Jan 2008--Ain't it Great?

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  • Determined1
    Determined1 Member Posts: 806
    edited December 2007

    Diane--yuyu and I both have our first tx on the 27th, too!  We're both doing tc 4x.  Since I haven't started, yet, I can't give you the blow by blow, but, like you, I'm ready to get this show on the road.

    I got my hair colored today.  I know, waste of money.  But I want to go down with a smile on my face.  My stylist is great.  She didn't cut it today.  I have an appointment on Dec. 30 (I hope I feel well enough) to go in and have it cut to a short bob.  Sort of my in-between hair.  Then she has agreed to come to my house to shave me on Jan. 8 or 9, depending on our schedules.  She told me to get my wig before the 30th and give it to her so she can style it for me.  She also suggested that I get a wig a bit longer so I can continue to go in and get my hair cut while I'm bald and we'll just keep changing the styles on the wig.  Sounded like a way to feel normal to me.  (Holy sh*t, this is sounding so real all of a sudden!!!).

    Gotta get on my Christmas cards--I can't believe Christmas is a week away.

    Hey, Sharon, how are you doing?  Please post when you're up to it.

    D1

  • Determined1
    Determined1 Member Posts: 806
    edited December 2007

    Hey JJ Sista, Vettegal, did you get hammered by the storm?  We just got wind (gusts up to 50mph), and a little rain.  A disappointment as far as storms go.

    D1

  • vettegal
    vettegal Member Posts: 287
    edited December 2007

    we had the winds and some blowing snow. only about a inch or two! we had some freezing rain on top of that! (ouch)

    Hey Jewels, I am having some doubt on the chemo crap. I am looking at my % with that kettering thing 12-15% is my number and I am having the surgery this week. Tamoxifen cuts my rate by 50% and the chemo only adds another 1-2% to my cure rate...maybe i am just getting scared...i  need to know what this next path report is on my nodes...thats it i am scaredFrown

  • sheebas
    sheebas Member Posts: 19
    edited December 2007

    Hi everyone,

     I had a holiday planned with my husband to go to Arizona and California in March and April with the holiday trailer and now chemo starts right after the new year.  I'm tempted to delay the chemo for a few  weeks and go somewhere warm .  I live in northern BC Canada. 

    Is there anyone else with mets starting chemo? They say it doesn't work on bones very well anyway but talked me into it because i have somd liquid in one of my lungs. I've had mets for 2 years and been using hormonals. tried 3 but none have worked.  this will be my first chemo if i don't chicken out.  I think i have been dealing with the mets very well mentally for the last 2 years, making the most out of every day, and using some denial but now i feel like I'm right back at the beginning - terrified. 

    Chemo is the thing I've been really dreading knowing it would come some day. I feel like its a giant step closer to nothing left to do for me. I'm afraid of the chemo too. It may not work and then leave me weakened to fight other mets.  I feel fine right now. nothing hurts. I hate to sign up for something that will spoil my quality of life.  I'd like to hear from someonelse with mets who found it bennificial or not.

    thanks

    Judy

  • Determined1
    Determined1 Member Posts: 806
    edited December 2007

    Let's see, Vettegal, you're going in for surgery 4 days before Christmas and then facing chemo and you wonder why you're scared?  We're all scared.  We're all scared, cuz like Judy says, it's the last frontier in beating cancer.  What if it doesn't work?  What if the se's are too much to bear?  Will the benefit outweigh the risks?  Sh*t, I'm signed up to start and I'm in total denial that I'm actually going to do it.  Yeah, I'm scared to death.

    Even though my Oncotype score is an 11, and even though my Ki67 is at 5%, I'm going to take a deep breath (hopefully not so deep I pass out) and put one foot in front of the other and do it.  I'm going to be 50 in less than 2 months, so I have a lot of living to do.  My tumor was 1.8cm--over the comfort zone of less than 1 cm to avoid chemo and the kicker is, I have micromets on one lousy node.  That either means my surgeon was sloppy and re-used the scalpel, or my cancer wants to spread.  You know what?  I'm not taking a chance.  Even though chemo only gives me 3-4 percentage points of an advantage of no recurrence, I'll take 3-4%.  I just hope and pray that I don't screw my body up for something down the road by pumping it full of poison.  But, I'll have to deal with that then.  There have been many years of research showing chemo really does help.  I choose to believe it.  (Remind me of this in two weeks' time.)

