Jan 2008--Ain't it Great?

Hi Jewels,

I don't post to often and won't be doing so again, so please take me off your tx list.  Thank you

CAROLC - Yes Honey, I get depressed; well I call it moody and when I get like that I let my ex have it or I just let it out on someone that is being mean to me, so trust me its the Medications.  Triple negative is not the worst its triple positive which I am, and with Liver Mets that I have too with the node involvement as well but guess what I feel good.  I have chemo ONCE a week might I add and with all the positive thinking and not claiming I have cancer I am going to beat this.  Dont worry about what kind of Cancer, and if its the worse and what Doctors say = YOU CLAIM YOU ARE HEALED AND DONT READ ALL THAT JUKE!  I am the worse one out of the January Jewels and I refuse to claim that this Dis-ease will beat me.  I am a go getter and this is not going to get me today or tomorrow.  When you feel down come online and we will give you strengths and laughter.  We need you just as much as you need us ok!  We love you so dont stray to far away.

SheShe - Do not take tyenol #3 or whatever other kind of tyenol it eats away on your liver so throw tyenol away Ladies.  Ask the other Nurses online they will tell you the same thing that it is very bad for you.  I dont understand why they even sell it still.  Thanks for the remedies though - very much appreciated.

I did pilates last night and boy did it wear butt down. I also walked 1 1/2 mile and I was tired.  I am going to try to do a little more today but I noticed my arm is still not back to normal even after surgery in Decemeber but you KNOW ME I am hardheaded and I am going to push myself more.  I  have two more days and I have lived to 38 - Yippee!  God is good!!!  I plan on being here a while   I am not doing anything special - its just another day and no one is making a fuss about it; but I am so happy and blessed I cant wait.  I have 6 more months and I will be graduating from school and then i will have a BRAND new life.

Okay Ladies when or will I lose my hair - this week will be my 3rd treatment and I havent noticed my hair falling out yet?  It feels dry so I put extra conditioner in it and it helps keeping it soft.  I am wondering if I am really getting chemo because I am not losing my appetite, no hair loss, no mouth sores - I do have bone pain, itching and warmness -oh yea my butt is on fire after chemo that is the only way I know i am getting it.  he ha But other then that I really dont feel that bad - and a little tired but its not that bad..  I can only imagine how great you others feel when you get chemo only once  every 3 weeks - arent you lucky.  Heck I would be running a marathon if I had it once every 3 weeks - he ha

Well I better go - I have to do Pilates - its so fun - he ha..

Talk to you soon,

Dana 

I live in a very ethnically diverse county and several of the independent markets in our area are owned by Persians.  Spring is the start of the Persian New Year and when I went in today, the market was full of flowers, grass baskets (think Easter baskets only with real grass), and fruits since New Year starts this week.  At the checkout counter, when the cashier wished me Happy New Year, it got me thinking about how spring really IS the start of life.  I look at the backyard and the flowers are in bloom, the berry vines are getting leaves, the citrus trees are covered in blossoms, and everything is green. 

Given what all of us were going through January 1st of this year, this just seems like a good time to celebrate new year's and life.  Several of the jewels are wrapping up treatment, all of us are closer to the end, and I know I'm starting to think in terms of things I need to do AFTER chemo.  Some still have rads (count me in) or reconstruction surgery, or still have Herceptin treatments (again, that would be me), but somehow finishing chemo seems like such a major milestone. 

So, even though I'm not Persian, Happy New Year! 

Good evening, Jewels,

Just watching Dancing w/ the Stars on tivo (thanks for the heads-up, Carol, I'd forgotten it was starting last nite).

mdgirl- I'm not sure my one hair qualifies as peach fuzz, but I'm holding my breath that my last 3 treatments don't make it jump ship. I know what you mean about the morning routine-I'm all about low maintenance and mornings are def. easy now!

Jenn- thanks for the tip on beliefnet. I'll be checking that out. Hope you got some of that chicken yesterday.

D1- sounds like your dd had a GREAT day on the court. Kudos to her for being an A-1 team player.

OMG, your dh (and Julie's, too) sounds like mine. I'm a tree hugger married to Mr. Chainsaw Massacre. Our house is nestled between two hills, so of our 3 acres we have about an acre of usable land. Unfortunately, dh's idea of getting more acreage is to chop down every tree in sight. I don't think the word "pruning" is in his vocabulary. 

Oh yeah, I've had my own little bladder control thing going on w/ this cough (thank God it is almost completely gone). I've been doing my Kegel's more often, that's for sure!

