Jan 2008--Ain't it Great?

one2beamup

Hi everyone. I just had my first treatment today (AC). I feel a bit crappy, but I'm so glad that it's finally under way. Onward and upward!

Determined1

Oh, LJ13, what was I thinking?  Shoulda knowed that from your 98 lb post a few back.  Mea culpa.  (You may need to "grow" a little extra fat for her to remove!  Skip the situps for a while and see if that helps.)  So it sounds like you may have 3 incisions to heal.  I still think you should be okay using the computer.  Like I said, send a bunch of work to your home email and work from there for a few days till you feel like getting back into an office setting.   Oh, and ice, ice, ice!!!!

You know, I had a somewhat similar experience back in August when I was trying to decide between lump+rads and mast+recon.  When I saw the plastic surgeon, I told him that I wouldn't be able to deal with anything artificial in my bod, so no recon using implants for me (it's my head thing that makes me afraid of needles...), so he suggested using fat from my belly.  Well, I got all excited as I think my belly is about my worst body part (can't see my butt, so I never consider it).  I exposed my "mom pouch" to the ps and his nurse and he sharply drew in his breath and said, "No, no I cannot touch that.  It is perfect!"  First, (and probably last) time anyone will ever be complimentary about my gut. 

D1

Cathy-CA

Dana -- glad to hear you found a doctor!  Since you will be taking Herceptin, make sure you discuss with the doctor the advantages/disadvantages of ACT (adriamycin, cytoxan and taxol) with Herceptin vs. TC (taxotere and carboplatin) and Herceptin.   Adriamycin and Herceptin both can cause heart problems, so the chances increase by doing those two vs. the TC + herceptin.  However, ACT has been used longer, so has more data behind it's effectiveness.  It should be a personal call since it's your body, but some docs don't seem to offer the choice unless asked.  Mine didn't offer TC until I asked and then said that was a good choice if that was what I wanted.  I felt like saying, if it's a good option, why didn't you present it to me in the first place, but held my tongue.

As far as what day, I think that might depend upon which treatment regimen you have.  TC is more likely to cause diarrhea.  I have only had the one round, so don't know if it will always be this way, but that SE kicked in about Day 5.  Seems like the first few days the other meds that cause constipation were winning the battle.  Don't know how easy it would be to sit in class and have to make frequent bathroom visits.  But, the other thing you might want to take into account is your Nadir.  It's Days 7-10 and I would think the onc wouldn't want you working in the hospital those days.  Mine was less than thrilled that I was flying during that time, but I seemed to come through it without picking up any nasty bugs.

Bring a calendar with you to your appointment, so you can count out days and see what will work best for you.  Check what hours and days are available with this doc. Tuesday may be your only option if you have to go back the next day for a Neulasta shot.  My onc will only schedule chemo Monday-Thursday for that reason.  Let us know what the doc says and congratulations on your "B"!

Sunshine99

Hi Jewels!

I made it through my first infusion yesterday.  I'm getting taxotere and cytoxin, 4 sessions, three weeks apart.  So, one down, three to go!  It actually went very well.  Gave 3 vials of blood for the TAILORx study, then got the chemo stuff.

Didn't sleep last night, but maybe that's from the dexomethasone???  I got some tea tree oil for my nails today. 

Here's hoping for no or few side effects.  Have a feeling I'm going to get constipated, but I have stuff ready for that.  QUESTION:  Should I take the compazine (sp?) before I need it or wait until (if) I feel nauseated?  I don't know when it will hit or how hard, etc.  I'm drinking lots of liquids. Any other suggestions?

Sunshine

Jenn51

Thank you Everyone for the Birthday Wishes!  I was in fact writing a post on my birthday evening when my son Clay surprised me by walking into the house.  He lives in Milwaukee, a 5-hour drive away, & had come down just to spend the evening with me & DH.  DH knew of course & was in on the surprise.  Needless to say I didn't get to finish my post.  We went out to eat, DH came home & went to bed & Clay & I watched Ghostbusters.  What a wonderful surprise!  Then I put in stressful days at work Tues. & Wed. & just vegged in my chair at night.  Now that I've checked in I'm going back to read what I missed.  But I've been thinking about you guys & hoping everyone was doing OK.

