congrats on your first Taxol.  Let us know how you do.

 Renee

wishiwere

Traci....did you enjoy the 1000 calories?  IF so, then wth?  It's one meal and won't kill you! Have to find some fun in life sometime!

Sharon, thanks.  Fear is not something I visit often, but this year I've had my share I think

Fumi!  Welcome and THAT SUX!  Sorry you are so busy and overwhelmed with Crapola!

Felicia, I think I'm moving my shovels up closer to the house so they are ready for when you give us the go ahead on that deadbeat dad of your sons NUMBNUTS comes to mind At least then I won't have to trudge through a foot snow...8 inches now and another 6-10 due my wed morning   UGH

{{Jane}} I'm still thinking it's that JANE syndrome...think of 'murphys law' and you'll know what I'm meaning...it's ALWAYS something out of the ordinary with us, isn't it?  I'm figuring when I get mine done next spring/summer it will inconclusive as yours was   Lot of money for NO answers definitive!  

Big that SUX on the 6 hour infusion   What a long time. THAT SUX TOO!

My IOS......the scum is still out on a PR bond.  Still working as a bell hop for the hotel despite being up for armed robbery, and 9 other charges.  Kangaroo court where judges are appointed rather than elected.....HA!  What was I thinking hey?

ONE IOS/SOI as Jane mentioned....gyn called while I was in the court room, but did call back. NO definite answers.  Endo stripe has doubled in size since last spring, but still under 5mm.  No cancer according the TV/US, but then he did comment that perhaps the size of endo change was due to techy error?  Hm....does he (the gyn) realize that he's putting his faith her test that there is NO cancer in one comment, then saying the concern he has for the doubled sized endo is her error?  Something just doesn't seem to right me.  So, IF the bleeding happens again, I'm to call him right away.  Hm...for what? A repeat of all this? I think not!  Especially when I had to remind him he'd already done the bx 3 weeks ago.  He was going to schedule another one b/c of the size doubling! OMG!  WHY ME?  Why do I get these docs who know absolutely nothing, but pretend to know everything!  UGH!

wishiwere

Oh Renee   So sorry you have to worry about your dd's that way. I know any of with sisters or children fear that most of all with this journey! Wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy.  Well, I'm sure there are days I'd like to, but never would!   Prayers they are found negative!

Jane_M

I've been married for 25 years and I've always said I never should have taken the Murphy name from my husband - I should have stayed a Robert (pronounce RO BARE)

wishiwere

OMGOSH@  ARE YOU SERIOUS?  Too funny!  I kept my maiden name 'Murphy' and have said time and again, I should have dropped it when I got married.  Just use it as my middle now, but darn....maybe tis time to change it again hey?

Can't believe that your name is murphy! Too funny!

saint

WhaSux??? Just markingmy spot---but  Traci---gotta remind you of my motto once more:

Think of all the women on Titaqnic who skipped dessert!

Words to live by.........HUGS & a Hearty THAT SUX to all in need of it! 

Jane_M

Decadron and Benadryl....who thought up that combo?  One puts you to sleep and the other keeps you up.  I feel like a friggin yo-yo who can't go to bed.  Thank God for my comfy recliner.

LuAnnH

Saint you are stealing Nicki's line  LOL

Fumi, sounds like your co workers got a lobotomy from your description!  LOL

I have a funny story, was in the chemo room today and was making conversationw with the older lady next to me and I asked was she was there for.  She must have been there to have some blood drown and was leaving and she told me phlebotomy was what she was being treated for.  Mind you I just woke out of a benedryl sleep and I said oh yeah, the bain thingy.  This lady is noding and agreeing with me.  I guess I am stuck on lobotomies today  LOL

wishiwere

{{Jane}} sorry  I can't stay and keep you company,and it really SUX you can't sleep yet!  Hope you get some rest tonight

heading to bed as my muscle relaxer will be kicking in soon

prayrv

Just popping in and marking my spot - going in for mammo this morning -  I'm an A cup, I just hate it when they pull as much as they can into the machine!!  OUCH

Gentle hugs and that Sucks to all!

Trish

wishiwere

Trish, all I can say, is be very thankful those mammo's aren't like the old ones!  Oh my!  Putting my breast in a vise out in the workshop would have easily compared!  I kid you not!

Good Luck and prayers you get the B9 results!

Marple

Hugs Trish.  Tests of any kind are always stressful.  To say nothing of the one's that actually hurt.

Wish, did you sleep last night?  Do you have a dog?  I'm not suggesting you get one but dog's can allert us and have way better hearing than we do.  Just might give you some peace of mind.

wishiwere

Thanks Sharon, yes, slept through most of the night. Dh is still home, on leave from work till Thurs. While it's nice he's home till we get the locks changed, the $$$ lost from this week isn't going to be easy, without pay   Hate that, but I'm thankful he is home also be/c we got about 12 inches since last week with 1/2 that or maybe 8 last night. Another 6 coming down later today! UGH! 

The SOI to that is, the scumbags feet print along with all the cops prints are now covered completely!  One less reminder and one more way to check the surroundings at night when I get up to go potty and see no prints!

Marple

Wish, I'm trying to think of something to say to lessen the fear.  Statistically, he won't be back.  But that doesn't help much I know.  The snow is a blessing.......and I'm hoping the only tracks you see from now on are from the neighbour's cat.

cmb35

Morning and a big that sucks to all!
Whipping out the Notepad for this one (thanks Nicki!)
Fumi - craptacular is classic, nice to see you and sorry about the sucakage
Felecia - ugh!
Renee - wishing and hoping for a negative, sorry you have to even think about that
Wish - unbelieveable!
saint - ladies who skipped dessert, that's a good one!
luann - lobotomy, phlebotomy, you're a poet (like Rock!)
Traci - 1000 calories, yum!
Trish - I swear, I thought one woman was going to dislocate my shoulder! She practically had her foot up against the damn machine trying to get my tiny little boob to stay on the little ledge!

To everyone I didn't mention by name - hugs and that's sucks to all!

My crap today? I'm a 45 year old single mom to a sweet 12 year old boy, and I have had to mentally prepare myself to hear the news that I will most likely not live long enough to see him graduate from high school too many times. I realize that I have been very, very fortunate, and that so far, I have not actually gotten that news. And I realize that the mental stress of waiting and preparing for that news would be like a freakin' party compared to actually getting that news. But even with all those perky positive "it could be worse" disclaimers, it still pretty much effin' sucks!

Edited to add: Still no news, I'm thinking today for the breast MRI and tomorrow for the brain?