Julie- I'd say you deserved a sleep in after your ordeal w/ the migraine. I'm so glad you're feeling better.

Kimberly- welcome back! I'm glad you caught the boob trouble early and hope it resolves w/o a hitch now that you're on abx.

I should have guessed that our writer would see the value of our journey and save the Jewels posts for posterity-way to go.

Carol- ummmm a facial AND a massage-what a treat!!!

Deb- I am still having bone and muscle pain (spasms, too), but I feel better today than yesterday. I seem to have been spared from the worst of the finger/toe problems. The tips of my fingers were really sore Saturday, but that went away pretty quickly.

Sheshe- glad you found a place for the bridal shower that is going to allow you to relax and enjoy the event w/o worrying about the details.

I hope you get good results from your bone scan on Friday.

CHJ- good to "see" you again. Man, I can't imagine trying to sell a house in the midst of what you're going thru. I know what you mean about responding to the "how are you?" question. That's what I love about the Jewels-we can whine if we want to and know that we will be understood and supported.

BTW, I remember seeing a pic of you in your wig and I thought you looked nice! I do understand the self-consciousness, tho... I never got used to my wig and resorted to hats and scarves instead.

Glad you and dh were able to unwind w/ a little sangria yesterday.

Dana- glad to see you're keeping your feisty spirit, girl!

CathyCa- this is the perfect time of year to celebrate life and renewal, isn't it? Happy New Year to you, too!

KathyL and Maz- be thinking of you two as you head to the chemo lounge tomorrow. Hope everything goes well for you both, and happy LAST chemo, Kathy!!

Time to go get my jammies on and get ready to watch the girls dance on DWTS. I'm on the fence w/ the guys... guess my fav. would be Jason Taylor-those football players make sexy dancers...

Wow-this post is really long... sorry ‘bout that. Catch you later, Gems!

Paula

Evening, jewels.  Hope you’re all well.  Here’s a switch – I’ve been taking care of dh!  He came down with a stomach flu??  Or something.  Vomiting, low-grade fever, the big “D” Sunday night, completely down and out yesty.  Feeling slightly better today, here’s hoping he’s coming out of it.
Another note, my office is holding a fund raising chili feed in my honor on Thursday.  My first thought was, oh, these people have better things to do than that!  Dh kindly made me see that I should let others help me (including family and friends), they want to help and it makes them feel so good when they can.  I realized I was being selfish.  Anyway, I work with really wonderful people.  They are so thoughtful and caring. 

CarolC – So good to see you back.  As many others have said, I so understand the overwhelming feeling, and wanting to stay away from everything bc!

Kimberly – Glad to see you back.  What a great idea to save all of the conversations.  Your comments about the “I can do it” thinking, resonated with me.  I, too, have a difficult time asking for help.  Hence my response about my co-workers.  I’ve been surprised at my extended family, how supportive and caring they’ve been.  Not that I thought they didn’t love me, but, it’s a funny feeling to have them be so “attentive”.  It’s been an awakening for me.  A pleasant one.  And, I’m learning to let more of them help.

Amy1971 – I’ll be joining you on Thursday for taxol #2.  I saw the np today, onco was on hospital duty, the rash I’d reported several days ago on the knuckles (and treated with Cortaid) has pretty much gone away, only to develop on my face, along the jaw bone on both sides.  She thinks it’s a combination of the taxol, and a change of face lotion.  But, she also noticed I got double the amount of decadron during tx, than I’d had with the four ac tx’s.  She’s going to check on the steroid dose with onco. In the mean time, np said to put Cortaid on it and switch back to the old face lotion. 

Vettegal – What is it with brothers, anyway??  My youngest bro did the same darn thing!  He and my mom were visiting with us, I modeled my wig for them, she wanted to see my bald head and he looked away.  Looked down, looked out the window, looked at the cat…anything but big baldy!  I didn’t say anything, just put my bandana back on.  He’s always been the shy one, and a little more sensitive.  In my case, I think my bro feels sad for me.

Paula – Glad to hear things are going well for you.  Are you having any of the tingling in the fingers?  I had some of that for about the first week after tx.  It’s improved a bit – just in time for the next tx. 

Julie – So relieved the migraine has gone away.  Rest is good…no matter how long!

Deb – Thanks for the note about making arrangement for parents, and other family members.  Maybe I’m the one who’s afraid to bring it up – not them!  I’ll gather my courage after tx’s over.