Cathy-CA

Congratulations on making it through Round 1, Sunshine.  Did they give you Aloxi as part of the infusion?  If so, I would wait to see if you even need the anti-nausea meds.  My onc does that and Aloxi lasts 3-4 days, so gets you past the major hump.  I never needed anything stronger than some starchy foods if I started to feel a bit queasy.  Make sure you eat lots of small meals/snacks.  But, if you do start to feel more nausea or if you are prone to nausea, I wouldn't hestitate to take the meds.

Anonymous

Hi Jewels

Well I am no longer a chemo virgin,had my first tx (AC) this morning. God is soo good, he placed angels in my path all along the way.  My nurse, Tracey actually leads a support group at a local church. Infusion was uneventful. As the day has gone on I have started feeling a little green,have no appetite and have a good headache, but otherwise all is well.  I have drank so much today, I should be floating.

Hope all you beautiful Jewels have a very peaceful night that is SE free.

Jackie

wvgirl

Kimberly,

 Hope you had a nice time at the concert. My husband was clueless. I am so tired at this point I am to the point of telling myself Girl Learn to Live With it. This is the way its gonna be. I cried alot last night. My DH sleeps on the couch and I in the bed.

Carol  I ask my onc about how he will decide how much rads I will need. He told me it will depend on how many nodes are taken and how many come back positive

Congrads on round 1 Sunshine,Jackie,One2beamup

Jenn51 What a wonderful son you have Sounds like you had a great BDay

Dana Glad things are going better and you have a doc keep your chin up. Praying for you

D1 My friend told me when her sister was having chemo she used bio freeze for her neuropathy she bought if from the PT department

RN2teach

Hey Jewels,

Saw my onco this afternoon. Blood levels are off a little, but still OK. Round 2 is a go tomorrow. Deb 1023, hope you can join me! My bf took me to the first tx, but she's fighting a respiratory bug so I am driving myself to this one.

KathyL- to borrow Kimberly's words, you are a true SHERO in my book. Don't you feel a bit guilty about enjoying a little time for yourself! Children are precious, but still exhausting!

Sista- yeah! Glad you got good news on your scans.

Kris and One2beamup- welcome! This is a wonderful place to come to share your joys and your sorrows. Come back often!

Maz- I'll be praying for good weather next week for your visit with your son. So glad he is getting treatment.

Judy, Joan, Sunshine and Jackieb- so glad the first treatment went well for your Jewels!

Carol- I am so sorry to hear that your family has experienced two deaths in such a short time. You will be in my prayers.

CarolC- good to hear from you. Hope you get those bugs outta your computer soon!

WVGirl- we're all thinking of you. Praying things will go better with your dh.

CHJ and PALady- sounds like you two are on the mend after your chemo last week.

D1- My onco doesn't think the Neulasta is causing our muscle spasms. (Or at least mine, which didn't appear until 7 days after my injection). When did you notice yours first in relation to your shot? It is the only thing we have in common as we're on different chemo....

Dana- your spirits seem much better. Glad things are moving forward for you. Your schedule will be tricky for chemo. Remember the good advice Cathy gave you when you are planning your start date.

Jenn51- so glad you had a nice B-day!

This is day 14 for me. I still have a thick head of hair and am just today noticing a lot more hair on my clothes, in my brush, etc. Haven't had any discomfort with it yet. Guess my shaving party is just around the corner, eh?

Gotta run... still have to get some things ready for my sub. tomorrow afternoon (my chemo is at 12:30, so I am only taking 1/2 day).

TTYL, Gems

Paula

golfer779

Holy Smokes, I can't believe what you miss if you only check in once a day.  This work thing is really getting in my way as far as keeping up with the latest news!

Just a couple notes as dinner is not cooking itself, whats up with the no tampon thing.  First I heard of it was in these posts.  I don't believe it was mentioned in any of my pile of b/c books, nor did my onc or nurse prac mention it.  Can't quite go with the ol maxi pad!!!

Kimberly, the 6 week rad schedule was only mentioned by the surgeon and onc.  I havn't seen a radiologist yet.  I didn't have a great margin at my chest wall so that along with the node involvement was the determining factor those docs used to say I will need rads.  I sure like the thought of 4 weeks vice 6.  You'll be well on your way with rads while I'm still plugging along with my "mellow" chemo regimen until June.  Trust me I will stay in touch!!!

