Starting Chemo in May 07

CindyKS- sorry that you scans did not come out as hoped.  Your spirit is still AMAZING as it has been all along.  You are most definitely my hero.  I truly believe that your fighting spirit will help you!!  By the time my aunt was diagnosed with colon cancer, it had spread all through her liver.  She put up a good long fight for many many years.

As all the others have said, big hugs to you.  I admire your spirit and know that we are all thinking of you often!!

Virginia

LOL I'm not sure I even took government.  I took the basic classes because I hated history.  Now I'm really interested in it. LOL figures.

I started the new chemo regimine today.  I'm feeling ok just tired.  I will have it every 3 weeks but the Gemcitabin will be on the 8th day so I will have it again next Friday.  They count chemo day as day 1.  I'll keep you posted on how I'm doing.

Thanks for all the hugs and support.  It really means alot to me.

Traci I would love to come visit you.  85 sounds wonderful when its been below 40 here for like forever.

{{{{hugs back}}}}

CindyKS

uh oh...i said s*it....

Hey Traci!  I'm around at least...how ya doin? 

Got my first guitar, now I have to learn how to play!  (One of my post-cancer goals is to sing and make music, because the vibration of song in my chest seems like a healing thing!)  Other than that, I'm in tonight because last night I actually went out!  Heard music, celebrated, etc., stayed up way too late etc.  And ended up with my mast. side arm hurting like heck.  One drink, that's all I had.....too much for my system I guess! ....) 

KS....I looked in today's paper to see what the temp was in KS .... I just got it!!!!!!!!!!!!! Cindy Kansas!!!! LOL. (or maybe poor Traci...)

: - ) duh. Anyway, it said the high was like 40. burrrrrrrrrr I'm sure that feels like an Indian summer to our girl Mandy but it's colder than you know what here! I'm so glad your doing ok on the chemo. I think about you often...."am I going to be able to handle it as well as she has?).....Love you girl, let me know. I wasn't just saying that to be nice. I mean it with all my being. If you need some warmth and sun....my house is where you need to come!  I spent literally....all day long outside on my balcony. Read the paper, drilled my roommate on a test she has coming up, ironed some laundry (yes, I brought my ironing board outside....it was too nice to be inside) had a girlfriend over and talked and listened to music, it was a nice day.

Come 'on down!!

Amanda.........that is awesome that you bought a guitar! I bought my 14 yr old niece Kate a guitar and she's become to love it. She always loved to sing so I thought it would be a good gift. She's actually getting pretty good. You go girl!!

Hugs you guys.

KS you hang in there girl. We are counting on you!!!

Traci

Traci- you never fail to amuse!!  Please tell me you know that CindyMN is from Minnesota and that me, VirginiaNJ is from New Jersey!

Cindy- we are having MN weather here in NJ---my temp reader in my car said 13 degrees.  Weathermen in NYC are saying single digits...  Brrrrr.  I'm not used to this weather.  Heck, last week we got up to 60 degrees!!

Thanks all for the kind words RE my Dad.  He had one good day this weekend.  Mostly bad days.  It breaks my heart b/c he knows...and he apologizes...  I leave the hospital and sob the whole way home.  Emotionally, I am spent.  I think I have cried more now than I did my whole BC journey.  It's just been awful...

Hope you all are hanging in there and have nice Valentine's Days.  It's one of my most (if not THE most) reviled holidays.  (Guess it's b/c I don't have a Valentine).

Amanda--- thank you for that cyber hug!  It helps.  I feel like a coo-coo bird...like I am totally cracking up.  I basically just go to the hospital and work and that's about it...  Tuesday nights is still my one outlet...bowling.  Last week we went to the Irish Pub for a beer(s) and some greasy food.  So, that was a moment of distraction.

I just a new Pedometer today.  I am hoping that it helps motivate me to walk.  I used to walk at lunch, but abandoned that when I started my treatment and started wearing the wig (didn't want to walk in the heat and summer with the wig).  We have some very beautiful homes behind my office so the neighborhood is beautiful to walk through (multi-million dollar homes).  You just have to dodge the multitudes of landscapers!  LOL

I have been playing my Nintendo DS like crazy.  I also love Janet Evanovich, but am having a hard time getting into the book I currently have out of the library.  When I get home from the hospital I am so tired that I just usually vegetable in front of the boob tube...

Anyhow, thanks again for the support.  It means all the world to me!!

Virginia

ps.  Glad to hear that your mom is doing well!  I was actually thinking of her the other day wondering...just never "verbalized" it!!