    Once they have the path on your anx node dissection, you'll have more information to help you with your decision.  And don't let anyone hurry you into your decision.  Once all the reports say clean margins and nodes, you can take some comfort in the fact that your cancer has been surgically removed.  Chemo is your insurance policy.  Take your time to decide whether or not you want to buy it.  It took me something like 6 weeks to come to my decision.  Get other opinions, anything, to help you get the information you need.  Whatever you decide, I truly believe two things 1) you will make the right decision for you, and 2) you cannot make the wrong decision.

    Be peaceful, Vettegal (and it's okay to be scared--you're in excellent company).

    D1

  • Determined1
    Determined1 Member Posts: 806
    edited December 2007

    Hey Judy,

    I don't feel completely qualified to answer your question as I'm not in the same situation.  You may want to try the conversation for those with mets.  But I do want to weigh in on the waiting issue.  Once my doc had my hot little signature on the papers approving chemo, he was ready to start the next day.  My husband and I have planned to take our girls to NYC for a show and to window shop for a couple of days this weekend.  I told my doc, no way was I going to start chemo before Christmas and ruin the trip to NYC.  I've been waiting several months since my last surgery to even decide to take chemo and a couple more weeks wasn't going to hurt anyone.  He agreed and I start on Dec. 27. 

    Sooo...  Take the trip to somewhere warm.  Enjoy your spousal unit.  Let the sun relax you (can I come???).  My 2 cents.

    D1

  • Kara
    Kara Member Posts: 296
    edited December 2007

    Just popping in from the October 2007 group.  I had a bi-lateral mastectomy with tram flap reconstruction in June 2007 and was supposed to start Chemo 6-8 weeks afterwards.  I was delayed 1st due to needing to have my thyroid removed and then again because I had to have a tooth pulled.

    I just finished 4 rounds of Taxotere and Cytoxan 3 weeks apart on December 3rd.  I felt pretty good throughout.  Some constipation (get peri-colace) and fatigue.  Some foods didn't quite taste the same.  I seemed to have tolerated the TC well.  I was also on disability from work during that time so I was able to get plenty of rest. 

    It was scary not knowing what to expect.  I didn't know how I'd feel during the treatment or afterwards.  I really didn't feel much during the tx, but my arm and hand did get cold (take a soft small blanket with you in case you need to wrap your arm up for warmth).  I felt about the same during and after each tx.

    I just want to stress to you ... LISTEN to your body and get REST when you need it.  Don't try to do too much too early.

    Keep a count-down of your treatments going.  It's nice when you can start checking off each treatment and can see the last one coming into sight.

    Here is a link to some helpful tips for dealing with the side effects:

    http://community.breastcancer.org/topic/69/conversation/478386?page=1

    As for wigs, my insurance company said they didn't cover a wig.  I had my Dr write out a prescription for a Hair Prothesis and the Wigs store wrote Hair Prothesis on the receipt.  I submitted a claim to my insurance and they paid for the whole thing!!  Even though they said they don't cover wigs.  Submit a claim for it in case they will pay for it.

  • deb102307
    deb102307 Member Posts: 248
    edited December 2007

    I definitely agree with the being scared bit but I guess I took the route that I was going to use everything that was available to fight this.  If it means I have to be miserable for a while, I will fight through it.  (of course, I haven't started anything yet).  I am tired of waiting to get started.  I had the surgery, I'm having the scans and then I hope I can get started, so I can get finished. 

    When I was first diagnosed, I read everything I could find.  Then I realized that maybe too much information wasn't a good thing.  I start doubting myself and I have always been one to trust my gut.  So now, I rely on trusted sites and what I hear from people here that have been through it.  There is no information like first hand and everyone here is so good about letting others know and no one else gets judgemental about individual decisions.  We all have to fight our own way but with the support that we find here, it is a little easier.

    Sorry for the ramble but I am only at the beginning of my roller coaster ride.Surprised

  • SISKimberly
    SISKimberly Member Posts: 762
    edited December 2007

    Hey Jewels,

    Haven't posted in a few days...we have grown...how wonderful to have so much support as we start this journey. Hope you're still feeling well Sharon after being our first chemo-girl. Hey, I can see the magazine cover now-instead of Cosmo- ;-)



    I see my oncologist on Thursday, so I imagine I'll get the big start date information-when to do orientation etc. What's a MUGA test?