LJ13, I just got a chuckle with the tiny tits comment.  When I first saw the surgeon and onc, they both we're trying to be so polite to say that with the size tumor I had and the size boobs I had, there would not be alot left.  They beat around the bush until I piped up and said it was no big deal to me.  I think I'm one of the few who has opted for no recon, I never was very attached to the tiny tits, and the dh has been nothing but supportive of that decision.

CHJ, from tiny tits to size D, your comment had me laughing as well.

Sunshine99, I would take your nausea meds prior to feeling crappy, and speaking of "crap" I would start taking something for constipation prior to being constipated.  If you look back on this post, the big "C" was a hot topic for a few of us and trust me its no fun! 

wvgirl, you have been in my thoughts often over the last few days.  I sure hope you can get emotional support from elsewhere since the dh is still being a DH.  Feel free to vent away, we are here to listen, and if you need to vent hourly/daily or whatever do so.

Jenn, speaking of the dh, what a cool birthday surprise you got.  I will have to mention though that I believe we have refered to the dear husband as "dh" and a dickhead as "DH".  I believe your husband is certainly a dh!!!  You'll see the post if you go back a few days.  Hope your puter quits acting up.

I sent out a few PM's to get a couple more addresses.  Would love to get you your T's.  I'll check back in after dinner.

Carol

LilWarrior

Cathy - thanks for all your wisdom and support. I will recommend your new regimen cocktail to the Dr and see what he says.  I am so looking forward to getting this all done and overwith.  You are a life saver with all your advice.

RN, WV, and the rest of the Jewels thanks for the prayers and the kind words.  Lord knows I need them.

WVgirl, dont worry about your hubby, I just dont think men (most of them not all), can comprehend nor understand what we are going thru.  Let a man get a cold, and they feel like they are dying, and here we have Cancer, work, cook and still do everything else for them and the household. I honestly feel God made us because he realized that men are not capable without us - let alone multi-task - he ha.  I dont have a supportive boyfriend either and we have many arguements since I have been diagnosed because I dont feel he cares enough and that is why I am here venting to you women all the time.  You are the ones that allow me to keep going - oh with the grace of God as well.  I just ignore him and do me now.  When I feel like cleaning, I clean, when I feel like cooking, I cook.  But I do not go above and beyond for him anymore because I dont see him doing it for me.  I do realize Men are totally different then us and some women luck up and get some real caring men but the average women just get what we have - so realize we (jewels) are here for you.  Once I graduate I am moving on with my life without him because I chose to be loved better then this but meanwhile I am financial in a stuck with school and Cancer so here I reside. Keep your head up and realize you are beautiful inside and out and you deserve the best and keep his ass on the couch - he ha.  Mine has been there since I have been diagnosed. I figured until he learns how to respect me and treat me better I would rather sleep with the dog - the real dog with four paws.  He ha...  Big Hugs to you.   

Well Ladies, I am going to get some sleep.  God bless each and everyone of you.  

Dana 

vettegal

Well @ work, i can view the posts but, big brother is always watching and it won't let me post now. They think it a game of some sort. The are such a-holes.

Anyway, got the freakin wosrt period, thanks chemo

Yes we are allowed to use tampons i called my chemo girl and she said there is no reason. Whew! I haven't use pads in a million years...

The diflcan gave me the runs as usual and i made work at  about 3 pm, i called it a day. Now, today between the period and the diarhea (sp) I am home, hey...who said this would be easy?

Back to venting again....

Will check in later

KathyL

Good morning Jewels!

Boy, did I have a lot to read from yesterday AM.  OK, the best news I think is about periods/tampons.  I have suffered through almost 2 weeks now of bleeding and using pads which I hate.  I really don't think I'm going to be putting myself at risk of infection with tampons after reading your posts-- I don't leave them in all day for God's sake, or cause trauma when putting them in!  It looks like nature is finally going to give me a break now, but next time (if there is one next month), I'm going back to "plugs"!  Sheesh, one less thing to make me hate my body!

