EUPHORIC AND THRILLED

faithandfifty
faithandfifty Member Posts: 10,007
edited June 2014 in Prayers and Spiritual Support
I'm brand new to this bc buisness........ was dx on mon of this week with DCIS stage 0, grade 2 and made every effort to see this as the 'good' cancer; but went from crying to sobbing to crying -- yes, certifiable basket case, much of the beginning of the week.

Then saw our city's number one bc specialist-surgeon, who was quite hopeful and ordered an MRI on Tues, then he called to say new areas of concern appeared in MRI and he ordered an MRI guided BIO for first thing Wed.... (state of the art technology)

Long story short this MRI Bio was quite a lot more brutal than anyone anticipated, as areas of concern were very close to nipple/sensativity,(after an evening of bleeding from the new site--which freaked me out) the new areas bio'ed were all negative, and I had a garden-variety lumpectomy yesterday, so am now wrapped like a mummy in an ace bandage.

I am indeed euphoric. I feel thrilled. Triumphant even.
Of course I now await the path report from my lump. For whatever reason i now have a peace and calm and contentment for the first time. I can only attribute that to all of my various friends and friends of friends who have been uplifting me in prayer and adding me to prayer chains.

I believe in a merciful creator, a God of blessings and wisdom beyond my puny understanding.

I ask for continued prayers for my journey ahead. Could you be specific in your prayers and bless my DH, Allen with continued calm, reassurance, humor and insight. He's been a rock and deserves the Buckeyes to win the NCAA tournament for his steadfast care thru my earlier meltdowns. Yeah, he'd like that: hahahahaha!!

I have not told my two daughters any of this news/bc at all. They are technically adults (23 and 22) but have both been thru the wringer and I can't jeopordize their fragile mental health right now -- their father died about a year ago... younger one's clinically depressed and in her last semester of college -- auditioning for grad schools, the older one is a new mom/husb in the air force flying jumbo planes and she's hanging on by a thread with her own genuine concerns and long list of unknowns.

If truth be told, I guess I'm being somewhat selfish in not telling them -- this way I can focus on my health and not have to 'mother' them thru another crisis. Please be respectful of this decision.

So I've told my sis, father and about 50 or more of my professional colleagues across the country. This crew is my fountain of support, under guidance of DH, the Buckeye obsessed. Again, truth be told I'm OSU happy as well.

Please affirm my feelings of God's grace. I will of course tell my daughters eventually for their own health, but must come to complete understanding of what i've got, treatment plan etc.

love to all who answer with wisdom beyond my experience.

d.

now tomorrow we await the arrival of our old life and the dishwasher repairman, and the silly nonsense we were attempting before last week's wake-up call..... those were the days........... but the days ahead seem pretty sweet again, also.
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