I can't get my act together and I don't know why

Oh yes!!! i know all about dog poop, and guess who always seems to run into it  ?? DH.... and does he EVER clear it up??

Its just a hazard of living with older doggies, in summer they usually make it outside, but its so cold right now, and they just will not go if they don't want to.

French horns, oh yes, my g/daughter brings hers round here to practice, she lives in a built up area and I think my DIL rather she came to me where we have no-one to bother about the racket...that is no-one apart from my sausage dogs, who will often throw their little heads back and howl along with her, can you imagine !!??

Isabella.

Oh sh%)t I guess we are leaving in about 20 minutes (shows you how on top of things I am-duh....I feel so you know) Well I better go and get ready as he just asked if I wanted to go -I told him yes. I will beback on here later tonight-Thanks for letting me vent. Oh I do have one piece of happy today:  My sons friend who is in   the Army  called today from IRAQ (yes Iraq- I coudn;t believe it) and since my son was not home I got to talk to him-I guess it just made me happy to speak to someone who is doing something so important to all of us-just wanted to share-Thank You

I WILL HAVE FUN< I WILL HAVE FUN<I THINK I CAN<I THINK I CAN 

I've got one better than cat snot on glass.  I've got one cat that likes to puke!  Have you ever listened to a cat before the puke comes out.

Patrice, your PJ stories are too funny.  I sit here laughing instead of being productive.  Oops!  Forgot!  I'm too old to be productive (produce).  Besides, I'd need some practice anyways. 

I want to hire a cleaning person.  Can't afford it.  Plus, I'd have to clean before she could clean.  And that takes too much energy.

Sorry, Harley.  Didn't think about getting you out of cleaning.  Glad you had a good b'day celebration.  You need to do it again when the real day comes! 

Okay, I love this commercial.  I laugh everytime I see it on TV.  Isn't youtube great.  You can find almost anything on there. 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mZNsVrJWK6s

Oh, Shirley!

That is TOO FUNNY!!! 

Thanks!
Harley

I still think your phone call would have gotten me off the hook for cleaning, today!!!

Hanna your post was perfect you said the things that I haven't even been able to put into my brain let alone words.  I suntanned for about 20 minutes on each side on Wed, and when I put my bathing suit on I saw the big dent in the breast the scar thats shape like an S and the burns from radiation.  I tried to ignore it but couldn't.  I could never wear the bathing suit in public and it's beautiful, its a one piece with a clear mesh in the middle with all sort of pretty flowers and leaves embroidered on the mesh.  But the top shows the dent, the scars and the rad burns.  Your post made me understand why I went to bed and laid down for a day and half.  Funny thing is I didn't believe it mattered but oh yes is does so much.  I was telling my son about breastfeeding him and his brother and we laughed about me wearing towels then.  But I never equated that with my depression now. I've been ranting and writing the most stupid things lately I mean I just go off on a tangent I don't even understand but Hanna I'm getting it now and you know what I can at least fiquire out what to start with now. Thank you, thanks everyone one this thread for your honesty and frankenss.  I love you all.  NOW I'm going to try and focus, really focus.

I need to make that appointment this week.  Haven't done it yet.  Keep forgetting.  Who wants to have a boob squashed!? 

Shirley......when do you think they'll ever come up with a better technique other than boob squashing. Sheesh......I have a script on my fridge to go for one too.......I'd really love to just make it disappear. It's been a year since my last one and has taken this long to get thru DX, LX and MX (4 weeks out now). No one thought of it and since I got left behind and fell through the cracks after my last mammo which found this, I had to ask about it and remind them it's been a YEAR!!!!! I'm afraid of getting lost again in the system, I was so afraid the cancer had grown in that year of being the lost one and then with the slow procession forward. Sheesh....why can't they do call backs like dental offices do! Get someone on that job!

So, my script hangs there now reminding me I gotta go but I don't feel ready yet......will it hurt more if it's pulling my scar down with it?? I'm pretty flat on the good side so they practically need to squash me as tight to the machine as possible. How long did anyone wait after MX????

Another joy for this week is a proth fitting....yipee.....I get to bare it all with strangers and take home falsies in a baggie like taking your leftovers home after a meal.........would you like that to go??? I suppose I'm supposed to feel good about it?

Then on Friday I get to have a follow up with an Onc. since I had not seen one at all and my surgeon and GP have declared me cured. I feel like he'll say I'm wasting his time but after getting dropped like a hot potato at the beginning of all this and after surgery I still have questions and fears that neither a surgeon or GP are qualified enough to answer. I lost my faith in the system of care over what happened to me in that year so now I'm hoping to restore that a little .

It's beautiful out but I'm still not motivated to do all that spring cleaning and outside cleaning......maybe avoiding all the neighborly "how are you feeling, you look good stuff and having to explain again what a hell of a year it's been.

Well enough of my crap.......next week I can take my new falsie out of the bag and stick it on my chest, but on a big ole smile and not let anyone else feel or see the effects of CA!!

Oh, I absolutely HATE IRONING!!! 

Deb, that sounds like a VERY GOOD PLAN!!  I must be reaching the point where I either am buying only wrinklefree clothes, or I just don't care anymore, and I'm wearing them with wrinkles IN!!

Harley

I gave up ironing years ago - I try to buy wash/wear - and even if it's not supposed to go in the drier, I'll put things in for just 2 mins on a low heat, enough to get the wrinkles out, then hang them up on a hanger. That works with most things - otherwise, I just remove the clothes from the drier as quicly as possible and try to smooth them with my hands. Shriley - as you can see I don't have OCD - but there is therapy for people who do. For people like me, the messy kind, there's always housecleaners. Too bad my insurance won't pay for it - I'm having a housecleaner come for the first time next week! Yay!

Ladies, ladies, ladies!!  You are focused on dreary crap!!  Ironing, mopping, waxing, cat snot and dog poop???  C'mon!  Focusing on these things are not a recipe for success!  Especially if that massive pile of clutter on your tables has medical bills lurking inside! 

Now I know that there is joy to be found in a clean home and knowing that your own efforts created it.  I also know that you need to feel ALIVE to find joy in ironing, mopping and waxing.  This is the time to introspect, rediscover your passions, and put something of PURE DELIGHT on top of your list of things to do.  At my lowest points, I started with luxurious bubble baths by candlelight.  There's not a problem in this world that isn't less daunting in the bathtub.  Sure, it's a shortlived reprieve, but it's something. 

More recently, I've been baking cookies.  I LOVE to bake cookies, and I love to eat them.  And since I love to eat them so much, I have to give them to family and friends to curtail the rate I clog my arteries.  Each of us is unique.  And I'd wager a guess that each of us has things we really like to do that was buried a long time ago by the burdens of being an adult.  Did you know that Carl Jung used to make mud pies in his back yard as a way to connect with his inner child?  I hereby challenge every one of you to think of what YOUR mud pie might be.