So anyway, before my shout-outs... yesterday did not turn out to be the cool girls' day I'd hoped.  I ended up having to hang out at home until lunchtime for my onc's office to call back about my eye swelling.  Turns out it IS probably the taxotere (great, another SE), like you said D1.  By the evening my eyes were better, but I had "cankles" (ya know, a calf plus an ankle...).  I didn't even get any swelling when I was pregnant, so this was new to me and oh so pretty.  I put my feet up last night and just plan on wearing long pants from now on to cover it.  Gross!  The eyes were better this AM.  Cankles will reappear as the day goes on I'm sure.  Sexy! Hope this doesn't get worse with each round... So I missed lunch with my friend-- we rescheduled for next Monday or Tuesday.  Went to my PS appointment with my other friend.  So funny... we went in the room together and the ps came in.  We're both there in our little paper tops-- the "Boobsie Twins"-- cracking up.  My boob is healing fine and I'll get my nipple this spring/summer once chemo's done!  yay!  She got her b/l fills and did great.  Hopefully she'll get her exchange in March if all goes well.  We were just such a sight laughing and comparing incisions, etc.  But the my hair started coming out more and my hairdresser can't get me in until Monday.  So I had a mild meltdown over that until my friend (another one) and I came up with plan B-- her place can do it today or tomorrow if the hair starts falling out in clumps or looks bad.  I'm gonna re-evaluate after a shower today.  Monday I can get the wigs shaped then.  It was just an up-down kinda day and not as much fun as I'd planned.  But oh well, today's a new day.  It's rainy here in DE, so I plan on staying in until I have to get the kids from preschool.  The dh is being a bit of a DH today (I think he has HIS period maybe...  hahaha), but he's at work now and going out tonight to play poker.

Jackie, Sunshine: congrats on finishing round 1.  I hope the next few days go smoothly with little or no SEs.

Sunshine: I agree with Cathy-Ca about the nausea/compazine.  I'm doing TC also (plus herceptin) and got Aloxi... I had no vomiting and very little nausea, and I have a weak stomach normally.  I did not have to take any Zofran, I just wore Sea Bands for a day and was fine.  But don't wait to take your compazine if you don't have a good belly. I also have the tea tree oil for my nails.  I use it twice a day; it stinks, but so far no nail problems. I also use OPI nail strengthener once a week.

LJ13:  I was cracking up reading about little tits!  I was barely an A cup before all this cancer stuff.  After my lumpectomy, I had DCIS in my margins and my surgeon said if she re-excised, I'd look pretty bad, so I had to do a left mastectomy.  I got the right augmented at the same time-- I'm now a full B/C cup and loving the new "girls"!  I did not know that the could do recon. with a lumpectomy-- nice option for you if they can do it.

CarolC and Maz:  We started chemo #1 the same day.  So here I am at day 17 today and the hair's still there so far, but starting to come out.  I think Monday will be my shaving day.  Stay tuned... and can't wait to hear about your hair since we're the same day.

Kris60: See my notes about Sea Bands.  You can get them at drugstores for about $5.  They work very well for nausea and that "sea-sick" feeling.  I plan on using them again for round #2.

RN2teach and Deb102307:  Hope today goes well for you both.  Deb, I think they'll still do it if your counts are OK and you don't have a fever.  Let us know!

Dana:  Hey!  So glad to hear from you and with some good news about insurance.  I agree with Cathy-CA about TC vs AC.  And I think your best chemo day might be Tuesday.  And you need a new man, honey.  I feel for you-- you deserve better!

WVGirl: I've been thinking about you. I feel so bad reading about your dh/DH.  Keep venting to us.  I'd still consider going to someone for you.  I don't know your situation entirely, but I'd hate to hear about things getting worse; the lack of communication can wear you down.  You need to take care of you-- physically and mentally.

Gonna go shower and check the hair follicles!   

PAlady

one2beam & JackieB - glad #1 went well for you. Hope all of your se's are mild!

wvgirl - I feel for you. I dont' have anything to the great advice you have gotten, but I hope things turn around for you.

RN2teach - I hope you get to get #2 and all goes well.

vettegal - thanks for the scoop on the tampons. No reason to be even more miserable.

KathyL - good luck with the hair washing. I was trying to avoid it those last few days, cause I think that really makes it start to come out.

I think I have finally figured out how to post my hair pics. I hope it doesn't mess up the screen for everyone.