CHJ – Your dinner with dh sounds great…especially the sangria part!
Jenn – Loved your pics, your wig is really nice.  What an adorable grandson – you can see he’s the apple of your eye! 

D1 – Thanks for the laugh about dh and pruning.  I’m the trimmer in the family, I know how good it can feel to chop something to mere inches!  LOL  It’s almost therapeutic.

Carol – I’m impressed with you getting out on the course.  You go!

Sheshe – I, too, was thinking about all the years of drinking diet pop.  I don’t drink much pop anymore.  Glad to hear your uncle is doing well – they’ve got that heart transplant thing all figured out, don’t they?  Remember back in the day when these extraordinary surgeries simply didn’t exist?  Just like with bc, they’ve come a long, long way!

All for now.  Wishing all the Jewels a pleasant evening and a good rest.

Tina

Deb, I hope you feel better.

Julie - i dont know why I feel better then most; it must have to do with the weather because it is so pretty today!  I just keep going, and going!  I pray that I will continue to be like this thru out my whole treatment.  Ready for my third treatment on Friday and one more after that it will be a month of treatment and then I have 2 more months of it and then get ready for my PET Scan to say " ALL GONE - NED"    Wishful and hopeful thinking!!!!

  

OK, I'm here at the cancer center chemo suite and the computer wifi isn't the greatest.  I had a whole post typed out and it lost it when I tried to post.  So here goes again.  I'm here.. finishing up my last drug-- herceptin.  But soooo happy to report that my taxotere infusion went well with NO REACTION this time!  Yea!!  All the extra pre-meds must've done the trick.  So, I've read all the posts-- you're all in my thoughts and I know you'll get the support you need even if I don't comment today.  Good luck to those doing txs later this week.  By Friday I'll probably just be looking but will post when I can, or when the fog lifts.  I just had to post now since a major hurdle for me is done, and last chemo round will be done shortly!  Catch all you Jewels later

Hi Jewels!

KathyL, I'm here at my cancer center chemo suite too! Just started my last TC about 15 minutes ago. I'm so glad this is the last one but like you Therese, it's got to feel pretty "naked" and for me scary to wonder what it will be like the next 3 months til my oncologist wants to see me again. First he said - 4 months and I blanched so he said "ok, lets make it 3". Geesh, I feel so dependant. I guess I'll be distracted after tomorrow for a bit though when I see my plastic surgeon to schedule my exchange surgery - hopefully in April.

Maz, I'm so sorry to hear about your bff - how devastating. I don't know what I'd do if I heard that news about my bff Kathy - she lives in AZ but has been so concerned and supportive of me. She rarely goes to doctors herself though - she is very proactive about homeopathy but I do worry. I can only imagine how sad this makes you.

Kimberly, I didn't remember that it was you who made that comment but I wasn't offended. It was very gracious of you to bring it up and explain and I thank you. I hate when I say things that come out sounding differently than I meant them. We've got such a group of strong, sensitive and empowered women in our little Jewel club - I'm honored to be a part of it.

Deb, I had the same problem you did with the raw peeling on my hands on on one heel - it hurt like hell. My doc said it was hand/foot syndrome and also suggested I use bag balm on it. About a week ago, a layer of skin peeled off most of the bottom of my right foot - the heel and even sole and around my toes of that foot. Good luck!

Thank you so much for all the validating words of wisdom so many of you shared regarding my depression and some of your own. Julie, Jennifer, Amy, Cathy, SheShe, Carol, Dana, D1, Tina,  CHJ, Paula and I'm sure my chemo brain is causing me to forget some  of you. I so appreciate the understanding and support you give me. I can see that I'm coming out of the funk I was in. But sure enough, while I was getting ready to leave this morning - Good Morning America had Maalak Rock (Chris Rock's wife) promoting her work with the Triple Negative Cancer Foundation which Robin Roberts admitted she has too.While I'm glad they're heightening awareness, they are promoting this so women become aware of how limited we are in our treatment options. Chemo is our only choice. Believe me,  I know how lucky I am that I didn't have node involvement and many of you have much more challenging treatment plans than mine. We all know feelings are neither right or wrong - they just are and fortunately I'm feeling more optimistic every day.

Happy Spring tomorrow to us all...it's been a tough winter, hasn't it?

Hugs to all,

Carol

CarolC, chemo isn't your only treatment option, there is/was also surgery and radiation. Remember that there are women alive today who only had mastectomy as a treatment option so many years ago. Even triple negs.