    Sunshine, I coined the phrase SIS(Sisters In Survival) when I first got on the boards after a gal explained to me what some of the acronyms being used meant-a whole new lingo- because I wanted to add to the acronym library. My students think I'm whacky for acronyms...but it helps me remember things, and they are easier to spell and to say than the full on version.



    I will be sure to log in daily to this thread and check in on you all.



    Off to dinner....my father is cooking tonight...he's in his 70s and a breast cancer survivor.



    Your SIS,

    Kimberly

  • Determined1
    Determined1 Member Posts: 806
    edited December 2007

    Goodness, Deb, no one can ramble like me!  Not to worry.  Don't you get some results this week?  (Haven't started chemo, yet, but already blaming all mind-farts on it.)  Keep us posted.

    Thanks for the tips, Kara.  When I went for my chemo orientation they told me to ask my doc for a rx for a cranial prosthesis for insurance purposes.  I think they should just write the darn script up when they give you all the anti-nausea scripts.  It would be good for a laugh when everything is so serious!  Gotta get that script.  I have to face the music soon and buy me a wig (course, I'll put that off for as long as I can--still some denial working in there).

    D1

  • Determined1
    Determined1 Member Posts: 806
    edited December 2007

    SIS Kimberly--You sure you don't work for the federal government?  They're always looking for folks good with acronyms...

    D1

    Oh, good luck on Thursday.  I didn't even read the paper when I signed my life away and I've always been one to read the boiler-plate whenever I buy a car or house.  Go figure.  MUGA test checks to see how your heart will handle chemo.  Good if you have heart history.  I think those getting adriamycin (sp?) also get the MUGA test as that particular drug can be hard on the heart.

  • Donna1955
    Donna1955 Member Posts: 24
    edited December 2007

    Hi Everyone,

    I start chemo on Jan 3

    Its called dose dense Chemo because of growth rate of mine

    80% pretty scary

    But my blood work came back negative and my PET/Ct scan came back negative....

    4 treatments of a/c every two weeks

    then a three week break

    4 treatments of taxol every two weeks

    Had my port put in on December 6.....

    Good Luck to all and I will be posting as soon as I start my chemo

    Happy Holidays to all

  • KathyL
    KathyL Member Posts: 534
    edited December 2007

    Hi Jewels!  I'm back at work today for a half day.  Tomorrow I get my MUGA scan.  I'm getting T/C for chemo, but i think they're doing the scan b/c I'm also doing a year of herceptin which can mess with your heart.  Great...

    Vettegal:  We're all scared and panicked.  It's OK... somehow we'll get through this together:)  I'm only T1a with no nodes involved and doing chemo soon.  I'm freaked out about what it will do to me, and whether I even need it (I could be fine right now, 85% chance I'm cured now as we speak).  But I'm doing it as insurance, to be there for my husband and 2 sweet kids who are only 2 and 5.  They need a mommy to be around for another 40-50 years!  And I want to grow old with my husband and never have to worry about cancer again.  I've cut it out, and now I'm gonna poison it out.  NO more cancer for me!  Hang in there, girl!

  • Determined1
    Determined1 Member Posts: 806
    edited December 2007

    Good luck with the MUGA, Kathy.  It's weird, I changed cancer centers for the chemo part and they're not running any tests on me beforehand.  They have all the written reports from my other center, but it just seems strange to me that I'm just going to walk on in there on the 27th, get a fingerstick to check my blood count and trot off to let them put poison in me.  I've called my case nurse to see if they wanted any tests and she's as calm as a cucumber saying "no."  Guess it's okay...

    Later.

    D1

  • vettegal
    vettegal Member Posts: 287
    edited December 2007

    Hey Jewels of January!!

       Back from my meltdown yesterday..D1, thanks for the encouragement, I let my hubby read your post and he was touched by it as much as I was. I just found out I am her2/neu negative..don't know what it means right now...They said I wouldn't  do herceptin, so I don't know where that leaves me on that front...Another thing to be educated on. I have told everyone about this message board and I am blessed that we have all met and can share all the craziness togetherSmile hugs to all the sisters of this post!!

  • KathyL
    KathyL Member Posts: 534
    edited December 2007

    Vettegal:

    Good news not being HER2+.  Not a nice form of breast cancer... it tends to be more aggressive.  But it does respond to herceptin so that's why you hear us chatting about that drug.  Yours should respond well to hormonal therapy if I'm not mistaken.  Yay!