This was my pre-diagnosis hair. (I can't figure out how to get it any smaller.)

This was my transition cut.

My mohawk (not as good as Kimberly's though!)

Bald - don't think I'll ever go in public like this.

With a scarf

And with my wig.

SISKimberly

Morning Jewels,

Ok, so it's day 4 after infusion, and I'm whooped! Made it to Frankie Valli last night...good concert, but I wasn't the best company...everyone was very understanding about my unusual lack of "pep".



I've read all the posts, but just can't bring myself to type more than I'm thinking of you all.



Our newbies, no longer virgins, to those of you coming into good days after last week's infusions, for those of us dealing with se's after this week's infusions, and to good news about Dana's insurance...



Dana and WVgirl- I can't even imagine going through this without the support of my dh. I am so sorry that you are both in relationships where your men are just clueless. You both deserve to be loved and cherished...do whatever you need to do to take care of yourselves emotionally, spiritually, physically, and mentally. Dana, sounds like you've got a plan...good for you.



Good luck Paula...and hopefully Deb (is that right?)

Wow, PALady, you look great!!!! Great pics.

SIS Kimberly

KathyL

PA Lady:  Great pics!  I like you bald, with scarf, and with wig!  They all look good.

SIS Kimberly:  Lay low and rest.  Day 4 of SEs seems to be the hardest.  Tomorrow will be better

chj127

Yes, PALady - you look good any way!  Thanks for sharing.  I personally think you look good bald, and wouldn't be shy if I were you, but you live in Erie and it is February, after all... 

CHJ 

KathyL

Carol (golfer);  Just got my shirt in the mail!!  Awesome-- I love it and think I'll have to wear it twice next week-- to the head shaving, and to round #2.  So happy to have got it today-- a pick-me-up on this rainy, dreary day.  Thanks!!!  (I still might add some rhinestones to the ribbon if I can find some; I'll take pics if I do).

Sunshine99

PAlady - how pretty you look!  I'm getting my buzz cut on day 12.  I'm hoping I look that good!

I do have my wigs, and will go get the actual fitting that same day.

Sunshine

Determined1

Frantic day today.  I'm trying to bake two cakes for the dh's b-day (which is today).  One cake to eat here at home and one to take with us tomorrow when we drive up to take college girl out for dinner (yes, we spoil her rotten).  So I've just pulled one cake from the oven and now the second one is baking away.  I just have a short time till I have to yank it out, so here goes:

Paula--My spasms appear the Wednesday after I get the shot on the previous Friday.  So that's what, 5 days?  My doc says they're not from the shot (or chemo), either, but what's causing them, then?  I've never had this before in my life!  I will say my physical therapy seems to be helping as the spasms weren't as bad this 2nd tx (although I did have them).  I'm hoping that by continuing the therapy, even when I'm okay, I'll build up whatever it is I need to combat the spasms for round 3.

WVgirl--Gosh darn that DH!!!  Wish I could come and shake some sense into him.  And what's the bio freeze and what does it do?

Jenn51--It sounds like you had one of the best b-days ever!!!  What a great surprise to have your son come home.  I'm glad it was a good day for you.

JackieB--May your angels stay with you as you pass through your se period.  I hope they help keep the yuckies to a minimum.  Fingers are crossed for you.

KathyL--I'm sorry you're having a sh*tty day.  But the t-shirt had to perk things up.  I'm going to lurk by my mailbox till the mailman arrives!!  (Thanks again, Carol.)

Don't worry about being less than usual perky, SIS Kimberly.  I think anyone who knows us understands that this chemo takes it out of you.  Next concert, you'll be rockin' out!

Sorry to be so brief today, ladies, particularly since I'm headed outta town tomorrow to see my college girl.  But I've got b-day decorations to get up, cakes to finish, presents to wrap, and I haven't even showered, yet!!  (Hope I have the energy for all of this!)

Later.

D1

chj127

Hey golfer Carol!  I saw Kathy's post, and even though it's pouring rain, I ran out to the mailbox & got mine too!!  How cute!  I wasn't in on it when you were first talking about them, and assumed they were regular t-shirt-type t-shirts, and wondered when someone said they would wear it to tx.  How would they get to my port?  But with the scoop neck, it will be perfect, so you obviously thought of that.

