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Kaloni
Kaloni Member Posts: 8
edited June 2014 in Life After Breast Cancer
A New Beginning?
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  • Kaloni
    Kaloni Member Posts: 8
    edited June 2008

    Hi there sweeties, I just wanted to pop in and say Hurray! Well, Yes Menapause has arrived at my door, and it is going OK. I am getting some Hotflashes, but not too bad. And, I do feel wonderful. I do feel like a new person. I guess, the Hormones change us some. I think that is good. Besides my Mojo. Ha! I sure could use the nice body and have some Libido here, but, it is going, gone. Good God! And, I feel so in my own little world. I have Mike, my bestfriend, that has taken so good care of me through all this Cancer stuff. He really is a wonderful man in that aspect. But, I am not in love with him. And, I feel so bad. I have to say BC has changed me and my feelings about alot of things in life. I am hoping soon too discover my independance again and living alone again. I feel I need to do this. I am real excited about being on my own again. Yes, it is going to be different, and I am so looking forward too rediscovering it and my future.

    God Bless, Flowers 

    Love,

    Kaloni





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  • Anonymous
    Anonymous Member Posts: 1,376
    edited June 2008

    Kaloni,

    Ive read lots and lots of your posts and it is so refreshing and encouraging to see you moving on, making firm decisions about your life.

    Congrads on making it to the New Normal!!!!!!

    Hugs

    Jule

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  • Anonymous
    Anonymous Member Posts: 1,376
    edited June 2008

    I second Jule...great to see that you've reached some light after being in that tunnel!

    ~Marin

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  • Ka-Loni
    Ka-Loni Member Posts: 431
    edited July 2008

    Hi Sweeties, Yes, I am trying to move on. Ha. It is sometimes hard. But, I want you to know I am not moving on from my breastcancer sisters. Nope! Your not getting rid of me that quick. Ha! Yes, Marin I have reached the light. And, for some reason, I have that great desire to be alone in my own little world. I feel selfish in some ways.Why? Were you like this too? Its weird. When, I move in my new place, I want to get rid of the old and have all new things. Boy! this is not going to be cheap. Ha! And, for the Mojo. It is gone! Ha! Well, I hope your doing good. I will be popping in still. Bye Marin.  

    God Bless,

    BirdieLove, Kaloni Flower 





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  • Ka-Loni
    Ka-Loni Member Posts: 431
    edited July 2008

    Hello, I sure hope you sweeties had a nice Fourth of July. Mine was a quiet one. Well, I am just popping in to say have a beautiful day.

    God Bless, Flowers 

    Kaloni





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  • Anonymous
    Anonymous Member Posts: 1,376
    edited July 2008

    Hi Kaloni

    The 4th was great....it is a huge holiday for my family and my new man was able to attend as well..he hasnt met much of my family or friends yet so it was quit the evening for him, but he did wonderfully.

    I completely understand what you mean about being selfish and wanting ALL new in your new life...after my dx and treatment I was able to get to a place that I was very comfortable within myself. I was alone through my bc journey and looking back in ways Im glad that I was because it allowed me time to search for me and make decisions on what "I" want and not be too concerned with the outside world for once.

    A few months ago I decided to start dating and since then have met the man of my dreams!!!!!! Life is wonderful now and I can still keep to the decisions that I made for "ME"!!!!!!

    Enjoy your "own little world" to its fullest, because as Ive recently found out, someone special is around the corner that you never expected to turnLaughing

    Hugs

    Jule

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  • Ka-Loni
    Ka-Loni Member Posts: 431
    edited July 2008

    Hi Jule, You are very sweet to come here. Yes, I have come to a special place, well, I do not know if it is special or not, in my life. I do feel somewhat selfish. Yes, I am in my own little world, like I am in a daze. It is weird sounding. I just recently went into Menapause, and I have no libido at all. It is gone! And, I surely do not feel sexy. Ha! I can not imagine a man looking at my body again, or even be in a relationship. I am so happy for you. But, I do not see the man of my dreams anywhere here or around, if ever. So, I think I will just get used to my own little world here. You are very sweet, and I am very happy, that your life has become happy and has some true meaning to venture out. 

    God Bless, Flowers 

    Love, Kaloni 





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  • Anonymous
    Anonymous Member Posts: 1,376
    edited July 2008

    Kaloni

    I was at that place about men too....I had choosen to just date for company but not to get involved with anyone other than to just be friends.

    David, obviously, changed that theory, but Im very happy that he has.....he also was at that same place and we have had many conversations about how strange it is that we found each other when we both had made the decision to go through our lives single.

    Looking back a few months ago I was happy with my choices and with my life and I still am, adding David to my life has only enhanced my happiness, which Ive never had that in a relationship before so it feels (well, I cant find the words to express it), I guess it feels right.

    Hugs

    Jule

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  • Ka-Loni
    Ka-Loni Member Posts: 431
    edited July 2008

    Hi Jule, Your so sweet. Thank you so much for your Great Inspiration. You sound so happy, And you deserve it for sure. I think we all do. We all have been through so much, so, life should be getting somewhat better for us. I know. being in love is wonderful, and it feels so right. I do miss that wonderful feeling with someone. I just do not see it ever again. So, I am trying to get used to this life of being alone. Well, with my furry babies anyway. Ha. Take Care Sweetie.

    God Bless,

    Love,

    Kaloni

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