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Sandra1957
Sandra1957 Member Posts: 1,701
edited June 2014 in Life After Breast Cancer
Two years ago today...
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  • Sandra1957
    Sandra1957 Member Posts: 1,701
    edited February 2008

    ... at exactly this time, 4:15 am, I was taking my last shower with all of my body parts intact.  I was surprisingly calm.  Normally I am a ball of nerves and anxiety, but on this morning I could really, truly feel all the love and prayers coming to me from all over.  I said goodbye to my breasts (forgot to take a picture, darn it!) and went to the hospital to drop them off.  I am such a different person from the one I was pre-BC.  Some of me is the same, but a lot of me is different.  I'm not quite sure yet if I like me better now or then.  Always a work in progress.

    Thanks for listening.  Thanks for being here.  Thanks for being you.

    lini

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  • iodine
    iodine Member Posts: 4,289
    edited February 2008

    Hi lini---amazing how we feel this far out, isn't it?  I am so happy for you to be a DUCE, 2 years and counting for the next 40 or so.

    Congrats, kiddo.  I like you just as you are!

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  • nosurrender
    nosurrender Member Posts: 2,019
    edited February 2008

    (((LINI)))
    You made it two years. That is great.

    Because of your experience you were the one who got me through my experience with mast/expanders, etc.

    You were so gracious and giving to me. You helped me more than I can ever express.

    I pray all the good karma you have spread since that day two years ago comes back to you 100 fold.

    Love,

    g 

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  • Kitzycat
    Kitzycat Member Posts: 5
    edited February 2008

    My 2yr. bi-lat mast. anniversary is coming up in March.  I completely understand the comments on how much we have changed.  I still do not feel "normal".  I still miss my "sensations"!  The numbness is still strange.  I know I look normal to the world with my clothes on.  But I still have a problem looking at myself naked in the mirror.  The scars, a constant reminder. Everyone else in my life has gotten over it and think I should be too.  Easier said than done.  I have a lot of turmoil inside me that no one knows about. No time to work it out. 

    BUT, I know it is better to be here the way I am now than not to be here at all!          Cathy

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  • Sandra1957
    Sandra1957 Member Posts: 1,701
    edited February 2008

    Iodine-Thanks for the congrats!

    NS-You define gracious and giving.  Thank you for your kind words always.

    Kitzycat-Yep, better here than not!!  I do occasionally have those "normal" old feelings where I totally forget for a bit all that's happened in the past two years.  Hopefully they'll begin to last longer and longer, but I am so afraid to let my guard down and let myself breathe.

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  • JoyRebecca
    JoyRebecca Member Posts: 787
    edited February 2008

    Lini,

    Congrats on 2 yrs and hoping someday you can write,"50 yrs ago today....

    XX

    Joy

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  • Jorf
    Jorf Member Posts: 498
    edited February 2008

    Right there with you - just a coupla weeks behind on the surg.

    I mostly like myself a lot more now than before. But that changes at times.

    It was nice to be more oblivious before.

    I still sometimes look at myself and say, "How did that happen?"

    Congrats to this 2 year group! 

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  • Isabella4
    Isabella4 Member Posts: 2,166
    edited February 2008

    Congrats lini on 2 years .Its a great feeling. Many more anniversaries to you.

    Isabella.

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  • VickiTN
    VickiTN Member Posts: 361
    edited February 2008

    lini - Congrats on your two year anniversary! Here's to many, many more!

    hugs,

    vicki

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  • tawyna1
    tawyna1 Member Posts: 273
    edited February 2008

    hi

    congratulations on your two year anniversary.

     hugs 

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  • tawyna1
    tawyna1 Member Posts: 273
    edited February 2008

    hi

    congratulations on your two year anniversary.

     hugs 

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  • grubby
    grubby Member Posts: 23
    edited February 2008

    Yeah, time to celebrate!  Love ya

    Grubby

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  • Sandra1957
    Sandra1957 Member Posts: 1,701
    edited February 2008

    Hey g-friend, grubby!!  It's so good to see you around.  Love ya, too. 

    Finally, had the "cherries" unveiled yesterday.  They're pretty cool!!  I don't focus on the big ol' red scars anymore.

    lini

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