So much going on except my treatment
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I had wrote before about my bad weekend but things are getting worse. It has nothing to do with my breast cancer though. My brother in law died Sunday evening, the girl I work with got caught taking money from her vault and she told me she had been doing it for a long time. I went to my primary doctor and he said the surgeon he sent me to, that did the biopsy had not kept him informed so he is going to find out why. I had to tell someone about my exciting(not) life. I know the place I work is going to want me to work full time but I have not told them my situation and so I talked to my primary doc about this and he said a note would be no problem. The only one I had told was the one who was taking the money because I thought we were close friends until she started getting into my money. I had to say something to my manager and I may be the one that blew the whistle. I just hope I don't get fired right now. I need my FMLA but I do not have insurance through them so at least they won't be upset about that.
I feel like I am rolling down hill in a barrel and I am gaining speed. I just really needed to let this out. I cried when I got back from the doc for the first time and it was about my friend in trouble not my cancer. I know I am in trouble there too but I have faith in God. My son's dog would not let me cry she kept trying to lick me in the face. I know they understand tears, just not why!
Thanks for reading this if you made it this far.
gramma23
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Gramma
Im sorry your having such a rough time right now....
It does feel like your barrel roll theory....everything seems to pile in all at once....
I havent gone back to read to see where you are in your bc journey but Im thinking not too far or not into the treatment steps of it yet because of what you said about your doctors not communicating...
Things will settle in a little better once you have your treatment decisions made so that will help some...
The part about the friend is awful....this isnt a very good time to loose a friend at all....but your here and there are lots of us here that will be your friend so please feel free to rant/rave/cry/stomp your feet...whatever you need to help get you through things.....we've all been where you are and know how lonely it can feel....
Hugs
Jule
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Well ,yes you are right about my treatment is not to far along and I think I may have posted in the wrong site but anyway I do think of all of you as friends. We have so much in common unfortunately. Maybe I will get the hang of this board. My computer too, it goes where it wants to if I just barely touch it. I am used to hitting the keys harder at work.
gramma23
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It's okay, gramma23 - a heartfelt post is appropriate in any forum on this site. You are certainly enduring a great deal of turmoil at a time when your health is in limbo. I hope that your doctor is able to quickly straighten out the lines of communication with your surgeon so that you may move forward. It's good that he was able to reassure you that a note for work would be no problem when you need some time away.
Feel free to come to these boards with any of your concerns. You are right, we are friends here!
Lisa
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