They still don't know for how long therapies like Herceptin and/or Avastin may keep cancer recurrence away. Being Her2/Neu positive means you have the most aggressive cancer, even more so than triple negative. Is it mitigated "enough" by the potential of Herceptin? Maybe. Maybe not.

As I said many pages ago, there is no "good" or even "better" cancer to have. It all sucks. Each of us can look at our Dx and choose to see positive aspects, and choose to see negative aspects. Getting cancer wasn't in our control. How we deal with it, our attitude toward it, and what we do going forward, IS in our control. 

Herceptin may save me, but I'm not expecting it to be my magic bullet. Better food quality, avoidance of harsh household chemicals, and regular exercise are what I'm really counting on to keep cancer at bay in the future.

Good Afternoon Jewels,
OK, so this one is kicking me in the butt!!!!!  I’m usually feeling a lot better by now, but I literally have so little energy I can’t stand it!

CHJ- (((HUGS))) no need to apologize for being AWOL!!!  We all have our own ways of dealing with this and feeling down being ½ way through is sooooo normal, my blue Jewel…just look at all the Jewels who were blue before you at the half way point and remember, you propped them up!!!!  That is what it is all about…leaning on the one who is strong because when you’re strong, someone will need to lean on you.

WhooHooo on tasting and liking the Sangria.  Bummer your gal butchered the wig, but maybe it isn’t as bad as you think it is when others see it.  What does the dh think?

I know that must be stressful trying to sell the house now and making two mortgage payments, I assume. Any chance of getting renters and re-listing when the market bounces back eventually?  A rental is a pretty good tax write off.  Just a thought.

The “How are you?” question is a tough one… it depends on who it is.  If it is someone not in my close knit group, I just say, Today is a good day…or I’ve felt better. For my friends, I know they really want to know, but I limit the conversation to a very limited time.  I’m beating bc,and it isn’t who I am, so I don’t want to define myself by it.
Of course, on days I’m feeling like pond scum, or peat in a moor, I must remind myself that this is not going to last forever!!!!

Dana- I’m so glad you’re feeling good!!! 

Deb- Did you see what kind of a semi it was? I'm right there with you gal.  Hang in there.

CathyCa- I love that you have a Persian Market and those vivid colors and smells and the signs of spring all sound so wonderful.  I agree that the end of chemo is a huge deal and that spring and renewal should be celebrated!!!! So Happy New Year to you and all our Jewels, too.

Julie- Hope your day at school went well today.

Paula- I just watched the Dancing With the Stars episode from last night, too.  I love that show.

Carol- Well, I’ll bet those squirrels got a giggle at your ‘nut’ on the ole noggin’.  Those head bumps really hurt, especially when you are truly and totally surprised by the event!!!!  Hope you washed it really well and put some antibiotic cream on it, just in case there was even the smallest knick…don’t want an infection.

Tinalee- Sorry about the dh being ill, but glad he was able to help you see the light of allowing your colleagues to help you in the only way they know how.  Good for you!!!!

You hit it right on the head…sorry Carol…with your insight about your bro being sad for you and not knowing how to react. Seeing us bald is a HUGE reminder to many friends and family members of the BIG C, and whatever that means to them, including their own mortality.  It’s a reminder they are helpless in making it go away for you and that hurts them, so if they look away, it’s OK.  They aren’t trying to hurt us…they are coping with it the best way they can with the tools they have…and who among us was given a guide book on how to handle bc?

MAZ (((((HUGS)))) I was moved to tears about the news about your bff.  I know that my words have no power to help you make heads or tails of this right now, so I will be here quietly listening and being present in your moment.


D1- Well said words of comfort to MAZ!!!! And how sad about your friend with colon cancer. Glad you’ve taken that situation, and your own, and used it to remind others to take their annual exams.

Therese- Oh, it’s is totally OK to listen to the side that says, I’m going to whine to the Jewels about this because they will totally get it!!!!  And we do.  It is so normal after being in tx and then nothing to be hyperaware.  Allow yourself to ask…when I exercised like this before, was I sore?  Did it go away in just one day?  You will certainly feel twinges from surgery even now as nerves take a long time to heal as will any tendons stretched for lymph removal.  Be patient with yourself and concentrate on the fact that you are exercising and taking care of yourself.

Turn your unknown into your known…right now at this moment is known. That’s the focus.

CarolC- Congrats on your last tx and thank you for your kind words about my foot in mouth incident.  I saw the GMA interview as well and didn’t know about the foundation.  And yeah for Spring tomorrow!!!!  Let’s hope it brings sunshine to you all!!!!

