half way point

This week I will be at my half way point with the chemo #3 but I am dreading it and becoming so anxious which is silly I already shaved the head and its begining to grow back a little and I kept a diary of how I felt and which days but I didnt know if anyone gets anxious and dreading it worst than the first time I guess I just dont like not having much contol over how I feel for almost a week there. Anyone else going through these feelings???

Some one emailed me this morning and put it in prospective we don't like loosing control and we loose control of what is going on with our bodies my # is number 3 and yours is 4 and I think allot of my problem is its summer which I am grateful for but everyone is enjoying their life's and I know what I have coming right before the 4th of July while others are planning vacations etc. I am single and thank god for it at times through this but I know I see people falling in love and living and I am grateful for living but we still have to plan our days and weekends around our treatments and thank you for reminding in fact Friday I will be over half way by a day.... I thought about how I at least have been able to control my work and my babies when they were growing I had a schedule and now its all turned around but it has taught me something too to be more flexible and Friday for you is 3/4 done.....

Lisa39 it makes it so much better to have this place to come and have people tell you yes I feel the same way, I remeber having my port put in and now I can email them and say yes I felt that too. I have radiation also after my chemo is over at the end of August I have 6.5 weeks of it every day but I dont think it will be as bad as going to chemo I call it ta ta juice. I am going to bake a cake with snow ball cupcakes and say ta ta for now, I also have the hercepetin  for a year into May 09 but that will be ok too. I didnt count up how many radiation treatment there are maybe I shoudnt they said it would take about 15 minutes once your set up. I think our lives will be better than normal we will put our selfs first and do the things we have put off I am 56 years young and I know there are so many little things I want to do ...Good luck your almost done and I am right behind you and hopefully more are getting done along with us and for those who are starting you will get there too ...