That's just the way it is . . .

florencedonna

That's just the way it is . . .

florencedonna

I had an breast MRI on 12/31/2007, I got the results on Friday, negative.  I was happy but only moderately so because I feel like I'll be getting various tests for years to come and one could come up bad in the future so why get too ecstatic about the good results.  I had a "dodged that bullet" but there's more bullets to come feeling. I'm not anxious about getting a recurrence, not pessimistic.

I was actually thrilled though that I got through the MRI without anxiety.  I prepped by laying on my stomach with my arms over my head, increasing the time each day.  I started a week before the test.  I listed to Bob Marley's greatest hits with headphones, one song the first day, two songs the second day and so on.  I took tylenol for shoulder pain but did not take Ativan.  Last MRI, I took Ativan and lost two hours in a blackout (walking and talking, no memory)  For this one, I was also assertive about getting comfortable before they put me in, ie, wore my own pajama bottoms with my own special fuzzy socks, had them adjust the cushions and hospital gown until it felt just right and had them play my Bob Marley CD.  I love Bob Marley but since he died young of melanoma his music reminded me that I was doing this test for a good reason. 

thanks for letting me vent, donna

AnneW

Surviving does seem to be about dodging bullets at times. I'm glad your MRI was negative, and I'm really proud of how you took your fear into your own hands and turned it into a positive experience. Wow. You must have felt so great to gain that kind of control!

Anne