  • vettegal
    vettegal Member Posts: 287
    edited December 2007
    kathy thanks for the positive news. First time in a few days i actually feel positive about something! WHEW!Laughing
  • Determined1
    Determined1 Member Posts: 806
    edited December 2007

    Yep, yep, HER2- is good.  You'll probably get tamoxifen after chemo and rads (that's what they're giving me and we have a similar dx).  If you're post-menopausal you get arimidex (or one of those inhibitors) instead of tamoxifen, but I don't think that applies to you.  This is a very good development for you.  Now to get through that #$%^ AND on Friday with clean nodes!  We're pulling for ya!

    D1

  • TPPJ
    TPPJ Member Posts: 1,017
    edited December 2007

    Hi Ladies,  I, too, am from the Jan. 2007 thread.  Last year at this time was a mind boggling fog.  But once you get started, you'll feel good that you are doing something about your situation and believe me, the time will fly.  A year later, my hair is back and I'm feeling completely normal.  And you really do get to a place where you can live a fairly normal life where you aren't thinking about it 24/7.  I never believed that day would come.  My best chemo tip:  Emend.  I did four A/C's and 12 taxols and never, ever had a day of nausea due to Emend.  Ask for it.  Best of luck all!

  • Nancyab
    Nancyab Member Posts: 276
    edited December 2007

    Hi, I am also from the January 07 group here to offer my support and hugs to all of you. Just like my 07 sisters said, next year you will be where we are. Feeling good and looking normal again! Focus on that and you will breeze through the chemo. There is so many things out there to help you with the side effects! All the luck and love!! and Get well soon!!

  • KathyL
    KathyL Member Posts: 534
    edited December 2007

    Thanks to all the Jan. 2007 gals for your encouragement!  I'm leaving soon for my MUGA scan and "chemo talk" today.  I think the "talk" is going to hit home and be difficult to hear... but I'm trying to keep positive and know that by doing chemo I'm giving it all I've got!

  • vettegal
    vettegal Member Posts: 287
    edited December 2007

    stay positive KathyL..What ever you learn you share with us and we will be there to support you....I won't have my chemo talk to after my surgery....I made a descision today...I am getting my haircut short tonight, not buzzed bur short

  • KMK
    KMK Member Posts: 35
    edited December 2007

    I'm in. I am beginning my TC treatment today. Then 2 in January and last in Feb. I am hoping to take my mother and teenage daughter to Italy a month later in March. Cancellation date in Dec. 31 - it is a lot of walking. I am in good shape now...any thoughts on how long till energy comes back after last treatment?

    thanks,

    KMK

  • Determined1
    Determined1 Member Posts: 806
    edited December 2007

    KMK--good luck today!  Please come back and tell us all about it.  Can't help with your Italy decision as I don't start till next week.  But I LOVE Italy--that alone would seal the deal for me!

    Jan. 07 gals--thanks ever so much!  Just when I get nervous about this one of you pops in to offer encouragement.  I can't wait to be in your shoes!  Please keep stopping by.

    Vettegal--how you doing, mentally, with your surgery coming up on Fri?  Getting a new 'do ought to help your outlook!  I'm getting my "in between" cut on Dec. 30 (hope I'm not too sick).

    Gotta get in the shower--it still takes me a half hour to do it all as I have to style my hair.  Looking forward to cutting that back!!  ;)

    Later.

    D1

  • vettegal
    vettegal Member Posts: 287
    edited December 2007

    hey D1- mentally OK, i think. last night i slept and hour up an hour type sleep. so, i am tired today and i think the haircut thing will be good for me. I am thinking with this surgery not being able to lift arm way up to work/wash hair, going for something short and cute.

    truthfully i am getting real scared, but i am human and i have a lot of emotions right now. I have friends from all over the country calling me sending me cards and flowers and I have been touched by everyone i get. I cry my hubby cries..we cry togetherCry.

    enough about me...HOW ARE THE WONDERFUL JEWELS OF JANUARY?Smile

  • golfer779
    golfer779 Member Posts: 1,378
    edited December 2007

    I'll be jumping on the chemo wagon in Jan too.  Wondering if any of you have had your port flushed?  I had it put in Nov 8th assuming I'd be able to start in Dec., unfortunately had more surgery last week.  While I was in the hospital I asked about having my port flushed since it had been in for 5 weeks and not used.  They did flush it and it hurt like heck when she poked me, the nurse said that it should not be as bad as that when I'm using it on a regular basis.  Any input appreciated, Carol