OK, so here's my dilemma.  I have a reputation as a nice Christian girl, so how am I going to explain the FUBC?  (LOL)  Can we come up with a "clean translation"?  (LOL some more!)  Help me out, ladies!?!  The back is great.  I'm proud to be a Jewel!!

2 weeks after treatment, and 4 days past my really bad low-count day, I'm feeling pretty chipper today.  It's supposed to be a great weekend here (great Maryland - 50's and sunny) so I'll really be able to enjoy it.  I'm hoping to postpone my shaving party until Sunday...

Be well, everyone!

CHJ 

Determined1

Oh, oh, forgot to mention what a hot, hot, hottie PALady is in her balditude!!!  You can go with any option--you look mighty fine, girl!!

And Sunshine, would you double check your header entry for me?  I put it up there, but I'm not sure I have your dates right.  Thanks.

g2g!

D1

sista2

golfer779 - thanks!  got my shirt today.  my 7 yr old daughter brought in the package saying "What's 'fewbuck' mean, what's 'fewbuck' mean?"  had no clue what she was talking about until i saw the package.  haha.  chj127 - i need a clean translation too. forget you breast cancer?  i don't know.

PAlady - i agree with the others.  you look great all ways.  definitely could do the bald thing!

D1 and RN2teach - long story short...got my counts yesterday, everything low.  got a redblood cell booster and they said my neulasta hadn't kicked in yet for the wbc's.  i got that last friday and nurse said it should kick in any day now.  this morning when i got up my lower back was killing me.  it's not constant but when it hurts, it really hurts.  i've had back pain before and this is definitely different.  of course i've been telling myself all day that it's the neulasta and my wbc's are kicking a**.  we'll see if the pain stays, goes away, gets worse, whatever.  i have no doubt that it's from either the red blood booster i got yesterday or the neulasta.  hopefully the latter because my dh told me today he has a sore throat.  wonderful.  i immediately thought of you guys this morning and that you are RIGHT about the source of your spasms.  what's wrong with these doctors anyway?  are your spasms in your lower back?

mouth care from my doc...1/2 tsp salt, 1/2 tsp baking soda in 1 pint of water.  swish and gargle 3-4 times daily.  my tongue feels like a swollen fireball.  (could have something to do with hot and spicy chicken wings) 

Determined1

Oh my gosh, oh my gosh.  I'm supposed to be vacuuming for our b-day party tonight, but MY T-SHIRT ARRIVED!!!  Carol, you are simply the bestest!!!

Sista2--lower back.  Right above my buttcheeks.  And it just pounds with every beat of my heart.  Gawdawful pain.  I say, give the docs the f*cking shot!

All I could come up with was Friends United thru Breast Cancer.  Or, just don't wear it to church!!! 

Lata.

D1

sista2

hey that's good D1.  that's what i'll tell my kids.  15 yr old won't buy it but the little ones will.  thanks!

RN2teach

Hey Jewels,

Had a good treatment today. No problem driving myself. Feeling that weird stuffy head thing from the Cytoxan and have the lovely peach/orange urine from the Adriamycin. That's all for now. Yeah!

Carol- I got my t-shirt and I love it! I SOOOO want to wear it to school for my head shaving!! But...

CHJ- I was thinking the same thing as D1.... Friends United by Breast Cancer...

Dana- you're still sounding chipper, girl. Sorry about your dud boyfriend.

Vettegal- hang in there! Those se will let up soon!

Kathy- your Tales of the Boobsie Twins are hilarious. Glad you had fun with that since the rest of your plans didn't work out.

PaLady- You can SO do Bald--you are sooo pretty!

Kimberly- (((HUGS))) feel better soon SIS!

D1- hope you have a good weekend with college girl.

Sista2 and D1- my onco told me he would report it as a se, but didn't think it was related to Neulasta... (I like the idea of giving the docs a shot-- bet the list of se would go WAY up!) My spasms hit for 2 days last weekend. Haven't had one since Sunday. All in my lower back and pretty intense while they lasted. I have my 2nd injection tomorrow, so I'll let you know what happens.

I think I'm ready to curl up on the couch for the evening. Thanks for all the shout outs today. It is great to know you have my back and you can rest assured that I have yours, too!

