The last one standing

Toronto

I've posted about this before, but I'm going to do it again.

When I got cancer this time there were others in our social circle who also had cancer. Prostate, renal, BC. Another one died a couple days ago and the sole survivor (other than me) is looking at palliative care centers. When we visited him he asked me how I was and when I said I was great, best possible prognosis, he lit up and mouthed "wonderful". It broke my heart.

It sounds stupid to be moaning and pissing about being well, and I'm not quite doing that. But it is hard to watch your friends dying of the same thing you have. Somehow it is very painful to see their joy that you are well (at least NED).

I'm having a bit of a hard patch with this.

Poppy

I remember when you last posted about this and I'm so sorry you've lost another friend. You are so lucky to have such wonderful friends who can be happy for your health despite their own failing health. I'm sure that if the tables were turned, you would be just as happy for him. Try not to beat yourself up too much for being healthy b/c it's not as if you took medicine out of his mouth to make yourself better. Don't they call this "survivor's guilt?" I would be doing the same thing but try to focus this energy into doing something that you know he would like. Something for him now... or later, in his memory.
Hugs to you for being such a caring friend and I'm sorry you have to go through this.
Erica

roseg

It's not like you'll get to escape death all together, you've just dodged the cancer bullet for now.

I think you need to mirror their joy back to them, that you're happy to see them, and they're still here -- even if you fear it's not for long.

Make today count!

Fitztwins

I have watched people I know who were dx with different kinds of cancer after me and not do so well. One thing about BC is that we have a ton of weapons to battle it, unlike many other cancers. We gain weight (instead of losing it), and we tend to live the longest with it.

Many people say that it is one of the better cancers to have. I don't know if that is true. But I do know that we are blessed with so many options.

Janis

iodine

My heart goes out to you. You are blessed to have loving friends and I''m sure you know that. They have also been blessed to have you for a caring friend.
I have lost several friends, too. It's a bitch. Not a good thing to say about it.
Hugs to you, and your friend.