  • Caya
    Caya Member Posts: 971
    edited December 2007

    Hello January 2008 gals

    I too am from the January 2007 chemo group stopping by to offer my encouragement.  I am one year out - I had my MRM one year ago yesterday.  I started my chemo on January 25 (3 rounds of FEC, 3 rounds of Taxotere - this is a common chemo treatment used in Canada, the UK and other commonwealth countries) - then I started Herceptin in June 2007 - and have completed # 10 of 17 total infusions. The chemo is doable - have saltine crackers, some bland veggie soups, bananas, applesauce around for those first few days after chemo. 

    Most important - take those anti-nauseant drugs regularly the first few days after chemo, even if you don't think you need to.  The idea is to head off the nausea, not try to play "catch up" with it.

    Good luck - one year from now your hair will be growing back in, and this will be behind you.

  • Lori0118
    Lori0118 Member Posts: 13
    edited December 2007

    Hello Ladies,

    I am new to this site (joined today).  I wish I would have joined when I was first diagnosed with met bc in 2004 in really needed someone to talk to that knew what I was going through.  Been in remission for exactly 1 year.  Had a PET scan 2 weeks ago and everything was good.  Better that ever before.  Until I showed my onc a "rash" kinda looks like really small hives, under my breasts, at the base of my spine, a few under my arms and on the back of my neck.  He said he wanted to do a biopsy just in case.  The surgeon that did the biopsy is a skin cancer specialist and he said he was sure that it was a rash from detergents or soaps.  Low and behold just my luck, the biopsy came back as breast cancer.  It's not very common, but my breast cancer actually left my body and is now on my skin.  So Dec. 31st I begin Xeloda.  What is really upsetting is that I finally feel pretty normal. I got a full head of really thick curly hair.(Better than the hair that I lost! lol)  And the thought of more Chemo just sucks.  Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to you all! 

  • Determined1
    Determined1 Member Posts: 806
    edited December 2007

    Oh Lori, I'm so sorry you're going through this again.  I cannot begin to imagine...  I'm not familiar with Xeloda, do you get a port or via IV?  And how often will you receive treatment?  I really hope it goes okay for you.

    Okay Vettegal, crunch time!  Got those presents wrapped?!  I'm starting to freak out about the holiday and I don't do any cancer stuff till the 27th!  You must be in stress city.  Remember to take an Ativan before bed tomorrow to get a good night's sleep.  Sounds like you need it.  Heck, take one tonight, too!

    Carol--welcome to JJs!  (January Jewels--our moniker--I've decided we should all get diamonds post-treatment.  If you have anyone who can buy them for us that would be a great contribution!)  How are you doing?  Any movement on the arm?  Remember to ice it.

    KathyL--any news from the cancer talk?  I'm all about stealing ideas from other people as sometimes I don't really know what to ask.  Many times I find your experiences help me so much with mine.  Hope your MUGA was okay.

    Sharon--hope you're doing okay.  Please post with an update when you're up to it.

    We're off to NYC this weekend to window shop and see "The Little Mermaid" on broadway.  My oldest (18) LOVED The Little Mermaid when she was little--I even still "see" the songs in my sleep.  Probably not most folks' first choice for a broadway show, but I know we'll have a good time.  Next day, we're going to walk around the NYU campus (even though no one will be there) since that's a school on my little one's (16--junior in high school) list.  Back home on the train on Christmas Eve.  So I have to have everything ready by Friday evening.  I figured what the heck--what's a little more stress around the holiday??

    Hope everyone is good.  I'm going to enjoy a bottle of wine with my dh tonight--my chemo nurse told me I'm not supposed to drink while I get tx's.  I'm hoping I can prove her wrong as I LOVE a glass (or two) of wine every night if I can.  But just in case, I'm going to sauce it up over the next week!  ;)

    Onward through the fog!

    D1

  • golfer779
    golfer779 Member Posts: 1,378
    edited December 2007

    D1 - have a great time in the big apple.  And enjoy that glass of wine, I asked my onc about that and he said, just be smart, a little wine is okay.   Music to my ears!!!!  Carol

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