Kris- Thanks for the article link. I had already read this during my massive radiation and HT suppression research marathon over the past few weeks…well, not last week or this week as I’ve been in the fog.

LJ13- You are right that no cancer is good cancer…it all sucks, but we do have control over how we choose to deal with it, right?  Even when we're blue...we have the choice to feel blue as we should honor those feelings, and then suddenly, we see a light and we're able to move forward again!!!!

OK, that took forever to read and post and it wasn't even that much compared to yesterday. Oh well, it is what it is!!!! 

SIS Kimberly 

Sis Kimberly, I hope you get your energy back soon!  And thanks so much for your kind words.  You really do have a way of putting things in perspective!!  I'm doing a lot better today.  I guess we all need a little time occasionally to be guest of honor at our own little pity party.  I've been dealing with it all pretty well, generally, but everything sort of converged at once, and it just all seemed too much.  Thanks to everyone for "listening".  It helps a lot.

Maz, I also add my prayers for your friend.  That's a tough thing to go through under normal circumstances, let alone when you are fighting your own battle. It seems that lots of us are having to deal with other crises during this time.  But somehow we do find the strength.  We are strong women, and I'm proud to be a Jewel.  

I love that spring starts tomorrow.  I love that my daffodils and other flowers are starting to pop up.  Spring really is a time of hope!!

CHJ 

My oh my, lots of supportive talk today ...

Watching my tivo'd Dancing ... just saw Kristi dance, wow, had a feeling she would be good.

So ... somebody is turning 38 tomorrow, Happy B Day to our Lil Warrior Dana on Thurs.   Make it a good one!!!

Dana, you asked about your hair, did you get info from your onc, as to the drugs your on and what to expect?  Mine said possible hair loss, but probable thinning.  Maybe you'll be one of the lucky ones!

Hadn't heard about Tylenol being on the list of drugs that are not good.  I know that I'm supposed to avoid Ibuprofen, but havn't been told that Tylenol is out.  What's left???

Deb102307, glad you popped in, its always good to see that your laying low, but still hanging in there.  Always know that you don't have to be a chatty cathy to just say "hello".

CathyCa, when you mentioned citrus trees in bloom, aren't they the ones that have such a great fragrance.  I  look forward to that smell when we go to Arizona, will hopefully be smelling some blooms of my own on Sat.

Although many will be ending their txts soon, so many of us still have quite a few more months of fun to look forward to.  Each is a milestone, no more chemo ... the start of something else, like hair growth!!!

Tina, hoping that your dh is feeling better, and glad to see that you've avoided the dreaded flu yourself.

How cool of your co-workers to throw a chili feed in your honor.  I love hearing the stories of support that so many have shared. 

Maz, I'm not sure what to say that would ease your pain about your bff.  I could only think what that would be like if it we're happening to me.  It is so special to have a friend for such a long time, (my bf and I have known each other since we we're 7).  Your friend will always know and appreciate the bond you have had for so many years.

Its so unfortunate that so many of us have had family and friends enduring (and some losing the battle), with this friggin' disease.  I must say I really liked D1's words about trying to turn something so devastating into a positive in anyway we can.  My thoughts are definitely with you during this difficult time.

Therese, hey we're the gems we are because of every one of us.  When some are down, others are up, and the feelings of each are so important to share.  I think its great that your on the exercise band wagon, just don't overdo ... baby steps gal!

I must admit I am a little extra edgy about lil aches/pains, freckles(or moles as the dermatologist says), I think this is probably pretty normal behavior for us all.

D1, I'm in envy, lunch and dinner out.  Glad I made the "humangus" meatloaf last night, dinner for the dh is in the fridge ... can we say leftovers!  Sounds like your doing pretty darn good in comparison to a few weeks ago, question ... did they say that there is a certain time to wait between chemo and rads? 

Hitting send, still not smart enough to type in word first ... back in a second ... 

Kathy, got a hoot out of your post from your bar stool at the chemotini lounge today.  Looks like CarolC had the same idea.  Who picked up the tab today?

I'm thinking with all that you did prior to today that you should be in good space to kick back and let the fog roll in for the next couple of days.  Hoping that it lifts for you prior to Easter weekend.

CarolC, gotta love the onc center with wi-fi, sorry I missed a shout out to you today, hoping that your se's stay at bay. 

Kris, thanks for stopping in and giving some info on the rads front, I'm getting more interested all the time as rad time will be here in a few months.

LJ, I loved some great words of wisdom in a few shout outs today, especially "how we deal with our situation is what we have our in  control".   So true, but sometimes hard to shove into one's head.