Traci- a pedometer measures your steps...  The fitness guru's say you are supposed to walk 10,000 steps per day...a minimum of about 3 miles.  UGH.  So, I hope that this will motivate me...

On the Nintendo, I am obsessed with the Sims 2 Castaways- I have a ship wrecked girl and I have to feed her and clothe her and keep her happy.  I am now trying to finish the game 100%.  I am up to 89%, so I am close.  I also play brain strengthening games - Brain Age 2, Brain Boost, and another one I can't remember (better play those games more).  No Pac-Man...that's a little too vintage!!  LOL  I have way too many games for my DS and I just ordered 2 more.  Keeps me out of trouble, although it does prevent me from reading, which is a bad thing...

You make me smile...thank you for that...  How close are you to DisneyWorld??

Virginia

Alright....I get it...Now, I've got you Cindy's straight.

: - ) Aunt Ginny, I am about 1 1/2 hours from Disney. 60 minutes if I haul ass and there's no traffic. Why, you goin'????

What's a guru?????

Hugs,

Traci

ps Can I just vent about my roommate a second? She is making me crazy. We live on a small lake, most of the time she is saying "come outside with me!" Tonight, she got home from work, I'm relaxing in the living room watching a funny movie (rare) and she proceeds to have a mile long conversation with her new boyfriend 15 feet from me!!!!!!!!

GAWD.................. my fuse is so short with her. And, when she lived in Detroit and we only saw each other two or three times a year, here, there or in Vegas...we were the best of friends! I'm having a prob with the 24/7 thing.

She is waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay messier than I am. I'm sort of a neat freak. She let's her dog go into the pool every time she take him outside so....when he comes back in, he tracks mud and she "drys" him with a towel in about 4 seconds. We have no less than 4 towels right now as I speak hanging on chairs and stuff outside! argh....................................

o.k. Thank you for letting me vent.

Hugs again, Traci

pss I'm gonna copy and paste this into the singles and drinkin' thread cuz .... I need a drink!!!

LOL- got messed up with the cut and paste, but you'll get the picture... 

Traci...Very funny!!! And sooooo true!!!!

Hope everyone's doing OK.  LeeAnne...I forgot to mention how cute I think your "new" hair looks!  Sure wish mine was straight!   It's curly and my "ahem" hair is straight...that beats everything!!!

Really have your in my prayers, CindyKS.  You have so much to go through...and many of us are over the worst.  We love you and care about you.  I believe all will be well!   

Several of you have "parent" concerns...I'm thinking of you as you care for them.  My folks are living in my town...Mom has COPD and emphysema  from smoking forever.  She doesn't now, but the damage is done.  She can't go anywhere because she's afraid she'll catch something...and really get sick.  Dad active, but doesn't do much now because of Mom.  It's really sad...that's why I want to stay active, exercise, eat well...so my hubbie and I can enjoy a long retirement...and travel! 

A close friend of mine was just diagnosed with gall bladder cancer...they say it's really bad and not much you can do for it.   The doc sent in her records to see if maybe it could be ovary cancer instead...much more curable.  I really feel for her.

Take care everyone...Lorain 

Liz got implants??????

I'm so confused.

Loraine it's nice to see your pretty face.

No, I still HATE my implants. And nipples, at this point, my attitude is why bother.

Hugs girl.

Traci

Happy Valentine's to all of you and especially you single girls.  I would send you all flowers if I had your addresses but I just thought of it this minute. 

My exchange surgery is April 1. Hope I don't get April fooled! <grin> I can't wait to get a softer boob and lose my chemo port.

--CindyMN

CindyMN - you still have your chemo port?  Does it have to be flushed monthly, or is that only to keep it in use?  Yikes.  I had that sucker yanked as soon as I could, and it hurt for two weeks but then I was so much happier.  I bet you can't wait to get it out!

Quick update on me: the U/S of the lumpy painful armpit revealed a simple fluid filled cyst - NOT the big C, woo hoo!  (sp? whoo hoo?) -- but it also showed "edema." 

As in "lymphedema." 

*&#*&^*&$^(#*&@(*#&amp;($*&(#*&@(. 

(do I even know a swear word that long? lol...)

So my assessment that my side was swollen and that I have a cyst was correct.  So now I'm going to go after the other things that I know and have been dismissed on...such as my clavicle hurting, the side of my neck hurting etc. etc.  

I have two shots at getting those things assessed this week - one yearly f/u appt with the breast surgeon and a 3-month f/u with the oncologist.  Wish me luck!! 

Any questions that you would ask?  I need help prepping, I am sooooo tired of thinking about cancer....