I'm bitchy, I moan, I groan.....anyway.

Well I think this is the best thread ever!  I love reading it everyday, because it makes me feel like I'm not alone in this.  My complaint could go on and on but I'll stick to the current issue.  I just had a core biopsy yesterday on my bc side reconstructed ped. tram flap side.  Five months ago it swelled up and started leaking gross orange and chunky (sorry to be so vivid) fluid.  Six different doctors had six different opinions.  Some just said I don't know what it is goodbye!!  Have been asking for a biopsy since Nov. 07.  US in Dec. suggested biopsy.  Dr. forgot to order MRI, I asked for 3 months to have one.  Finally did, suggested biopsy.  My PS treats me like I am bothering her, sure she doesn't have a leaking boob that hurts everyday and reminds her of bc.  Just sick and tired of all of this cancer shit.  My recons are horrible, the left one is under my armpit and is shrinking!! My right one has a big dent from the leaking.  I just want to look normal again and get on with it.  Traci I am so with you on the hair, I won't even get started. 

Wow, I feel better, thanks.

Terry, wow you have been through the ringer and yes honey you can bitch and moan just like the rest of us. Honey I went through some of your comments and read about the costipation. I here you clearly. there was a time I was on 20 to 30 pills three times I either had the screamin "shits" Pardon the language but it was the truth. and the bad thing I was bedridden. then I would be so constipated. I would have to wait for my husband to come home to hold me to go to the bathroom i was to weak to stand by myself. I couldnt sit on the toilet because i had open wounds do to scleroderma. I was so constipated I would shake and just cry, my husband bless his heart and sense of humor and my little girls were laughing there little heads off. because of what we went through we allways made a game of it. this time It was so bad the many glyceric suppositoires would fly out because i was so compacted, the flushes just would not work, I was afraid and embarressed to go to the ER. So my husband put on his rubber gloves had his spoons, vaseline and perceded to do his job. the whole time saying "I think we could go into the business of masonry and even make some money if i kept this up. Now thats a guy with a sence of Humor.
 Terry YOU ARE STRONG we just need the reassurance we can do this and thank GOD for this site and all these wonderful ladies, We can really draw stength from one another. Your in my thoughts and prayers Im sending you a virtual HUG. Heather

Traci, you are so right and im so glad you started this thread it has really helped letting things out and has let me laugh, cry. and just know that everything will be okay. Thanks again  oh by the way about being bald. i havnt seen you bald but i bet your smile and your charisma out way any baldness. i know you hate that from your statements from before. but i see that in your picture you are a very beautiful young lady i see you have that sparkle in your eye, according to my uncle as long as you have that sparkle in your eye you will go far. Have a good day Heather

Oh yeah and will this damn winter ever end.  Its the end of March and expecting snow today, sick of it. SO BAD. Pearl

Yes, I was the one who had a Marilyn Monroe with twirling tassles on her boobs!!!  I'm flattered you remembered!  Do you remember my potty mouth?  There used to be another Tracie on here (from New Orleans?) and me, her, and Marci Beth would curse like sailors and no, we didn't use **** either!!!

I love, love, love, this thread, and will try to brighten it up with humor....and cursing.

My turn...

My gripe is the postal service - and customer service in general. I went in today to mail 15 small envelopes and the stupid clerk acted like it was too much daggone trouble to wait on me. Even asked me if I could separate the packages by content next time to make it easier for her (nope, sorry - I have a job, and it ain't working at the post office. SEPARATING the packages is what the hell they pay your sorry behind for). She was rude and nasty to the lady in front of me for no reason other than that she could be. Then, for my measly $30 purchase, she asked - in a really snotty voice - for ID for my BUSINESS check! I mail things from that and every other post office in my area all the time and pay via business check and NOBODY has ever once asked for ID (personal check, yes, business check, NEVER). I asked to see her supervisor who said "Well, we're supposed to ask for it, but not every clerk does. And we have been having a ring of bad checks." It was all I could do to keep from whipping out my ATM receipt to let this chicken head know exactly how much is in the account. Smart a$$ clerk says "I guess I'm the only one who is doing my job!" Now I know why they have a big ol' plexiglass partition at that PO - to keep the customers from reaching over and yoking the crap out of one of their lazy tails! See, this PO is in "the hood" (it is near the college I teach at), and I went in sweats after working out - not in my normal teaching attire -  which is why I guess she thought she could be as ugly as she wanted to be.

So, I got the number of the Postmaster and will report her tomorrow. I HATE rude service people!! I understand that people have bad days, but it was only 10am, which means she'd been working for 60 daggone minutes. B*TCH!