Hope everyone has a se-free weekend

Paula

chj127

Paula - do you get Benedryl in your drip?  Maybe that's just with the Taxotere - but I know there's no way I'd be driving myself home after chemo!!!  Good for you!

CHJ 

golfer779

Hello Jewels, glad some of you got your T's today, I kinda was wondering if the lady working at the post office was going to ask me what the FUBC stood for.  I didn't have a backup plan so she would have gotten the "real thing"! 

Vettegal, your work place is not sounding too friendly, if they knew that its just those kind of little things that make or break the atmosphere in the workplace.  I'm very fortunate and have told my boss that I "have" to check in with the Jewels.  I typically just try to see whats going on and make my posts on my own puter.  I work on a gov navy base and I guess everything we do is/can be monitored.

Diarhea and your period, talk about the double whammy.  Hope you feel better tomorrow.  So how do you spell the squirts anyway? 

KathyL, bummer about the inflamation, glad to hear that atleast your eyes were doing better.  You and your friend sound like you had a lively visit to the ps.  Glad that the T perked up your dreary day a bit.

PALady, you go girl ... you can definitely sport any look you want!!!!

Sis Kimberly, its not a good day for you when we don't hear from you in your typical fashion.  Lets hope for a better Sat., and thank goodness you have a supportive dh.  As with you I cannot even comprehend not having the caring guy I have.

D1, have a fun bd weekend with the dd and dh.  You'll have some catching up to do from this bunch!!!!

chj and sista2, I think the kinder version that D1 came up with for FUBC should work during certain situations.  Boy I'm hoping that my port isn't placed too low to wear my T during infusion day.  I will atleast have the shirt with me to get a pic.

Okay, time for my bitch, on my txt of CMF I was told that hair loss will "probably" not happen.  I figured that would be the good trade off for having to have txt for 6 mo.  Well ... this morning my hair is coming out big time.  I already have pretty short hair but as many of you have said this is a messy situation.  Hair all over ... having my friend who owns a salon give me a even shorter "do" tomorrow morning.   I had not even considered wigs, scarves or anything, looks like I'll be sporting alot of b-ball caps that I have gotten over the years from different golf courses! 

I'll be hovering reading from others tonight, decided to stay home, my dh went to the local basketball game with my father in law, I'm enjoying my recorded shows from the week (Ellen and The View) and sitting with my two dogs. 

Carol

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Hey Jewels!

Carol - Got the T-shirt and love it!  I will wear it proudly.

PaLady - Love the pics.  You look good with the balditude and personally, I like the shorter hair better and the wig is awesome on you.

D1- Like the new FUBC translation though I will probably be thinking the other more often.  I won't wear it to church.

Paula - Glad your treatment went well.  I thought I was the only one with "foghead" from the Cytoxan.  The steroid kicked in good this time and I hope I can sleep tonight.  Was hungry when I got home and had a sandwich.  Feeling ok and will stay on top of the anti-nausea meds.  Hope your weekend is se free.  I start Procrit and neupogen injections tomorrow.  That should be interesting since I give them to myself.  Fortunately, I have no fear of needles and used to work in the veterinary field so am familiar with all of the shot giving and drawing blood.  I guess I am an animal too so should be ok.  Lidocaine gel will be my friend also.

Sorry for the minimal shout outs.  To those not feeling well, hope all is better soon.  Sorry to hear of the muscle spasms and lack of compassion from the oncs.  Is the Claritin not working to help?

We are blessed more everyday.  We will get through this and we will get through this together.  Sleep well gems.

kris60

yay I finally poo'd some.. whew, the things I seem to get excited over now.   Now to get rid of the burping from what I ate from previous meals and I should be good.  My head is still a bit stuffed, sinus's aren't wanting to cooperate. 

OK, question about pop/soda etc..

Pepsi used to be my morning 'coffee', it was my all purpose wake up, get the caffiene going drink of choice.  It tastes so funky now, am I thie only one this has happened too? Now I'll get a hot cup of tea instead, not the same but guess it's the caffiene kick I need.

How do I go about getting one of these FUBC shirts?

Palady you are gorgeous 'au natural' too .. I love the mohawk.

Well, think I will try to get a shower and start laundry while I have energy.

Have a great day

Kris