bone scan anyone?

OK, so it's 2 years now. I'm having some pretty amazing flash-backs every so often that I haven't had before. Was at work the other day and someone mentioned a 250 cc IV bag and I pictured it in my mind and suddenly I was back at the chemo room. Damn. Just little electric shocks.



It's been a weird time altogether as I have sort of just celebrated "the end of it all" - cancer treatment and some major family issues that came out of it - and now am having a lot of emotion and fear that "it could all come back again at the drop of an eyelash".



So, in the midst of it all I've had back pain for a couple of months. I'm sure that it's from carrying a heavy bag around Brazil for month - on my left shoulder (surgical side) of course. The right side of my back is painin' me. The biggest problem is that the part that doesn't come and go is tenderness centrally right over one vertebra. A couple of weeks ago I finally got up the nerve to call my primarcy care provider about it. She wanted to do all sorts of things - blood work, MRI. I had a regularly scheduled appointmenet with the breast surgeon the next day. She talked to the onc that afternoon and, of course, now I'm scheduled for a bone scan.



I figure it's like every other test. Lots of things can show up on it that isn't what you're hopin' and prayin' isn't there and how much ordeal will that bring up - how many more tests, how many more sleepless nights? I'm 99.9999999% sure that this isn't cancer but.... And then there's all the other looking that might come from it all.



Curious about other's experiences with "false positive" type lighting up on bone scan.



Of course there's the whole compartmentalizing of "what if it is"? I think I'll just let that stay behind it's flapping screen door.



Thanks for any thoughts/experiences.



Jorf

The scan was today so we'll see sometime if my onc ever gets back to me....

I was thinking while lying there: Everything becomes a crisis, every little ache and pain or twinge or tweak. It's absolutely a crazy way to live.

The worst part of it was the television they had blaring in my ear the whole time - the weather 5 times in 1/2 hour???, One Life to Live???? Sheesh. Can no one just bear a little silence and less stimulation? 

Jorf