I had my stage one in July, thought I was finally getting my stage two next week.  Just found out today that the secretary gave away my surgery date because I had to go for a biopsy yesterday that the PS assured me is nothing.  Just the latest in a long list of screw ups at that hospital.  It was the straw that broke this camels (although I look more like a hippo these days) back!  I'm done, saggy deformed breast mounds and all!!  This sucks!!

BTW I am still waiting to hear about my genetic testing.  No sisters but my mom had bc and is a 7 year survivor!  I have a daughter too and a long family history of colon, breast, and ovarian cancer.  I'm scared.

Valerie....did you find "black Market" gas???  we drill for the damn oil up here and we are paying $3.65 a gallon!  Something is not right with this picture!

Deb C

Nicki,

        You are in the twilight zone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  and I'm there with you. 

So sorry about your sister...........Doesn't seem to be any words to express some of the sorrow I feel for people . 

KiKi,

       Girl its time to kick some butt at that hospital. 

TERRY 

Felicia - I guess now we know why people go "postal".  I'm with you on the lack of customer service EVERYWHERE!  I'm shocked if someone IS courteous and does their job without complaining!  GEEZ!!!

I don't have any big bitches for today (so far), so I'll get off here and let someone else  go!

I just read Carlins' post and loved the ending, "just need someone to hear me and not feel sorry for me." Thats why I love this thread in a nutshell. My cats are staring at me as if I've screwed up there sleep, going to try have to see my rad onc today.

Pearl - I am sooooo sorry you are going through this.  I really hope your rad onc has SOMETHING he can direct you to....even if they stick you in the hospital for a (eeeewww) enema!

JapanLynn:  Good luck finding those papers...how come everything else gets held up in the mail but the IRS always gets their mail thru?

Nicki:  Maybe life in the Twilight Zone would be better than the freaking crap you're going thru here.

Now my bitch.......Today is day 3 at the radiation center.  1st day they "reprimand" me for not looking the same as I did pre-chemo - yeah I lost my hair just to fool them!  Day 2, they were running 20 mins late....ok.  Day 3 - I get there this morning 20 mins early.  No women are there - just men on the other side changing, getting zapped, dressing.  I am the ONLY woman sitting in my gown.  Now a tech comes and gets a guy, doesn't look at me and I figure no big deal but after 15 mins and still no other female patients I think hmmmmm - maybe I'd better check.  So I go into the back and there is my tech and another gal who both look surprised to see me.  I say "where is everyone...is the machine down?".  She goes "oh, yes, I called you - here look at my log".  I ask if they called my cell# which I make sure is all over every page....I tell everyone in every office 'IF YOU NEED TO REACH ME CALL THE CELL PHONE.  I am in the gym at 6am, out by 7:30 and I always check my cell phone to see if I have any messages....then I drive all the way from gym to the hospital.  They grab my file and she goes "oh, gee if your cell phone is one here, I'll just....".  And she flips thru and there it is - ON EVERY PAGE WHERE IT SAYS 'PHONE #'.  She had to search, I'm sure, to find the home#.  So gee, I've had one session this week - don't know if the machine will be fixed today and if not I'm out again tomorrow. 

Where is that picture, Traci, I need to figuratively punch my rad tech in the nose.

I'm totally rattled and it's only 9:30am......hope the rest of the day goes ok.........thanks for listening

Guggerty - That SUCKS!!!  Hello, call the right phone number!

Here is my bitch for the day.  Taxol dries me out like a potato chip!  I have a constant taste of blood in my mouth from the dry nose/sinus issue.....talk about GAG!  I have saline nasal spray and gel, but it is not enough.  we can put a man on the moon, but we can't find a cure for my dry bloody nose?   Grrrrrr.....

Oh, and here is another one.  I read that SO FAR the presidential campaigns have spent 200 MILLION dollars on advertising and campaigning.....200 MILLION, and it is not even April.  Just think what could have been done with that money! Just think of the cancer research that could have been done.

OK...I'm done....Who's next?

Deb C

I just finished up my tale of woe with the IRS - they didn't like the fact that I inadvertantly overstated my sales tax deduction a couple of years ago , so they cancelled out all of my deductions other than mortgage interest. It took 2 months of backing and forthing before we got the 2 letters that (I think) let us off the hook. Two days after getting a notice that the file had been sent to Austin for review, we received a letter saying we hadn't sent backup & we still owed. Two weeks later we got a letter saying things were ok & cleared up. Two days after that, another letter saying they'd review before March 31.

$3.66/gallon - and that is down from $3.75 - new competition, I think.

I read something and it pissed me off. WHY do some people deliberately misunderstand?  WHY don't they wait a bit instead of sending out stuff that's going to change in a day or two?

Deb C - Vaseline?  I think that's what one of the kids had to use. One of mine had allergies and the SE of the meds - spontaneous bloody noses - made her decide to live with them.

Traci - every time I see the bitchslap I wonder what brought it on?