Kimberly, lets hope that your up to snuff by the weekend.  Knowing you, you'll be going strong shortly, just a little longer than you'd like.  No pond scum for you gal!  That one cracked me up. 

Did you get your Hanging ... book?  Just to pass on that there is more to the story if you hadn't seen Kathy's post (you probably did), its at foxpress.com, you definitely have to be in the right "mood" so to speak to read it.  I'm now snooping at a book called "Its My Ovaries Stupid", I was kinda hoping that it would talk a little about total removal, I'll let you know and if its worthy I can pass it on to you.

Happy to report, no blood on the knoggin, was pretty damn sore this morning when I washed my "head" in the shower (didn't want to say the "hair" word). 

chj, this is the best place for a pity party, I know we have all had our own parties, just some of us didn't invite others to attend.  You know that we can all relate, whereas family and friends get it, but not to the extent needed at times.

Vettegal, who wouldn't want a Vetteguy!  Sounds like you have your own gem of a guy.  As far as sleeping, yeah to your good nights sleep, I think if I didn't have such a dry mouth which causes me to drink water, which makes me pee, which makes wake up, I'd sleep good too.  Can't wait for that 8 hr sleep myself!

Good ridden's to Aunti Flo, lets bury her, ya think?

Sending vibes your way for the sister's biopsy to have good results to share.

Jenn, The dh wasn't to happy with me after hearing I had been mowing and really didn't like the report that I had weedeated too.  I think that as others have shared, its hard to let things go, and rely on others for help.  I have friends that want to plant my annuals this year (I do a ton of them), but being the picky type "A" gal, I think I'll be more worn out with the stress of somebody else doing it than if I would be doing it myself.  Somehow I need to ease up and give in, I know deep down that it is important for them to be able to help in anyway that they can.  I guess that rambling is my way to tell myself to slow down a bit.  I'm pooped tonight, which is probably more due to yesterday than todays activities.

Wow a son who's a softie, somebody will be a lucky one to catch him.  What a special gift to you that he calls on a daily basis.

sheshe, okay, beware that I'll be picking your brain in the wedding coord. area.  I agree with somebody who said its probably a good outlet  to have something so special to put your mind towards.

Okay, finished Dancing ... Stars, I liked Marisa as well.  She definitely has some spunk.  The dh just got home, now we're on to watching American Idol tivo'd as well, time for some Cream of Wheat, should be having a good day (first day no meds after 14 days), but the ol' tummy is just a little out of whack once again. 

Good evening to all,

Carol

Maz, first off the doctors dont know shit, excuse my french.  I have friends that have lung cancer and it spreaded to the abdomen and still beating Cancer three years.  I also have this list from another BC.org friend that she sent me all these survivors that beat Cancer in brain, liver, lungs and etc.  If its in Gods plans then she will be around for a long time.  Joel Osteens (preacher on tv) mother had Liver Cancer and they told her she had less then a year and that was 21 years ago - HELLO!!!!   I have liver cancer now, and I refuse to believe I do and I refuse to allow it to destroy my life!  Tell your friend get up, enjoy life and have a positive attitude regardless what she is feeling and thinking - in the bible Job was tested and he maintained his faith and got 10 times more - Never give up!  Just like Maxwell the coffee "Until the last drop!"  My Doctor doesnt think I will beat this neither but I KNOW I WILL, I FEEL IT IN MY SOUL!!!  Tell her to claim her healing in the Name of Jesus!!!

I will keep her in my prayers and remember 2 years can be 20 years he just forgot to realize he is not God even though they want to be! 

Ms Therese - Dont claim anything is wrong, that is what the Devil does - he allows negative thoughts and feelings to come into your mind so it can destroy your body.  He (devil) knows our weakness and that is worrying about Cancer coming back - dont allow him to.  Just know your body is recouping from all it went thru and you are fine - cause I know you are fine!  We need to stop worrying about tomorrow and worry about today and dont worry about things you cant control!  You are a survivor and dont you ever forget that!  So get that little negative thoughts out of your pretty little head and keep being positive!  One more thing Sweetie, we all have our days and trust me I have mine too, so feel free to let loose here that is what we are here for!  God bless you and I will keep you in my prayers.

Have a great night ladies, just got out of school and have to get up at 5 am for clinical (on my bday), and then get bloodwork for my next  chemo appt on Friday!  Cant wait - Chemo time!!!!! Hit me with your best shot Chemo, and kill them buggers

God bless, and HUGS,

Dana